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Of Two Minds: Being a Dad
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I want to do the right thing. The most right thing, the thing that takes all possibilities of right, good, success in account. Sunday, June 21, 2015. As long as I can remember, I wanted to be married. I wanted to be a Dad. I remember often "catching" my parents being affectionate. It's not like it's rare. I've amused myself over the years finding similar pictures of me, zeroing in on Jenni. 1906 – 1945. So on Father's Day, I am grateful for my Dad. I am grateful he has been careful and healthy, so he's s...
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Of Two Minds: The Superbowl
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I want to do the right thing. The most right thing, the thing that takes all possibilities of right, good, success in account. Saturday, January 24, 2015. Last Thursday, I heard an advertisement for a local radio station contest. They were giving away a "Superbowl Party" for a listener. It transported me back to last year's superbowl, and what was going on for us then. When I checked him in, they told us that he could have visitors in ten days, on the following Saturday. They wanted all of the patien...
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Of Two Minds: 02/01/2014 - 03/01/2014
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I want to do the right thing. The most right thing, the thing that takes all possibilities of right, good, success in account. Sunday, February 16, 2014. Most Comfortable Baseball Game Ever. Over the years, my folks have shared many tickets to Aberdeen Ironbirds's games with us. We'll often go to the parking lot on nights they launch fireworks, even if we aren't watching games. Jennilyn is practicing making the sailor's knot bracelets she gave to our pioneer trek kids. See those comfy chairs? Did you kno...
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Of Two Minds: Mother's Day! Mothers Day!
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I want to do the right thing. The most right thing, the thing that takes all possibilities of right, good, success in account. Sunday, May 10, 2015. My Mom with her Sisters Jackie and Candy. My Dad with his Mom (Billie), her Mom (Me-maw), and *her* Mom (Maudie). Mom playing cards with Grandpa Stewart, Uncle Ron, and Dad. Mom, standing behind her Dad (Howard), sitting next to her Mom and two sisters. Mom and Dad in Billie's place, looking very '60s. Mom and Dad. That looks more '70s. 9:09 AM, May 10, 2015.
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Of Two Minds: 11/01/2014 - 12/01/2014
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I want to do the right thing. The most right thing, the thing that takes all possibilities of right, good, success in account. Wednesday, November 26, 2014. 2013 Trip to Poplar Island. These photos are from a field trip I took last year (18 months ago) to a facility that my Agency helps operate called Poplar Island. Jennilyn posted about it in 2012. When I went with Jennilyn, Sam, Roxie Jane and Suzu. Suzanna looking out the window, then looking at the photographer. Grandpa John came too. On the way home...
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Of Two Minds: My Remarks on the Passing of My Son Maxwell
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I want to do the right thing. The most right thing, the thing that takes all possibilities of right, good, success in account. Sunday, August 10, 2014. My Remarks on the Passing of My Son Maxwell. My son, Maxwell Defiance Landbeck, was killed early the morning of July 13, 2014. I’ve written about Max before. This post is my effort to make sense of his death. To find personal context and peace with it, to see the meaning in our loss and grief. In the months prior to that, he struggled with substance abuse.
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Of Two Minds: Just Around the Corner
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I want to do the right thing. The most right thing, the thing that takes all possibilities of right, good, success in account. Wednesday, February 25, 2015. Just Around the Corner. My son Maxwell sang in a premier choir. When he began singing with the Maryland State Boychoir. He was a tenor, but as his voice matured, he moved into the bass section. I can hear him. I can see him. And my heart, in the brilliant clarity of grief, fills in the spaces where his face is blurry. The second passes, and I am lost...
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Of Two Minds: 09/01/2014 - 10/01/2014
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I want to do the right thing. The most right thing, the thing that takes all possibilities of right, good, success in account. Wednesday, September 03, 2014. The day after Maxwell died. We found two "suns" taped to our back door window. Jennilyn caught the anonymous neighbor almost immediately, but didn't share who it was. It has been an ongoing balm. It was a beautiful act of love and kindness. It was consistent, simple, earnest, true. Links to this post. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). Making it "impossibl...
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Of Two Minds: 01/01/2015 - 02/01/2015
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I want to do the right thing. The most right thing, the thing that takes all possibilities of right, good, success in account. Saturday, January 24, 2015. Last Thursday, I heard an advertisement for a local radio station contest. They were giving away a "Superbowl Party" for a listener. It transported me back to last year's superbowl, and what was going on for us then. When I checked him in, they told us that he could have visitors in ten days, on the following Saturday. They wanted all of the patien...
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Of Two Minds: 05/01/2015 - 06/01/2015
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I want to do the right thing. The most right thing, the thing that takes all possibilities of right, good, success in account. Saturday, May 30, 2015. Camping in May of 2013. I *think* it was May 2013. Our son Maxwell died over ten months ago. As we near that sad anniversary, we are first moving through a season of smaller anniversary mournings. The last time I drove Max to play practice. The last time Max had dinner with us. The last time I heard him sing. The last time he texted me. I remember this hoo...
