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Colourful Dreams ! ♥: Impossible

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Sunday, August 4, 2013. I remember years ago. Someone told me I should take. Caution when it comes to love. And you were strong and I was not. My illusion, my mistake. I was careless, I forgot. And now when all is done. There is nothing to say. You have gone and so effortlessly. You can go ahead tell them. Tell them all I know now. Shout it from the roof tops. Write it on the sky line. All we had is gone now. Tell them I was happy. And my heart is broken. All my scars are open. Falling out of love is hard.

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Colourful Dreams ! ♥: Why do I torture myself when I can be free.

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Wednesday, August 28, 2013. Why do I torture myself when I can be free. Why do I torture myself when I can be free? Why am I still chained down by my past? I really really want to be free. But I'm always giving myself hopes. False hopes? Can't be too sure. Why don't I want to let go? I swear it's been ages, but it still lingers. When will the day come when I'll open up my eyes, to see the gracious world. To really open my heart to make new friends. Can I just bring myself to do it? But will I do anything?

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Colourful Dreams ! ♥: Selfish thoughts

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Sunday, November 3, 2013. Normally at times like these, long quiet nights. I think a lot, reflect a lot, and you can say, hate myself. A LOT. I really actually never really liked myself. Like you can say I'm weird and all and its pretty true. Its so tiring putting up a strong and false front. I just cant do it. As much as I want to show my true self I can't. I thought I've stop self mutilating, I thought. Its all I've thought. I'm really so much of a weird person and I cant understand why. 169;Me,Myself&...

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Colourful Dreams ! ♥: Weak.

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Saturday, June 8, 2013. Why are you walking away? Was it something I did? Did I make a mistake? Cause I'm trying to deal with the pain." -Aidan(twitter). I saw this quote from my friends twitter. And it dawned on me, how true is that. Reminds me of what happened which was very much similar at that point of time. Well I can say, I wasn't really happy and proud of what I did because it made me very much like a douchebag. And a loser, not to forget. But still, I have my reasons! Very much like a daddy!

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Colourful Dreams ! ♥: Dream vs reality.

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Saturday, August 3, 2013. Is this my own perspective of life? Or is this me probably just trying to make life look positive? Should I just be "overexcited" about every single shit? Well That will prolly make me fake. /:. Is this the truth? Why am I even trying so hard. I really question myself. I know its impossible. Why do I even try. Why do I bother so much? Why do I show so much concern? I'll never get it in return. So why? It's all too late. Its all the past now. What am I supposed to do? View my com...

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Colourful Dreams ! ♥: Just when I was so determined.

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Thursday, August 1, 2013. Just when I was so determined. I can't help it but to feel so negative now. Why so? Friends, and family. Always there for me? Keeping everything inside, feelings, rants, sadness, negligence. No one will understand, no one will feel it as much as I do. Should I go back to my own ways? No, I know it's not good for me. There's so so much to I can take. I really need a getaway. Just to avoid all these shit. Me me and only me. What am I thinking? Where looks plays a huge role. Tomorr...

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Colourful Dreams ! ♥: In the state of dilemma

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Wednesday, June 19, 2013. In the state of dilemma. I know it's late and I'm supposed to be up early tomorrow. But I think I have to let out a little. Like yea, everything that happened for my birthday was beautiful. Especially the first few hours, I would say. But was it good or bad I wouldn't know. But I loved it, so much. It somehow brightened up my day, or days to be exact. To at least know, I wasn't alone. Well, it left me in the state of dilemma. Like I didn't know what was I supposed to do.