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Living in my Black Fog: Peeking through the letter box
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Living in my Black Fog. A day-to-day look at life with chronic depression. Monday, July 8, 2013. Peeking through the letter box. That was an awesome run. I felt good and was pretty productive for the past few months. I was sleeping okay for the most part,… being somewhat social (Is shopping alone being social? Seeing family more than usual,… I was (dare I utter the phrase “almost normal”) My apartment is pretty much done and looks awesome now if I do say so myself. July 10, 2013 at 4:34 AM. There was an ...
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Living in my Black Fog: June 2012
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Living in my Black Fog. A day-to-day look at life with chronic depression. Wednesday, June 27, 2012. 1 step forward, 2 steps back. I made a point of being aware that it would be difficult and forcing myself to be pro-active by pushing myself to do what’s good for me. But, I’m afraid, things don’t seem to be going to plan in that aspect. In fact,… I seem to have regressed. But,… It’s just so difficult to actually leave this apartment to see them. At the time that I make plans with friends ...Monday I went...
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Living in my Black Fog: July 2013
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Living in my Black Fog. A day-to-day look at life with chronic depression. Tuesday, July 16, 2013. Just do three things,. But today. Today was a real test. I woke up feeling very depressed and down. Add to that the weather is extremely hot (34* 40* with the humidity) and I just felt like a limp dishrag. I'll be honest with you. I wished that I could have gone back to bed and never woken up again. Links to this post. Thursday, July 11, 2013. But I think if I work at it, I can still do well. Well, It’...
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Living in my Black Fog: March 2012
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Living in my Black Fog. A day-to-day look at life with chronic depression. Thursday, March 22, 2012. Denial, denial, denial,. I have been abusing prescription meds for nearly 20 years. And over the past 20 years I have managed to find a way to make it sound legit. The Doctor prescribed them to me so therefore its perfectly alright to take them. Right? Today, I am admitting for the first time that that is definitely wrong and I definitely abuse the drugs I have been prescribed. The craving is unbelievably...
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Living in my Black Fog: May 2012
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Living in my Black Fog. A day-to-day look at life with chronic depression. Thursday, May 24, 2012. Taking a "Matilda Day". Sunday we gave “Ol Bella” (my car) a good cleaning in and out. Another swim at the Captains,. another good dinner,…. And then an evening in watching a marathon of “Celebrity Ghost Stories”. Next day was my 3 hour group therapy class which turned out to be quite intense. I left feeling overwhelmed and drained. (I usually do). Links to this post. Thursday, May 17, 2012. In doing this I...
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Living in my Black Fog: March 2013
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Living in my Black Fog. A day-to-day look at life with chronic depression. Tuesday, March 26, 2013. Anxiety leaves me in a prison. So I was forced to hand in my resignation and apply for disability from the province. So it was good-bye to York Medical. The best job I ever had. Boy, did I have a lot to learn on that one. It leaves me feeling like a failure. But,… as I always try to do in this blog, I do have to look at the bright side. (and today it was really hard to find one) At least I go...I also have...
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Living in my Black Fog: May 2013
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Living in my Black Fog. A day-to-day look at life with chronic depression. Saturday, May 25, 2013. Please make my mind stop,. Wow, 4 weeks of feeling really good. Woo-who! My living room/dining room painting got finished and it looks great. It now looks like an adult lives here and I’m not squatting in some college dorm. But, Sunday I took a turn for the worse and now I’m back to struggling again. Links to this post. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). Facebook - Bipolar Indigo. Bipolar Indigo - Facebook. I am a...
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Living in my Black Fog: July 2012
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Living in my Black Fog. A day-to-day look at life with chronic depression. Friday, July 27, 2012. I hate just barely existing. I feel so numb. empty. dark. Is it my medication that makes me feel this way? Or is it the illness? I want to go off of all my meds. The Seroquel has turned me into a zombie. But without it, I always end up in hospital. I just don't know what to do. I'm so tired. Tired of feeling nothing. Except sadness and darkness and loneliness. I don't have a life. Links to this post. I exist...
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Living in my Black Fog: January 2012
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Living in my Black Fog. A day-to-day look at life with chronic depression. Sunday, January 22, 2012. The mental illness roller coaster ride. Well, the past few weeks have been up and down. But that's not bad because it would seem that I'm having more "up" days than I have before. This must be a sign that the new medication is starting to work. Or at least that's my hope. Links to this post. Wednesday, January 11, 2012. A blip in mood. Tuesday night I just felt so horrible that I took double my Seroquel d...
