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Beck: The hunger that never goes away...
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The journey of a married Mormon man who is attracted to other men. Thursday, May 19, 2011. The hunger that never goes away. Reading Invictus' last post really got to me. The idea of being hungry, of the desire and longing that doesn't goes away. Sure, that's part of the human experience and it's just part of life. As much as I do all of the above (and as much as my wife hopes and wishes and prays for it to diminish). I just wanted to testify once and for all of one truth. Not until you get some. People m...
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Beck: May 2012
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The journey of a married Mormon man who is attracted to other men. Saturday, May 26, 2012. If a film can bring one to laugh and cry and truly fill the spans of emotion, and develop the opportunity for a thought-provoking discussion about the saga and reality of a mixed-oriented marriage, then it must be a worthwhile piece of cinema. Such was our experience in seeing with my wife "The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel". At the risk of spoiling the film for others (SPOILER ALERT! Monday, May 21, 2012. Tapping int...
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Beck: Saturday viewing...
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The journey of a married Mormon man who is attracted to other men. Saturday, September 28, 2013. Not a lot to say. Life goes on and like you, I seek to find a path to be the best I can be. I hope someday to be in a situation where I can come to terms with my self-hatred enough to able to attend in the flesh. The self-hatred didnt happen overnight. The self-healing doesnt happen overnight either. The first group taught me it was possible for a gay person like me to love myself just as I am. Coming out eno...
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Beck: February 2015
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The journey of a married Mormon man who is attracted to other men. Tuesday, February 17, 2015. In my correspondence, I was asked:. You mention that when you just leave it alone, "the gay" seems to leave you alone right now. I wonder if you could reflect on your current reality as it relates to the following quote that I included in a recent post that you wrote:. Am I regretting my choice? Do I miss the bromance encounters? You bet I do! And He loves you and wants only the best for you! MNJ - lido deck.
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Beck: A simple moment...
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The journey of a married Mormon man who is attracted to other men. Monday, December 24, 2012. It's been a couple of months now. feeling consumed with a sense of hopelessness with my "situation" and the loneliness, anxiety, frustration, anger and emptiness that follows - a punishing private pity party for sure! I've been an inmature boob. Please listen: You're okay! I love you completely as you are! There is always hope! I am truly blessed! I have been given much! I am surrounded with love! I am amazed at...
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Beck: Faking it...
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The journey of a married Mormon man who is attracted to other men. Thursday, December 30, 2010. Ever since the "phone call" with my missionary son on Christmas, I've been thinking a lot about what I can offer him as he struggles to know why he's really there serving full time and preaching to a people about making changes in their lives and sacrificing and committing themselves to a new plan of life, even though he doesn't fully believe in that plan for sure himself. And is it the right thing to do?
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Beck: Update of sorts...
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The journey of a married Mormon man who is attracted to other men. Tuesday, February 17, 2015. In my correspondence, I was asked:. You mention that when you just leave it alone, "the gay" seems to leave you alone right now. I wonder if you could reflect on your current reality as it relates to the following quote that I included in a recent post that you wrote:. Am I regretting my choice? Do I miss the bromance encounters? You bet I do! And He loves you and wants only the best for you! 2/21/15, 5:50 PM.
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Beck: It's just my imagination...
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The journey of a married Mormon man who is attracted to other men. Saturday, January 19, 2013. It's just my imagination. Someone to "blame". The blame game was played out years ago, and I came to the conclusion that there is absolutely no one to blame. I was never abused, I had a great relationship with my father (we weren't best buds, but we weren't enemies either) and he was not absent from my life - in fact, he was very much connected with my life all the way to the end of his. What do you think?
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Beck: Listening to conference...
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The journey of a married Mormon man who is attracted to other men. Monday, April 08, 2013. In Sunday afternoon's session of conference, I hope I was a good listener, as I heard something like this:. An honest declaration of doubt is esteemed higher than an honest declaration of faith" - Elder Jeffrey R. Holland. Is it cool to be a questioning person instead of a believing person? Why is it that a believing person is looked down upon as naive or insignificant, not worthy of consideration? We are not ident...
