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Question Marks |
https://sekainogakusei.wordpress.com/2015/08/16/question-marks
No matter how hard you try, some people will always be question marks. I don’t like not knowing things. I don’t like having to guess, or wonder, about my role in someone else’s life and their role in mine. Perhaps this is why I am so open about how I feel. If my role has changed, I want to know. If my role is different than how you think I might perceive it, I want to know. The anxiety of not knowing is overwhelming, and hurts me far more than the truth. And unfortunately, this is something that has happ...
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What’s next? |
https://sekainogakusei.wordpress.com/2015/08/17/whats-next
I realized recently that my empathy meter has reached zero. I am able to recognize how people feel, and to logically tell myself that these are valid human emotions. I just don’t care. It’s not a matter of choice. I am not actively choosing to not care about other people’s feelings and experiences. It’s just the state that…Is. My ability to share the feelings of another all of a sudden just seems to have disappeared. I am sure not completely, but comparatively-. So, now I am sitting down at this table at...
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Human Beings are Phenomenal |
https://sekainogakusei.wordpress.com/2015/07/30/human-beings-are-phenomenal
Human Beings are Phenomenal. Human beings are annoying. Guess who hasn’t had her coffee yet. Annoying. We are fickle, and we have. And we, and we. Things, and and and. I’m having a really hard time with words this morning. And we are really quite fascinating creatures. Like I’m seriously annoyed at how annoyingly fascinating and fascinatingly annoying humans are. I’ve been doubting myself a lot recently. I’m really not sure if this is going anywhere. I think that’s where this is going. This got me thinki...
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Change |
https://sekainogakusei.wordpress.com/2015/07/05/change
I was chastised recently for not writing more often. “Leslie, I am always telling people that they need to read your blog, but there’s nothing new to read! Been busy recently. Some things have remained the same – my Japanese is still deplorable. I am no closer to being able to tolerate cold weather than I was two years ago. I am still pretty unsure about my path and purpose in life, and where it is going to lead me next. And, some things are pretty drastically different. July 5, 2015.
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Evolution |
https://sekainogakusei.wordpress.com/2015/07/09/evolution
Throughout a period of fasting there is a feeling of being in limbo- the hustle and bustle of every day life, and often times ones goals, often take a back seat to spiritual growth. Sometimes, gains in the latter can feel painfully slow. How has this phenomenon been rendered in the tangible realm? Type A Leslie, who is lurking somewhere in the deep recesses of my foggy consciousness barely lucid has a very hard time with this because she doesn’t know how to relax and allow herself to not be productive.
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On faith, strength, and other heavy stuff |
https://sekainogakusei.wordpress.com/2015/07/22/on-faith-strength-and-other-heavy-stuff
On faith, strength, and other heavy stuff. Sometimes I wonder if the human condition will ever allow us to truly trust another person completely, or if trust is just a facade through which we are lying to ourselves when we don’t even know it. Moving across the world has been an immense exercise in faith, and actively choosing to have faith in others is. Japan has been such an enormous test for me. Do I choose. To have faith in, or do I choose to not discriminate? Can I even handle it? Is it really possib...
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On wifery- and being sincerely, deeply, obstinately fucking awesome |
https://sekainogakusei.wordpress.com/2015/07/27/on-wifery-and-being-sincerely-deeply-obstinately-fucking-awesome
On wifery- and being sincerely, deeply, obstinately fucking awesome. Someone told me the other day quite seriously, after having eaten some food I made which they were surprised to find was delicious (shocker), that I would make a good wife. Would being a bad cook, or not cooking at all, make me a bad wife? Ok, I’m back. Mornin’ Sunshine, how are you doin’? How was your coffee? I realized that I don’t take myself seriously. People say I’m a good writer. People say I am intelligent. People s...I’ve ...
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lesliewier |
https://sekainogakusei.wordpress.com/author/lesliealegria
Re-framing “Strong and Healthy is the New Sexy”. In a time where the body positive movement battles with strong and healthy is the new sexy , I often find this conflict reflected in my own perceptions of myself. I have never been athletic or into sports. I have been overweight and underweight. I have endured countless injuries including three knee surgeries. My physical fitness has always,. Been a huge contributor to my lack of self-confidence. I want to be healthy and strong. I do not have time to work ...
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On Time |
https://sekainogakusei.wordpress.com/2015/04/09/on-time
Time is kind of a funny thing- it exists entirely in the realm of the human imagination. It is there, in the form that it is, simply because we imagine it to be so. It is invented, abstract, its value immeasurable. 8220;Time” has been on my mind a lot recently. The time that I have, the time that I don’t have, the time that I give and the time that I take- how can something inherently intangible be interacted with and acted upon in such a tangible way? Only in my imagination, it seems. April 9, 2015.
