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{ ostensibly }: at long last, have you no decency?
http://banananana.blogspot.com/2009/09/at-long-last-have-you-no-decency.html
At long last, have you no decency? What's slowly becoming clear is this: that if I'd found all this so unbearable five years ago, that I'd decided (haphazardly, superciliously) to leave, then it's only gotten worse. But, another part of me (that part that I've come to like) is currently in Amsterdam, biking alongside a canal, dreaming of pannenkoeken and nice fat spliffs, and thinking of grandiose ideas meant to save humanity, but are, in reality, too obscure to do much of anything. To gnash one's teeth.
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{ ostensibly }: sold my red horse for a venture home
http://banananana.blogspot.com/2010/01/sold-my-red-horse-for-venture-home.html
Sold my red horse for a venture home. A YouTube comment posted re: a live performance of Lump Sum. I am not sure if I am happy as a little child or sad and alone when I am listening to this song.I feel like all the people are one big family and there is nobody unhappy, but at the same moment I am so alone deep in myself and anybody can't [ sic. Understand me.it is so fascinating song [ sic. Yeah, that about covers it. I kind of want to crawl inside his music and sleep. Our cook makes the best gravy.
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{ ostensibly }: These fucking guys...
http://banananana.blogspot.com/2010/04/these-fucking-guys.html
I'm certain you're the president this country needs. But, your chances are slim to none. I'll probably still vote for you though (a recent development). The only redeeming thing about you is that you have an actual chance of winning this election. And, in the miserable race of serious contenders, you're easily the lesser evil. This country really shouldn't have to settle for that. I really don't know anything about you. And, you know what, your political motivations? Disastrous. So, yeah. I want this life.
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{ ostensibly }: Quite the hiatus
http://banananana.blogspot.com/2010/01/quite-hiatus.html
I haven't been writing much because in some ways, my life has been unbearable. And I just didn't know if I could trust myself with that. I want so much for this to just work. Maybe I've spent too much time trying to justify my circumstances, when, really, all I've needed to do was just live them out. So maybe my life hasn't been unbearable after all. It's been bearable - viciously so. And, maybe, finally. I can no longer endure it. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada.
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{ ostensibly }: snow flurries, london fog
http://banananana.blogspot.com/2009/03/snow-flurries-london-fog.html
Snow flurries, london fog. Seemed like a good idea. But, the reality of its atrocity was immediately overwhelming. (We watched Forgetting Sarah Marshall. On cable instead.) So, Friday night’s lessons were: (1) drunken sushi-making is never a good idea, and (2) true friends always throw out the garbage for you. Saturday morning (and afternoon, fine) I spent in recovery. Then had dinner with my mom and brother, took them out for some Mexican (mmm, chile relleno. Suck it, Vancouver. Except, you know, actual...
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