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My Inner Monologue: October 2010
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Saturday, 30 October 2010. Too sad to do anything, or so sad because I'm not doing anything? This weekend I've spent about 16 hours staring just at it. I've written no more than 350 words in that time. And there's a mouse. I made cake for rev band tonight after failing at the essay. I'm sitting up watching it cool down so the mouse doesn't eat it. I can hear the bugger. Where's a cat when you need one? I need some strategies. I don't know how to react when I see nothing. It all seems to much to cope with.
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My Inner Monologue: October 2011
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Friday, 28 October 2011. Everything is open, nothing is set in stone. It can be frustrating when there are no answers. No rhyme or reason, no direction. I guess all we can have is hope for our tomorrows, that one of them will be better, holding on to the knowledge that we are loved. Monday, 24 October 2011. It takes some cold to make the sun. I'm stuck in a place where I don't know my mind. Torn between fight and flight. I should fight, I want to fight,. Of the unstoppable circle that I can't break out of.
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My Inner Monologue: February 2011
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Sunday, 27 February 2011. Oh, how I try, to be just okay. I'm glad you came. It's nice to see you. Perhaps I should change my name, change my identity, change my mind. Flitter through life without an aim. Without a dream. At least that way I couldn't fail. But the thing is, I'm really liking who I'm becoming. And I love that it came out of what I was. I'm really believing that this now, right here, is just one chapter of many past and still to be written in the book of my life. I could be anything. I'm l...
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My Inner Monologue: Sun rises. Night falls.
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Saturday, 15 October 2011. Sun rises. Night falls. Sometimes the sky calls. 15 October 2011 at 13:57. OMG I love love that you posted this Heather! I always liked this song. When I was in Europe with my friend we went to the French Riviera. It saddened me to leave and this song was in my head. And we ended up returning! I was so happy. 15 October 2011 at 19:04. Havent heard this in ages! It brings on my childhood nostalgia :) Thanks for posting. 16 October 2011 at 20:00. So call back to the sky,.
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My Inner Monologue: December 2010
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Friday, 31 December 2010. Ell, it’s that time of year again. The time we reflect on all the events of the last year. We resolve to let go of the things we don’t want and hope to find a way to get more of what we do want. However, it’s never that clear cut. How would we know what we want if we don’t experience some of what we do not like? Like sunshine or rain. It can sometimes be trial and error. Lack of outlook on life. Not believing in myself. Putting everyone else first. Experience to guide me. Breakf...
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My Inner Monologue: August 2011
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Wednesday, 24 August 2011. I'm going away again, this time I'm going to sing. I hope it will add some kindling to my burt out soul. Thank you for your love, I love you all. Tuesday, 23 August 2011. The night is as the day. It's times like these, late at night, that I start to feel the weight of the world crushing down on me again. The panic sets in and sleep walks out on me leaving me alone with myself. I do not want to let this darkness cover me but I am not strong enough to fight these dragons alone.
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My Inner Monologue: All tangled up in my own expectations
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Wednesday, 19 October 2011. All tangled up in my own expectations. 20 October 2011 at 04:34. Heres to hoping that that one day is right around the cornor just waiting patiently for us. 21 October 2011 at 03:39. Sometimes one days appear overnight, as if by magic, and are just sitting there when you wake. I sincerely hope yours comes soon. (And you deserve to be aware of your true worth and to be happy as you. Just you. Not someones perception of you.) ♥. 21 October 2011 at 04:06. 23 October 2011 at 21:51.
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My Inner Monologue: July 2011
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Saturday, 30 July 2011. I'm going to a place of magic and dreams where I can write my soul on paper and breathe the fresh air. I love you all very much and I shall be back. This is where I'm going - the Isle of Iona. Magrit's house - Iona Abby. Saturday, 23 July 2011. I long for you, to keep my hope from dying. Psalm 22, arrangement by the psalm project. I got myself in this mess. I do it to myself. I need rescuing, but it has to be me that rescues. Thursday, 21 July 2011. Leave all this misery behind.
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My Inner Monologue: It takes some cold to make the sun.
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Monday, 24 October 2011. It takes some cold to make the sun. I'm stuck in a place where I don't know my mind. Torn between fight and flight. I should fight, I want to fight,. Tired of long nights and seemingly never ending darkness,. Of the unstoppable circle that I can't break out of. My body and my mind are just too tired to keep fighting. I don't know what to do. 24 October 2011 at 01:50. Oh, Heather, my heart is hurting for you. I am praying you will find strength and wisdom. *HUGS*. Were here for you.
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My Inner Monologue: April 2011
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Friday, 29 April 2011. Oh sweet collar bones,. Where have you been? It's been a while,. Since I saw your smile,. Etched across my chest. They days are longer now,. The sun warm on my skin. Yet still your face,. Brings light to my life,. But I'm not scared, anymore. I no longer need. Your bitter sweet oxygen;. Couldn't melt my heart. I'm learning to breathe once again. Louder than ever before. Can they not hear my screams? Sunday, 24 April 2011. Jess gave me a present today. I feel like this is a huge tas...
