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My Wild Thoughts: I'm Not Angry
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I should be angry when things happen to me, but I'm not. At times when I shouldn't be angry, I am. This has been happening for the past month or so after my work-home balance is tipped off, well, not by much, since I was crazily working when I was with that company. Urgh. I'm just not angry enough. And I know I'm very destructive when I'm angry. So, with many years of practise and patience, somehow I'll just let it slide, only to just mildly poke at them again to get a very mild apology in return. The bo...
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My Wild Thoughts: August 2011
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Why do I make myself this busy? Am I afraid of searching for the abstract anymore? It's funny that I ask this, because part of me being busy is about searching for these abstract unknowns. Like chasing philosophy, democracy and youth entitlement. Whatever happened to chasing for my personal enjoyment? Love, lust, hatred, arts? They seemed so miniscule compared to the plans I'm chasing on right now. Moreover, will that even be breaching the contract? I think I need to talk it over. This slowdown made me t...
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My Wild Thoughts: Draggy June
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June turn out to be a long long long LONG affair. While I got May to keep my head in the clouds by all the travelling, June turned out to be a pleasant exchange actually. For one, I've been kept busy by my friends who keep wanting to meet me again and again, that while I reflect on this I'm like "whoa, slow down there. I don't know I'm THAT in demand! As if this can't become any sweeter, well, lets just say I've received some reciprocation at my part. We both discussed and we both agree that whatever...
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My Wild Thoughts: Amazement
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I'm to be unemployed in a week. I thought I was going to feel very sad and discouraged by the fact that I will not be in the job market very very soon, until today. Quite a few people knew I was quitting already. Bla bla bla, and this person (not the employer), we just have some empty chats, until he told me there will be a new writer filling my place after I was gone. And then I realised something: Someone else is being the sucker. I wonder how long he or she will last. I'm amazed actually. On one h...
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My Wild Thoughts: August 2010
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Too many questions, the need to escape, again. Again I feel like escaping from this place I live in. What's up with that? Just as again I heard how my grandmother chokes on the softest of food, I feel the need to run away from this place who will soon be too depressing to stay in when my grandmother did move on to another realm. I hate it when death occurs, really do hate it ever since I got that shock of my life. How sad is it for a human to just want to get her own private area? Just stupid talking)...
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My Wild Thoughts: May 2011
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So I screwed up. So I want to explain what I was doing. But I can't be hear out. It's equally fatal apparently whether or not you have the malicious intent to ruin kinships. I'm still wondering what my other friend who was also in the mutual circle will do if she knew I took the stupid step. Will she side with them for justice, even though she wasn't familiar with what's going on nor is she that friendly with them but she'll do it anyway? I ponder and wonder. What can I do anyways? Just get sad for a few...
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My Wild Thoughts: January 2011
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I've made a decision not to treat myself so seriously in terms of Internet presence per se. Pretty much a self-discovery for me after a few turns of looking at my Twitter, Facebook, Blog and Tumblr. Bear with me here, I'm going to talk about this self-discovery and the good thing about it. It's narcissistic. Now here's the thing. Hell, I haven't had time to read through all the political analysis to make a good judgement out of a political issue compared to my times as a student. 1) The existence of old ...
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My Wild Thoughts: July 2011
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It's time for another verbal diarrhea, one that I have to spit out before I could feel normal again? I've not been tempting fate as of late, but merely letting it flow through my veins, and surprisingly, yielding more positive than negative results than I could ever imagine. But what surprised me is that every time I talked to somebody about the positive things that happened to me, or the coincidental things that just happened at the right their reply is always this. This is fate, isn't it? I've been avo...
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My Wild Thoughts: March 2011
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Out of reach. Ventilate. Getting further. Hyperventilate. Unreachable. Claw protuding. Aiming. Relax, failed. Claw aiming, at neck. Scratch. Tear. Pull. Nerves reacting. Pain. I remembered the time I whipped out my Blackberry, only to take a black and white picture of the side of the swimming pool while my media camp friends were enjoying the time of their lives. The time before he succumbed to heroin and emerged again, awesome and musically talented. So youthful, so handsome, so age compatible! I can't ...
