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Argyle State of Mind: "Bittersweet Way"
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May 9, 2010. Even if I were writing fiction I would not be able to come up with a better starting point than this. This May, I am doing something which is very unlike me. Being adventurous. I am taking trips to Canada, to Florida, and to North Carolina before finally returning home 3 days before I start my summer job. Despite my fear of heights there is a possibility that I will go skydiving, and it is certain that I will be taking two flights up and down the East Coast. Flaming bags of dog poop? The ass...
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Argyle State of Mind: The Canada Chronicles xi - Flowers For Shaneiferd
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May 22, 2012. The Canada Chronicles xi - Flowers For Shaneiferd. It's time to drop a bombshell. I hate pretty much everything about my life. And furthermore, I kind of hate myself. I swim in a sea of self-loathing.it's several fathoms deep and stretches from horizon to horizon. Would you guess that from reading this blog or knowing me in the 'real world'? I hate my university. I hate that I find it so easy to criticize my peers for being lazy and incompetent. I hate my academic program. Last spring, comi...
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Argyle State of Mind: Cowboys
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June 22, 2013. This blog post comes to you from the kitchen of the home that my father and stepmother share in North Carolina, on the last night of my vacation. Prior to this month, my last trip down here was 3 years ago, just after my first college graduation. ( There seems to be a pattern developing here. Also, I got to drive this. Vroom vroom. In this moment, I am incredibly sad. Because for all of the great experiences that I had on this vacation, I also came to terms with one difficult fact. Deep do...
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Argyle State of Mind: The Thin Red (Hair)line
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April 3, 2013. The Thin Red (Hair)line. Almost a month ago I wrote a post to say that this is the happiest, and most fulfilled, that I have felt in quite some time. My, how the times have changed. It's 2 AM. I can't sleep. I'm freaking out.largely because I can feel the rapid decline approaching. Coming fast. On the outside, I appear fine. Internally, my stress levels have increased exponentially over the last week. When I have kids and a mortgage? So what are my options? The only valid possibility is to...
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Argyle State of Mind: Professor Pilgrim Redux
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April 9, 2013. Today is only Tuesday.but by Monday afternoon I was already having a rough week. I had a couple counseling sessions, some of which were trickier than others. Then I got my midterm review from my supervisor.and it was less than favorable. I won't get into specifics, but I was seriously pissed. I drove home for dinner, and then walked straight to my other internship site where I caught up on paperwork until 9:00. ( No wonder I don't have a social life anymore. The counselor left the room....
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Argyle State of Mind: If I Lose Myself Tonight, It Will Be By Your Side
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April 11, 2013. If I Lose Myself Tonight, It Will Be By Your Side. Lyrics from "If I Lose Myself" by OneRepublic, off of the album Native). After weeks of being down, I am once again climbing out of the pit. I had a meltdown on Sunday night. To the point that I regressed psychologically. I guess, after falling so low, I had nowhere to go but up. I'm the most highly functioning, yet cripplingly depressed, guy you may ever meet. Maybe I just have Seasonal Affective Disorder. Ever since the weather brok...
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Argyle State of Mind: The Man Behind The Curtain
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July 4, 2013. The Man Behind The Curtain. After 3 years, and 40,000 hits, it feels bittersweet to say that this will be my last entry on Argyle State of Mind. On May 9th, 2010, the day after I received my undergraduate degree, I wrote my first blog post. At the time, this page was called "Candidates and Constants" and had none of the very modest following that it enjoys today. The irony comes from knowing that while I spent a great deal of time and energy letting the members of this community into my lif...
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Argyle State of Mind: On The Couch
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February 27, 2012. I take a breath. "Can we get something out of the way? Something I probably should have brought up last time.". You're used to being the helper.". Yeah, exactly. That.". You feel like you're wasting our time, time that could be spent helping someone else.". I breathe slowly and deeply, letting the words wash over me. It's incredible how quickly the weight is lifted from my shoulders. You don't care that you don't care.". Would you like to set a goal? I think. "My top priority is fi...
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Argyle State of Mind: Haunted - Part 2
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August 24, 2011. Haunted - Part 2. The Interpretation of Lucid Dreams. You're very committed to staying out of relationships, aren't you? One of my friends asked me last week. Pretty much, yeah.". I paused to consider the question. "Hmm.no. Not really.". You don't have to be in a relationship with someone to enjoy some of the benefits.". You care about people, more than almost anyone I've ever known. I just don't want to see you deprive yourself of what makes you human.". This is someone different. F...
