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Cheshire Cat Smile: May 2006
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We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars. Friday, May 12, 2006. I am sick of being such a stoic. I am tired of taking it and taking it. I am miserable. And it is my first day back home. The only bright spot was registering for class, filling out job stuff, and seeing Luis. Am I a bad person? Because I no longer give a fucking damn about anything? I do not care anymore. If wishes were fishes. This is my cheshire cat smile.]. Posted by Veritas at 7:39 PM. The Road to Damascus.
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Cheshire Cat Smile: November 2005
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We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars. Monday, November 28, 2005. Lions and horses and birds, oh my! The beasts, they are a-clamoring. And I am walking freely to it. It is compelling, to be compelled. People speak, and say things will not change;. Always the heat catches them, and makes fools of us all. Do not pretend to know what is going on, I do not. Heaven preserve my wits, if anything. I so do not wish to fall before my time. I will be your creature, if you will be mine.
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Cheshire Cat Smile: March 2006
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We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars. Tuesday, March 21, 2006. I will be honest. I do not always feel loved. I do not always feel liked, even. But for most others.I feel out of place, I do not fit here in this puzzle; my soul is a million miles away whilst everyone me around becomes entangled in the thorns. Sometimes, those few I genuinely enjoy talking to want nothing to do with me. I am too strange, too smart, too weird. I am out of place. I feel like screaming. In politica...
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Cheshire Cat Smile: September 2005
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We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars. Thursday, September 22, 2005. Absolute power corrupts absolutely. Me: if i started being nice all the time, i wouldnt be able to stop.id burn out.cuz i wouldnt be able to keep everyone happy all the time.ack, humanity. You: sometimes i start to burn out.but it's not really about keeping everyone happy all the time, it's about setting an example that hopefully people will follow. You: some people are just born to be leaders. Me: true enoug...
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Cheshire Cat Smile: June 2006
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We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars. Sunday, June 18, 2006. How is it going to be? How is it going to be, because you do not know me anymore. I think it might be the time I warned you about so long ago. Do you remember? Do I sound unfeeling? How is it going when you do not know me anymore? This is my cheshire cat smile.]. Posted by Veritas at 11:31 AM. The Sunny Smile You Cant Deny. What the fuck kind of name is Edward Doorhander. The Road to Damascus.
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Cheshire Cat Smile: February 2006
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We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars. Sunday, February 19, 2006. Today, being the 19 of February of which I speak, was a mellow day. I love mellow days, full of video games and good company, and really anything that is relaxing, non-strenuous, and decidedly hedonistic. This is my cheshire cat smile.]. Posted by Veritas at 10:32 PM. Friday, February 10, 2006. I do not know. Sometimes, I feel like I am missing something. And it is not just Ireland. I do not know. I have time now.
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Cheshire Cat Smile: October 2005
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We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars. Sunday, October 30, 2005. But it felt like freedom. I'll always be Blue as Wine. I know that now. You asked me Why. And I said Because. It’s not a good explanation. In the heat of this moment. My mind doesn’t rule. And I cannot know Why. Only half is there. The other me is gone. I’ll both be here. But in times like these,. I don’t change my mind. I’m always Blue as Wine. We all have two sides. Else they see it when,. Always one eye open.
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Cheshire Cat Smile: December 2005
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We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars. Monday, December 19, 2005. What more can I say? This is my cheshire cat smile]. Posted by Veritas at 9:50 PM. Monday, December 12, 2005. He is afraid I will walk out one day and never come back. He knows I could. I know I could. I would not, as far as I know. Not soon, anyway. But I need the illusion. Even if I never leave. I cannot be kept, not closely. I wish I knew precisely the depth of feeling there. He is hard to read. I only know,.
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Cheshire Cat Smile: January 2006
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We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars. Saturday, January 28, 2006. I know you can survive without me, because it is what you do. You lived seven months without me, and I found you broken, but you were still alive. I found you broken, inside and out. I am doing my best to mend you, because that is what. If so, I am sorry now, if I was not then. I konw I make the past my business, as do you.but it will be my business, and not my leisure. The future is my leisure. If you let it.
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Cheshire Cat Smile: July 2006
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We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars. Monday, July 31, 2006. I have moved on. I am happy once more. I am free. I give you your peace willingly. I am going to be honest again, I am taking my journal back. Posted by Veritas at 8:46 PM. Wednesday, July 05, 2006. You have my love, dear. You have always had that. You simply no longer have me. I can find no other way to say it, and I am sorry. Posted by Veritas at 9:51 AM. Monday, July 03, 2006. This is my cheshire cat smile.].