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BRAINDEAD GENIUS - life, liberty & the pursuit of sanity: for once in my life...
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Tuesday, March 11, 2008. For once in my life. Man oh man this shit ain't never easy. It ain't exactly hard but there are times when i just have to cry. I am grieving the loss of something precious to me. I am excited about the direction my life is going in. I am a little anxious about all the changes that are taking place so rapidly in my little world. I am extremely grateful about having my kids, my relationship with God and my support network in such abundance. I am feeling on a whole different level.
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BRAINDEAD GENIUS - life, liberty & the pursuit of sanity: July 2007
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Tuesday, July 31, 2007. Nothing to Fear, but fear itself. Links to this post. Is masterbation a form of 'self-love'? Is it some nasty thing that only perverts do? Is it just another normal, natural thing that normal people do? Good question. The answer is. whatever you think it is. We create our own realities sometimes, and that reality can be ugly if its based on misinformation. Why am I even talking about this? I'll just be glad when my mind believes that too. Whew! Links to this post. 3 I am growing a...
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BRAINDEAD GENIUS - life, liberty & the pursuit of sanity: what is this...?
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Saturday, March 8, 2008. That comforts me when i am uneasy. That relieves me when i am in pain. That gives me courage when i afraid. Reassures me when i am unsure,. Encourages me when i am in doubt,. That loves me in a way that never fails. Has no conditions, strings attached or hidden agendas,. Loves me in a way that is forgiving, understanding, accepting and patient. Loves me in a way that completes me and takes nothing away. Why am i so filled up when my emptiness had here-to-fore defined me? I am so ...
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BRAINDEAD GENIUS - life, liberty & the pursuit of sanity: trust and faith...
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Sunday, March 9, 2008. I know that there are times when my trust in my Higher Power wavers; mostly when i am hurting, fearful and when what i want isn't in alignment with His will. There are times when i am all twisted up on the inside, not sure that He is really going to work this all out for me. What i mean is that i am kinda lonely at times (it helps so much when my kids are with me) yeah i have my friends and that helps too, but i still have difficulties not having a "special somebody" in my life.
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BRAINDEAD GENIUS - life, liberty & the pursuit of sanity: tears...
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Saturday, March 8, 2008. As the tears roll down my cheeks and hit my keyboard a message suddenly reveals itself as the drops hit the keys in a certain pattern that forms the words that express what my mouth never could:. Just for today i have all that i need, at best i am only human and i suffer from a disease from which there is no known cure, but i am dedicated to doing my best to stay on this path and i am ready to shed many more tears if thats what i need to do. Feel free to cry with me sometime.
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BRAINDEAD GENIUS - life, liberty & the pursuit of sanity: March 2008
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Wednesday, March 12, 2008. This is the story of a father and his son. One day they took a stroll around the block. the son decided to run ahead of the father as he was enjoying himself so much. The father watched lovingly, protectively and with much pride observing the beauty of his son. The son splashed in the mud and the snow making a mess and having a ball. The father occassionally offered his hand to the son, but the son declined; he could handle things he decided. Links to this post. I am a little a...
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BRAINDEAD GENIUS - life, liberty & the pursuit of sanity: Awakening...
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Wednesday, March 12, 2008. This is the story of a father and his son. One day they took a stroll around the block. the son decided to run ahead of the father as he was enjoying himself so much. The father watched lovingly, protectively and with much pride observing the beauty of his son. The son splashed in the mud and the snow making a mess and having a ball. The father occassionally offered his hand to the son, but the son declined; he could handle things he decided. An Irish Friend of Bill.
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BRAINDEAD GENIUS - life, liberty & the pursuit of sanity: May 2007
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Friday, May 25, 2007. Links to this post. Can I still compete? Just for to day I will talk about my feelings, seek the help of a power greater than me to help me get restored to sanity and seek to live the solutions. I am always able to find comfort in the fact that "HOPE IS FOUND HERE" even hope that this too shall pass. Links to this post. Tuesday, May 22, 2007. Well God i do believe i'm going to need your help on this one. Links to this post. Sunday, May 20, 2007. The Good, Bad and Ugly. What can I do?
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BRAINDEAD GENIUS - life, liberty & the pursuit of sanity: February 2008
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Wednesday, February 27, 2008. Yesterday i lost my mind. Through a series of events i ended up shoving one person and threatening to kill another. I was hurt and angry (to say the least). When the mention of calling the cops occurred i immediately got restored to sanity. I don't like cops or jail. So i cried and hurt and apologized to the individuals involved and i share with my support people and finally a light bulb came on. I found a new understanding of what's really been going on with me. I cried bec...