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fire at will: May 2010
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Monday, May 24, 2010. Well, I turned 29 this weekend and it was an absolute blast. The date saved the day on a number of occasions and at the end of it all, I'm still standing. Now I go into tech for a show I adore, and I pray that it all comes together well. We have no time. Saturday, May 15, 2010. There is so much going on. So many responsibilities. My planner is practically exploding. How do I keep it all straight? How do I keep it all together? Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). There is so much going on.
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fire at will: June 2011
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Tuesday, June 21, 2011. Or, Why I was having a really bad, no good terrible awful day the other day. I laugh at the Universe, because the Universe laughs at me. This, pricks the ear of one of his fellow mentors, who mentions that they grew up in my city. So the conversation follows some close pattern:. My Future Husband: I might not be back next year. I'm moving out to Blah, and I'm not sure about the commute. I grew up there. MFH: Really, yeah, my future wife did too, she went to This High School. This ...
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fire at will: The end of an Era
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Saturday, March 17, 2012. The end of an Era. Nobody is perfect. Not you, not me, not anyone. As we go about trying to find our life partners, we look for people who. Some look for people who are imperfect in the same way, so that they can comiserate together, or understand the struggle. Some look for people who are imperfect in a different way, so that they can play on each other's strengths. Now you decide you don't trust it? I haven't learned yet. I don't accept full responsibility for the fall of ...
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fire at will: March 2010
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Wednesday, March 31, 2010. Didn't see that one coming. Happy though. Always wanted good things for him. Now, he's got good things for life. I hope it's for life. Thursday, March 18, 2010. I love my life! Wednesday, March 17, 2010. The Bear told me last night. That he wanted to marry me, and could I hurry up and fulfill my dreams so that he could. He said he's been holding back all this time because he knew that I'd go into mom/wife mode, and give up my dreams to accomodate my new role in my new life.
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fire at will: April 2010
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Thursday, April 08, 2010. Things are clipping along at a nice pace. I got a ton done this morning, a brief workout, made and ate breakfast, made and packed lunch and two snacks, got gas and still made it in to work. My friend is great. We have a ton in common, and everything he's said he would do, he has. There's no dreaming, there's just realistic possibilities and goals. So far, I am maintaining my goal of not being someone's girlfriend. I don't feel like a girlfriend. That feels good as well.
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fire at will: January 2012
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Sunday, January 15, 2012. Cultural entrapments of the tired insomiac. I am an American. Worse, I'm bi-racial. Even worse, still, I'm bi-ethnic. The absolute worst thing? And I don't want to be. I've toted the line, growing up Persian in a Black environment, fitting in where I can, picking and choosing the roles, rules, mores and fores as each situation presents itself, and thorougly driving myself slowly insane. How offensive is that? I don't have a family. I have selfish people who only care what th...
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fire at will: July 2010
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Tuesday, July 06, 2010. Free your mind, and the rest will follow. There is so much going on. For the next several weeks, I only have one day per week (Thursday) where nothing is planned after 3 pm. I stopped writing, which used to be my way of detoxifying all my stressors, so this is a nice reminder to return to the outlet that helped me the most. My friday looks like this:. 9 am Drink 24 ox of water over next hour in order to flood bladder. Don't pee. 330 pm Round 2. Hooray! Round 1 is for my primary ca...
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fire at will: Has it Been Three Years?
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Wednesday, February 11, 2015. Has it Been Three Years? Wow Where does the time go? For me, the time was spent in a causality loop, and I'm still in recovery. In Recovery. Two words that carry a lot of weight. I'll need to sort with my thoughts and get back to this one. b. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). Has it Been Three Years?
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fire at will: I am a rock. I am an island.
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Thursday, June 09, 2011. I am a rock. I am an island. I am not completely emotionally okay. Whats that supposed to mean? There was a really rough emotional patch I went through not that long ago. I blogged about it, but it was really rough to be in at the time. I knew I needed to write in order to have peace, but that was all I could get out at the time. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). Or, Why I was having a really bad. I am a rock. I am an island.