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Hope, Interrupted: January 2012
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Monday, January 30, 2012. The Only Thing Constant is Change. It's a bit crazy making for a control freak like me, to have a baby that is so defiantly opposed to routine and scheduling! And why, why, why are new parents so obsessed with sleep? Wednesday, January 25, 2012. It will never make sense, no matter how many of these stories I hear. I miss Otis with a fierce sadness every day. As I put Owen down to bed each night, I stare at his brother's picture, and wish that they both could be here with us.
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Hope, Interrupted: Right Where I Am: Year Two: 20 months, 11 days, 4.5 hours
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Wednesday, May 23, 2012. Right Where I Am: Year Two: 20 months, 11 days, 4.5 hours. As I commented to Angie on FB when she posted about doing this project again, writing this "Right Where I Am" post feels incredibly daunting tonight. I fear that it may rip me wide open. (As I added in my comment, "maybe that's what needs to happen."). 20 months, 11 days, 4 and 1/2 hours since my boy left this world. Most days, I still can't believe it. I had a nightmare last night. I lost Owen. He didn't die - I ...Readi...
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Hope, Interrupted: September 2011
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Wednesday, September 28, 2011. 92811 aka Over My Head. I love this baby boy so much. I miss my other baby boy so much. I stare into Owen's face, look at his lips and his nose, and marvel. And then I see Otis. It's so bittersweet, the resemblance of these brothers. One here with us, one not. No, actually, I'm panicking because this is my SECOND baby.". Saturday, September 24, 2011. Thanks so much for your words of congratulations. What a whirlwind, eh? My milk has come in, he's a hearty eater, I'm still w...
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Ezra's Space: Right Where I Am: Two years, nine months, and 1 day
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Monday, May 30, 2011. Right Where I Am: Two years, nine months, and 1 day. The car stops and I pop out and open the door to the backseat where a little boy grins back at me from his carseat. 'Ready to go to a new playground? This is where I am right now. Happy raising my living child. The rainbow baby who came after. Content even. And yet the grief is still there. What Ezra taught me is to love and mean it, to find joy and inhabit it. This is how I have come to live my days since he left. I was going to ...
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Ezra's Space: Two years...
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Sunday, August 29, 2010. I had absolutely no inkling how drastically and completely the world was about to come crashing down around me. In the two years since, I've come to own my new self.more sad, more cynical, more connected, more compassionate. But sometimes I do miss that naive happy woman. My sweet sweet Ezra, I miss you and love you so very much. Every day. Especially today. Always. Thinking of you and your family today. Remembering your beloved son, Ezra. August 29, 2010 at 8:50 AM. Holding you ...
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Life after Connor: October 2010
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Connor and life after. Connor Maxwell 8th - 9th October 2009. I have seen other babyloss mama's do this on their blog and it is such a beautiful way to remember their lost loved ones. So I have something I would like to ask no matter where you are around the country or around the world. If you think of us and Connor, would you write his name? From Connor's Aunty Lizzie, South Australia. From Kristy, Western Australia. From Jo, in Adelaide, South Australia. From Mel, South Australia. From Hayley, Victoria.
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Ezra's Space: July 2010
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Friday, July 16, 2010. I never intended to stop writing in this space when my Sunflower arrived. I will admit that for much of the past six and a half months, I pretty much shelved my grief. It's not that it hasn't been present. I haven't had. This was supposed to be the easy part, the happy ending, no? I just miss him, I really really do. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). A Note from Ezra's Mommy. Ezras Mommy and Daddy. The letters spell Ezra in Hebrew. Forever imprinted in our Hearts. Glow in the Woods.
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Ezra's Space: April 2010
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Sunday, April 18, 2010. Guest Post from Ezra and Micah's Daddy: Burying Your Child. On Friday, Rachel Maddow had a man on her show. His daughter had been killed in 1995 in the Oklahoma City bombing. He said the pain is still there. When your parents die, you bury them on the mountaintop, he said. But when your child dies, you bury them in your heart, and keep them there. So simple, yet so profound! Sunday, April 11, 2010. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). A Note from Ezra's Mommy. Ezras Mommy and Daddy. Betwee...
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Ezra's Space: February 2010
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Saturday, February 27, 2010. A Homecoming.of sorts. Yesterday was my 6 week postpartum appointment. Never mind that Micah is now 8 1/2 weeks old - the blizzards of 2010 have postponed my last two scheduled appointments. In fact a blizzard was predicted yesterday too - luckily all we got was flurries. So you're here to followup on your procedure? Um nothis is my 6 week appointment. I gave birth to a son. He died. I call that a procedure. There was a certain sense of.dare I say it. But I don't. Medical...
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Ezra's Space: January 2010
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Wednesday, January 13, 2010. While pregnant with Sunflower I never could envision this part.even up to the day we went to the hospital to be induced, I didn't fully believe that we'd be leaving with a real live baby. Even while nesting and preparing for his arrival, it didn't truly feel real. Afterall, I've never had this happy ending before. Saturday, January 9, 2010. Micah, in Hebrew, means 'who resembles G-d? Amir, in Hebrew and Arabic, means 'prince'. We believe Micah chose this name for himself ...
