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Tuesday, March 30, 2004. Perhaps few realise that a relationship (any platonic one) has to work both ways. You have to be willing to let me treat you as such, for me to be able to treat you as such. What a drab person I am. 0 had their say have yours? Monday, March 29, 2004. Bloody hell. Haven't had such a hard time since 02. Hate people who try to act the saint. Try to pretend that their emotions don't matter. Don't you get it? 0 had their say have yours? 0 had their say have yours? Something kor said s...
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Monday, October 27, 2003. I like to read. I think I've rediscovered it. Kor has diagnosed me. I shall work towards it. Econs not very well. Disappointed. 0 had their say have yours? Sunday, October 26, 2003. Is this the end? I think it is the end. What do I want to do? Cut and slash and hurt myself. Cut and slash and hurt myself. Cut and slash and hurt myself. Cut and slash and hurt myself. Cut and slash and hurt myself. Cut and slash and hurt myself. [repeat cycle infinitely]. I like to seek death.
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Thursday, September 25, 2003. It's been quite a while. Most eventful thing - losing conciousness in the school toilet sometime last week. Drudgery of mugging now, as it is for everyone. The once perpetually noisy classroom is filled with a deadly silence, each isolated in his own world of syallabuses, graphs, and words. We all close up, turning to each other seemingly with only the ulterior motive of finding out "how much have you done so far" or senseless whining. 0 had their say have yours? Wz, read yo...
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Friday, April 30, 2004. Somehow I feel worse. The swelling and bruises still persist and I can barely eat or talk. So much for originally wanting to return to school. 0 had their say have yours? Wednesday, April 28, 2004. If only you listened a bit more. 0 had their say have yours? Beep- medicine. It makes me nauseous that I think I'll be better off without it. And may it work out this way. It's really really really time to let go. 0 had their say have yours? Tuesday, April 27, 2004. I never knew I was a...
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Sunday, August 31, 2003. Very disfocused of late. Sorry to those whom I've been having online conversations with and have many other things to do, but have to endure my long laggy replies. I can't focus on the topic. I am so sorry. [mainly addressed to one person actually]. I've broken my promise by 11 minutes. So sorry. I will go and sleep now. 0 had their say have yours? Friday, August 29, 2003. L - London (Protocol). N - Napoleon III. 0 had their say have yours? 0 had their say have yours? We prod aro...
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Tuesday, August 31, 2004. More than half of my email account goes missing for some queer reason and i am very pissed off. Econs is going badly, lit is alright, math is fine and history is at a standstill. 0 had their say have yours? Thursday, August 26, 2004. I wonder if I choose the future based on what I want, or based on what others think is suited for me. Truthfully, there's a feeling that I shouldn't do ppe, shouldn't aim so high, shouldn't want so much. 0 had their say have yours? 1 Get postal order.
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Tuesday, November 30, 2004. 0 had their say have yours? Sunday, November 28, 2004. The signs of a failed memory. 1) Chaoyuan messaged me a few nights ago - 'comm meeting at 9 this sunday'. I said I had a paper left, then I realised it was on tuesday, so I said 'sure, will be there'. 2) About 48 hours ago, I was arranging with lixin to get my bp notes back. 3) I conveniently arranged to meet her at 9 at bb mrt on sunday on my way to prac. 0 had their say have yours? Monday, November 22, 2004. Friday, Nove...
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Sunday, May 09, 2004. Meanwhile, I have to sort out my mixed feelings towards the orchestra, which oscilliates between the extremes of love and hate. 0 had their say have yours? Monday, May 03, 2004. If I look back on my stint, I wonder what I've done. Did I gain friends? Barely. Did I make enemies? More than likely. Do I really care that I won't keep in touch with more than half of them? 0 had their say have yours? Sunday, May 02, 2004. What, is the point, of loving an orchestra? Sunday, May 09, 2004.
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Thursday, May 29, 2003. The Newater trip yesterday was average, but dinner with Zhongkai was good. Very good. Thanks Zhongkai, I never knew I could actually converse with you until yesterday. I think, it's a pleasure to know people and make friends. It's just that I'm not very much inclined to it. 0 had their say have yours? Saturday, May 24, 2003. It's been quite a while. Almost 2 weeks. I feel so nice to her today. 0 had their say have yours? Sunday, May 11, 2003. But I know I can never get it now....
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Thursday, February 26, 2004. It's mortal's birthday on monday. Hope to be able to get him something over the weekend. BT stress is catching up with me very quickly. 0 had their say have yours? Tuesday, February 24, 2004. Being alone is a strange state. We never truly are alone. Alone, is how we see it, how we choose to build emotional wars around ourselves to block others out. 0 had their say have yours? Wednesday, February 18, 2004. 0 had their say have yours? Wednesday, February 11, 2004. S Econs is wo...
