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CHAINS OF LIGHT: Nothing is what I thought it would be and I am grieving
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Menu and Home page. Saturday, July 11, 2015. Nothing is what I thought it would be and I am grieving. If it's happening in my life, then it must be God's will. No desire for control. Seeking the higher path. How long can I employ these tools while constantly being affected by the choices of a loved one? At what point does "surrendering to God's will," become foolish, blind victimization of self? It feels like that. I have had so many expectations. Expectations. That I never really knew were there. My fam...
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CHAINS OF LIGHT: Anniversary
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Menu and Home page. Saturday, May 16, 2015. Today I woke up, sneaked out of bed from my daughter who had sneaked in overnight, threw on yoga clothes and grabbed my mat. I opened the front door and set up my mat right in front of my front door and just started moving. The sky was brilliant, the sun was peeking in and out behind clouds. And organically in my movements I found myself bowing. I bow to her. Then just as organically as that happened, I found myself bowing again. I bow to him. And finally, I bo...
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CHAINS OF LIGHT: because you deserve...
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Menu and Home page. Tuesday, May 5, 2015. What do you believe? Do you really believe that you deserve peace? Do you really believe that you deserve healing? I know you. I have met so many women just like you. Strong, tough, broken, beautiful women who really want healing, who really want peace. But do you really believe? The other day I found that one of my faulty core beliefs was: I deserve pain. Interesting right? No more. I am a chain breaker. And you deserve peace and healing too. Tools that have all...
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CHAINS OF LIGHT: miracles
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Menu and Home page. Friday, July 31, 2015. Lately I have seen the Lord's hand in my life so abundantly that I felt that I absolutely must share. The very course of our family has shifted. We are on a very direct path and now that I am on the path, I know what it feels like. though before we were on the path, I didn't know we weren't on it. It's now His life. But I often try to take it back. like at least a few times a day. ha! Now, for the miracles:. Spring of 2013 He did his student teaching and promptl...
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CHAINS OF LIGHT: Cry Baby! Thoughts on vulnerability.
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Menu and Home page. Sunday, November 3, 2013. I have been blessed with a tiny infant born only 3 short months ago. I say “blessed with” on purpose, because she is SUCH a blessing. Baby’s are always blessings, but it didn’t feel that way throughout this entire pregnancy, given the circumstances. Now that she is here, I feel so much gratitude for her. This morning she taught me something. As a signal that they are hungry and they won’t wait any longer! 8221; or “Come on sister, have a little patience!
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Begin Again | grappling hooks
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One year ago my husband and I began our journey toward recovery. We enrolled in and attended LifeSTAR, he attended 12 step groups, and we had nightly check-in’s as a couple. My attitude in the beginning was “. Can do this.” “. Can heal.” “. Can love.” “. Can recover.” “. Can move forward.” “. Can be healthy.”. From the beginning, it was, in my mind always. Was I doing recovery work for myself? I don’t think the answer is a clear and powerful “yes”. Because, hi, I’m (was? I cannot force his love. I ca...
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CHAINS OF LIGHT: gardening
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Menu and Home page. Saturday, May 9, 2015. I have been doing gardening lately. I started some from seed. I put the seeds in little slots with dirt, watered them and set them by a window. I only have to water them every other day and they grow! Then he gives a disclaimer. If it is a good seed but you never nourish it or water it and you neglect it, then you pluck it up and cast it out, assuming it was a bad seed. But actually it was your fault that it didn't work. Have I neglected it? So I up my game, and...
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CHAINS OF LIGHT: I almost died twice last night
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Menu and Home page. Tuesday, December 3, 2013. I almost died twice last night. 8220;It was so weird to have him yelling the f word in my face about how all these things were my fault… And in a lot of ways he was saying it was his fault but still implying that it was my fault. It was the same message, just a different delivery. I continued to ask, and remind him that I have always asked, “what did I do wrong? What do I need to work on? So, if you are still reading, here’s the recent confusion. Yes it is J.
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CHAINS OF LIGHT: ~heart open~
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Menu and Home page. Tuesday, December 16, 2014. Today my Yogis told me something:. Never close off your heart. And of course I was thinking "this is insane." I was even thinking "if only you knew what I'VE been through." -like im the only person in the room who has ever experienced suffering. I was also thinking, "I'm pretty sure closing my heart at times has really served me". Is that why I often feel I have no energy? Have you ever felt that way? It's very simple,. Just don't let it close. So last nigh...
