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The Real Me: May 2008
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Sunday, May 11, 2008. I get to the point where i finally think that im okay. Death is sooo prevalent this year. I cant get away from it. First kelley. then will. now my aunt. Why is this happening? My heart is repeatedly getting shattered. I feel like i cant take one more bad thing happening. And may 31 is coming up. which means 2 years since i've lost jered. Im almost 19 but im still a kid. I cant handle this. I know that im not alone. I know that i am ridiculously loved by my heavenly father.
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The Real Me: summer months
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Thursday, August 21, 2008. Well its been a while. a long while at that. The past few months have been crazy. But not busy crazy. More like "insanely difficult/an emotional roller coaster ride". Well lets put it this way. My faith has never been tested so hard. Sometimes i wonder how jesus could possibly want me. But through all of this ive learned that his grace is enough for me. Ive been blessed with an amazing family and some really great friends. But i know that theres a purpose to these trials. The w...
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The Real Me: why?
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Friday, February 29, 2008. Yesterday i found out a that a friend that i've grown up with since kindergarten, committed suicide. my heart is broken. the pain is all too real. this wasn't the guy that i knew. he was funny, smart, polite and easy going. i guess he was just tried of the struggle and made a bad decision.unfortunately, this one is permanent. Sometimes i just have to ask why? Its like theres this dark veil covering my face from reality. i dont understand how people can willingly and purpose...
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The Real Me: March 2008
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Thursday, March 13, 2008. We're all full of it but do we really see it? Beauty in our brokenness is the most beautiful. This whole thing im enduring is beautiful. Its let me see how much i really need to depend on Christ. His sacrifice more than enough but he did it for us. for me. I am no where near worthy. He endured the pain so we wouldn't have to. To me, that is pure beauty. I am so thankful for great friends and an even greater God. Sunday, March 9, 2008. Ever have one of those days? Thats how i fee...
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The Real Me: just some thoughts
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Friday, February 22, 2008. I know that getting out of your comfort zone can usually be a great thing, but nothing feels better when you're home and where you belong. Oh college life. how i love it and hate it at the same time. Ive never felt so welcome and be so lonely, so happy yet cry more than ever, extremely comfortable but still always on edge, so indepenedent and freeing but feeling so alone and scared. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). Song For The Broken. View my complete profile.
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The Real Me: January 2008
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Thursday, January 31, 2008. I Believe in Love. How long will my prayers seem unanswered? Is there still faith in me to reach the end? I'm feeling doubt, I'm losing faith. But giving up would cost me everything. So I'll stand in the pain and the silence. And I'll speak to the dark night. I believe in the sun even when it's not shining. I believe in love even when I don't feel it. And I believe in God even when He is silent. And I, I believe. Though I can't see my story's ending. And I, I believe. Him as w...
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The Real Me: August 2008
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Thursday, August 21, 2008. Well its been a while. a long while at that. The past few months have been crazy. But not busy crazy. More like "insanely difficult/an emotional roller coaster ride". Well lets put it this way. My faith has never been tested so hard. Sometimes i wonder how jesus could possibly want me. But through all of this ive learned that his grace is enough for me. Ive been blessed with an amazing family and some really great friends. But i know that theres a purpose to these trials. The w...
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The Real Me: well crap
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Sunday, May 11, 2008. I get to the point where i finally think that im okay. Death is sooo prevalent this year. I cant get away from it. First kelley. then will. now my aunt. Why is this happening? My heart is repeatedly getting shattered. I feel like i cant take one more bad thing happening. And may 31 is coming up. which means 2 years since i've lost jered. Im almost 19 but im still a kid. I cant handle this. I know that im not alone. I know that i am ridiculously loved by my heavenly father.
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The Real Me: hjakdghaigajgadar
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Sunday, March 9, 2008. Today i woke up and wanted to do nothing but lay in my bed forever. Ever have one of those days? Its weird how on some days i'm okay and then the next i feel so horrible. I know its normal, i just dont like it. People i've talked to say that the road im on is a long one, and the healing takes a long time. But i dont want it to take time. i want it done now. Im just tired of the pain, tired of crying and tired of being so down all the time. I dont understand life and i never will.
