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Sunday, July 30, 2006. Cant get to slp. Eyes were dry n i reli wan to slp. But somehow my stupid mind is fully awake. Went to watch 'the lake house'. I cant say its v romantic. But i guess its like a fairytale la. Meeting someone from far den get together. Something like 'sleepless in seattle'. Wad will u do if someone u likes have interest in somebody else? Will u try to forget tt person? Or u dun wana give up? My frd wana delete her memories. Wads e point if eventually u still cant forget? Maybe she ca...
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Thursday, August 03, 2006. Was playing ard with my handphone under the blanket when she asked. Msging my other ger. She kept quiet and continue to watch vcd. after some time. Hey y u no reaction de? Wad reaction u wan mi to have? Well wan to see whether will u be concern or not. She reli no reaction. . - -' '. Hey u reli dun care if i got other gers ah? If its urs its urs. Wa u mean trust huh? So it doesnt matter who i msg is it? I believe one shd have their own space and frds. U mean u dun know tt?
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Wednesday, December 06, 2006. Shld you stay or go is a question only you can answer. Do you want to let her tag you along, while she's taking her time and enjoying your treatment, while you spent your life as a yoyo? There's no right or wrong, its about what you want? If you want happiness, where are you going with her? I can only say, "if I were you" I would break it off as I wont be able to take it like that. Someone sent it to mi on fridae. We faced similar probs. dating a 10 yrs older woman. Looks ca...
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Wednesday, November 29, 2006. Its been days since my heart was broken. Its been like hundred of hours since i allow myself to wallow in self-pity. Its just yest tt i tout we still have something special. Its just few hours ago tt i realise i shd reli let go. I still couldnt figure it out e reason for not letting go totally. My heart was bruised and wounded. My beliefs were totally wrong. My expectations were not met. N most impt of all,there's no more trust. Watched "Happy Feet" with her yest. E emotiona...
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Wednesday, March 29, 2006. Duno whether its good news or bad. Im going for night duty soon. Hai was informed by DO today. Was shock unprepared and upset. I feel tt my foundation is not stable yet. Y must they send mi to night? My coach told mi they need old n new staff for night. Faster finish night cycle e better. Its 6 months. n i gona miss my colleagues alot. especially. I start to doubt my ability. I start to think tt im not capable. My coach told mi how i have been performing lately. Who knows. ...
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Monday, September 11, 2006. After rain comes sunshine. Or is it just a facade? Listening to head rather than heart. But the longing increases. How long do i need to carry on i dunno. Im trying to occupy myself. But as times like tis. i miss her. I do wish she's beside mi now. Lookin forward to my gary's chalet tml. Just get drunk n no need to tink so much. Feel so no mood. Friday, September 08, 2006. My hrt feels so alone. After e numbness comes intense pain n disappointment. I miss the old her. Duno how...
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Monday, February 27, 2006. Cant get to slp. Tink i slept too much today. Coz i too free nothing to do. Had a nice break from work since yest. Stayed at hm n slp. Was being lazy but cant help it. I tink no matter how long i slp oso not enough. I polish my court shoes. Eeee to wear tt. Got to wear no 3 (tunic) tml. There's tis online 'sex show' abt tis nyp ger. My god. was so disgusted by e person who posted it. Well its reli invading privacy. Its an offence to post tis thing online. Deserves to get punish.
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Monday, October 09, 2006. Have you been in a relationship? Your partner is with you but not with you? She is with you physically but her heart is still pondering the chance of another relationship with another one.waiting for her to express her feelings to her? She dun deny it. she loves you, but she is not sure you are the right one. she stil needs to search. you will be selfish, cos you dun want her to search. you are sure you are the one for her. but she is not. You are still having her. But now. ...
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Wednesday, June 21, 2006. Its been some time since i blog. I dun have e mood. Things has not been going smoothly for mi. Was still trying to cope wif the night duty thing. Guess i feel v lonely at night when im working. Shes not with mi n i miss her. Things starts to change between us. I duno. suddenly i feel so tired. Tired of trying. tired of loving her. Was disappointed in e way she treats mi. My bday is coming n. i duno whether will she give mi my biggest present. To spend my bday wif mi. Y must we p...
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Thursday, April 27, 2006. She left for work. Im still at home. Im already missing her. She left for pat's house on tue. I was alone, lonely n missing her badly. She knows. n when i asked y she left. She gave mi a v lame reason. In my hrt. i was hurt. I wan to. im so scared of getting hurt. Anyway she came over yest with homecook dinner. Was feeling her care for mi. But den. she eaten le. With who. i guess its pretty obvious. I mean. i nv see it personally. But i can sense n from e way she msg. Sunday, Ap...
