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Abstract Altruism: Help me escape myself
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14 September, 2011. Help me escape myself. Take my heart and split it in two, so that one half can never see the secrets of the other half. Kiss my lips and hold them open so that no audible words can escape me. Sing loudly around me to drown out the whispers of betrayal. Blind fold my eyes, so I can see with my soul for my sight misleads me . bind me an hold me for without deliberate. Intent I have become. A creature caught in a web, naively waiting to be preyed upon. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom).
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Abstract Altruism: Blogging
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14 September, 2011. It's been a while since I've posted any thing on this useless blog! Last year my life has been one cluster-fuck of bad decisions, I somehow felt entitled or justified as I knowingly made these bad decisions, and I couldn't help myself! I just hope some day I can look back and feel alright. With how things have turned out, life has a way of working it's self out one way or another, but it's the journey that can end up killing your soul. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom).
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Abstract Altruism
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17 June, 2009. I had high personal expectations for this blog, no really! What else do I have to do during my lunch hour? Then why do I feel like this is sooo pointless, kind of like, face book. Ok I take it back, this is way better and less intrusive then face book, honestly if I never go on face book again it will be to soon, I just don't get it! Anywho, life is super peachy;. My car is a worthless POS which has been in the shop since last weekend, and it's going to cost me a small fortune to get back.
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Abstract Altruism: June 2009
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17 June, 2009. I had high personal expectations for this blog, no really! What else do I have to do during my lunch hour? Then why do I feel like this is sooo pointless, kind of like, face book. Ok I take it back, this is way better and less intrusive then face book, honestly if I never go on face book again it will be to soon, I just don't get it! Anywho, life is super peachy;. My car is a worthless POS which has been in the shop since last weekend, and it's going to cost me a small fortune to get back.
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Abstract Altruism: February 2009
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26 February, 2009. I am so excited I feel like I could shout from the roof tops until I lose my voice! Last Saturday I submitted this painting to the San Antonio Art League for a art exhibit, I was so nervous. I wouldn't get excepted. All the art pieces were going to be judged by a panel including a guest judge from New York. Anyhow long story short. I found out yesterday that this piece was excepted! I had tried not to get my hopes up too high, but now I'm on cloud nine! Links to this post. I am so exci...
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Abstract Altruism: September 2011
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14 September, 2011. It's been a while since I've posted any thing on this useless blog! Last year my life has been one cluster-fuck of bad decisions, I somehow felt entitled or justified as I knowingly made these bad decisions, and I couldn't help myself! I just hope some day I can look back and feel alright. With how things have turned out, life has a way of working it's self out one way or another, but it's the journey that can end up killing your soul. Links to this post. Insomnia is a bitch! A creatu...
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Abstract Altruism: Insomniatic Writing
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14 September, 2011. Insomnia is a bitch! She steals what's yours. Abuses and denies what you live from, lies to you and tells you that your stronger than that, and when you least expect it, she has you tossing and twitching helplessly pleading for a moment . jut one moment to relax, to feel your eye lids heavy and sore, resting, forgetting all and falling . falling deeply. And like a cruel. Lover she leaves you in the morning and you lay in your bed frustrated. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom).
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Abstract Altruism: January 2007
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18 January, 2007. Links to this post. Relationships a mathematically provable tautology wΔz = cov(wi,zi) E (wi,Δzi). I find myself translating situations in life and daily interactions with people in the form of equations and formulas. While it sounds overly mechanical it some times makes so much more sense then trying to figure things out through emotions or feelings. For example a covariance equation;. The measure of how much two variables vary together. If two variables tend to vary together. Has qual...
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Abstract Altruism: March 2009
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16 March, 2009. Don't look at me with sympathetic eyes, don't pretend to show interest when I know it's only out of pity. I know you know what I hoped you wouldn't know, I know you think you care but it's out of boredom that you feel the need to talk to me. Links to this post. 12 March, 2009. It should have never happened. Not to us, not to me! Life has taken a nasty turn, one day every thing is right, you make plans you have dreams and then . what? Where did it go? Links to this post. Where is my mind?
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