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Fear | Reluctant Memsahib
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The diary of wife, mother and failed domestic goddess in Africa. Laquo; Reasons to Fly. When the Words are too Small. Not long ago I stood on my verandah and screamed. I opened my mouth and howled. Out loud. To the forest and the sky and the silence and the mildly, briefly, astonished dogs. And then I burst into tears. So much time, so many hours, slipping through my fingers. I said to Ant, ‘sometimes’ I said, ‘I feel as if my life is passing me by? He asked, ‘is it enough? God, do I. That I go mad.