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The Village Art Group. Has been taking summer painting courses since 1996. Butterfly 2013 8 x 10 $100.00. Orchid – 2013 8 x 10 $100.00. Carissa a Flower Girl. 11 x 15 inches on canvas. A Winter Morning in Haliburton. 11 x 15 inches on canvas. 11 x 14 inches on canvas -sold. Glacial Lake, B.C., Canada. 11 x 15 inches on canvas – sold. 10 x 14 inches on canvas. 22 x 14 inches on canvas. 13 thoughts on “ Janis. April 3, 2009 at 10:50 pm. April 4, 2009 at 1:41 pm. Thanks so much. You are my one true fan.

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~Perfect~: Not Having It.

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Tuesday, December 3, 2013. I feel like a weight has been lifted with regard to B's father. You may recall the last update I gave about him Post Here. I feel like I agonize over every exchange with him and he just blurts out the most ridiculous garbage. WHAT is the point of that question? What is he trying to pull? What The. Hell? I had to sit on that one for a minute. And then just said "Tell me why you're asking". He replied "Holiday cards. If that's okay". And again, I repeat.WTH? Perfect. Somethin...

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~Perfect~: I crave him.

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Saturday, November 9, 2013. I do I find myself craving contact with B's father and I have to ask myself.how is this tied into my own father issues? Because I'm pretty sure that it is. It has to be, right? I can't see any other reason for this intense desire to be in contact with him constantly. We had an exhange yesterday that was a little questionable. He made a suggestive comment and I, inadvertently, sortof agreed with him. I know that sounds dubious, right? Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). View my...

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~Perfect~: She closed the door

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Friday, November 15, 2013. She closed the door. I wrote about a particularly bad panic attack I had while at the acupuncture doctors office 4 weeks ago. Post is here. I went back last night for the first time and had a fair amount of anxiety going into the office. I was also openly hostile. This was not a conscious choice but rather something beyond my control. I was closed off and simply full of rage. He closed the door and walked out while dismissing my statements. I recognize that I have so many mothe...

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~Perfect~: Negative

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Thursday, October 3, 2013. I feel like one big giant ball of negative right now. I am so unhappy and it feels too overwhelming to find the bright side. So I'm going to wallow in my sea of negative for a few minutes. 1 I cannot seem to stay on track with my diet. I am up, I am down. I am disgusted with myself. It should motivate me to stay focused but instead it just makes me want to eat more. That is everything that my text was just about! What am I contributing to this world? Perfect. Something I've...

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~Perfect~: October 2011

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Tuesday, October 11, 2011. Girl Put Your Records On. Or, more to the point, take the record off. Smash that stupid thing on the ground. So I've been dating. Well, at least I've been *trying* to date. I joined a dating site about 3 months ago. It's been pretty pathetic, really. Imagine my surprise when about a month ago, I randomly met a guy out of the blue at a fall festival and we hit it off. We've been talking and have gone out three times now. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). Perfect. Something I've sp...

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~Perfect~: Bad Day

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Friday, October 18, 2013. Yesterday was a rough day. Started off alright but the afternoon brought a work crisis of moderate proportion. You know how sometimes, someone asks you to do something then they continue to check on your progress every few minutes thus impeding you from actually completing the task? I need to make a conference call at 3, will it be fixed by then? I have a client waiting for a proposal, is this almost fixed? Why is it taking so long? And also like I am spinning at the same time&#...

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~Perfect~: Not Fair

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Tuesday, November 12, 2013. I mentioned that I have started the process of addressing B's issues. I have not shared these issues with her father. He doesn't know her, has never met her. We spent large chunks of her life not speaking at all but have reconnected in the past few months with the sole purpose (at least MY sole purpose.his motives are still questionable) being the exploration of a relationship between the two of them. Every part of me froze and screamed inside.ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? ButI ...

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~Perfect~: December 2013

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Tuesday, December 3, 2013. I feel like a weight has been lifted with regard to B's father. You may recall the last update I gave about him Post Here. I feel like I agonize over every exchange with him and he just blurts out the most ridiculous garbage. WHAT is the point of that question? What is he trying to pull? What The. Hell? I had to sit on that one for a minute. And then just said "Tell me why you're asking". He replied "Holiday cards. If that's okay". And again, I repeat.WTH? I am not satisfied&#4...

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~Perfect~: July 2010

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Wednesday, July 28, 2010. Can anyone else understand a survivor? Can anyone not living with PTSD understand how it warps and ties experiences together whether they seem relevant to an outsider? Can someone with no reference point of abuse begin to comprehend what comes along with the aftermath? The intense shame and self doubt that permeate areas of our lives? Oram I using that as an excuse because I don't want to hear the things she's saying to me? I don't always take advice well, especially if I've not...