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Finding Myself: August 2010
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Monday, August 23, 2010. I don't want to hurt anymore. Tuesday, August 17, 2010. Perfect isn't who I am. It's not who I want to be. Maybe I just want to be somewhat perfect to someone else. I don't feel pretty enough. Skinny enough. Smart enough. I point out all of my flaws to myself and I think, how could someone else not notice them? How could someone else love me with them? I just can't seem to find the answers within myself. I'm always seeking somewhere else. Thursday, August 5, 2010. I dont want to ...
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Finding Myself: June 2010
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Thursday, June 24, 2010. About four months ago, I found a lump in my right side. It's bigger now. Guess I will make a doctor's appointment. It's probably nothing, but I have to take care of myself. Will keep you posted! Friday, June 18, 2010. I want it so badly. Somebody other than me. Staring back at me. Friday, June 11, 2010. The weekend is here. As much as I want to do something, there isn't much to do. I don't like the bar scene, but right now, that is an option. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom).
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Finding Myself
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Friday, October 15, 2010. I moved in with a friend so that life would be "more affordable". So far it hasn't been that way. I've lost my way to be me as well. Every day I go to work. Every day I want to blend in with the office furniture. I work in the complaint department. Along with my disrespecting boss and realizing that if I had a penis, I'd be better off in the company. I dislike my job more and more. AND he said that his mother told him I was a keeper? Why did he even tell me that? Love you, mom.
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Finding Myself: December 2010
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Tuesday, December 14, 2010. For those of you who read my blog: I will probably be MIA for a while. Dec 31st is my last day at work so I won't have internet access. I'm being "let go" due to my emotional/personal (and lack of major help in my department) problems. The stressful job has become too much for me and according to my boss (who disrespects and doesn't like me) the department isn't being ran right and my head/emotions have been "all over the place". I can agree with that part, but I tried.
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Finding Myself: November 2010
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Friday, November 12, 2010. On Monday I will be 33 years old. I have an issue with getting older. I feel like everyone is passing me by. I have nobody to share my life with, no children of my own to love, and no place to call home. However, I do have my health and a job. For that I am thankful. My friend bought me a ring. The ring says "Nothing is impossible". She wants me to remember that. I need to remember that. I've lost faith in all possibilities for myself. I think I need a drink. Thank you, Coyote.
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Finding Myself: October 2010
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Friday, October 15, 2010. I moved in with a friend so that life would be "more affordable". So far it hasn't been that way. I've lost my way to be me as well. Every day I go to work. Every day I want to blend in with the office furniture. I work in the complaint department. Along with my disrespecting boss and realizing that if I had a penis, I'd be better off in the company. I dislike my job more and more. AND he said that his mother told him I was a keeper? Why did he even tell me that?
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Finding Myself: July 2010
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Thursday, July 29, 2010. Every time I see him, we seem to get a little closer. He said: Thank you. He said: For being you. I think that is the best compliment anyone can get. He reminds me of someone I used to know. I never thought I'd find that level with another person again. At least I hope so. Wednesday, July 14, 2010. Today I realized that maybe I depended too much on that person. Maybe they felt it too. A friendship, a relationship, a cult? I'm afraid to give it a chance. I'm afraid not to. It's a ...
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Finding Myself: Cheers
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Friday, November 12, 2010. On Monday I will be 33 years old. I have an issue with getting older. I feel like everyone is passing me by. I have nobody to share my life with, no children of my own to love, and no place to call home. However, I do have my health and a job. For that I am thankful. My friend bought me a ring. The ring says "Nothing is impossible". She wants me to remember that. I need to remember that. I've lost faith in all possibilities for myself. I think I need a drink. What you wrote abo...