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Nectar: Orlando
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Wishing to bloom to be something different. 17 September, 2013. We dropped Jeff off. Then went to the apartment. Concrete and key pads. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). I'm the right age to start on my own peculiar ways. View my complete profile. Only real when shared. Smelling Like a Salty Dog, Back From Hell Where You Belong!
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Nectar: Passing time.
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Wishing to bloom to be something different. 08 July, 2010. I keep telling myself that things will be better once it's fall again. As if the weather cooling and the trees losing their leaves is a solution for angst and stupidity and feeling like I'm 15 and a boy has just broken up with me via AOL instant messenger. As if scarves and knitted stockings will suddenly make me have magic. It's a nice thought. But isn't that the problem? What an awful wish. A wasted wish. I need to get wasted. Smelling Like a S...
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Nectar: Maybe your write.
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Wishing to bloom to be something different. 19 October, 2010. Strung out and stoned with some Stevens and writer's block. I still shiver like I did when you flashed your wolf-smile at me (an expression I'd never expected on your face which made me both excited and scared). I blush to think of your teeth, now just sitting in your mouth innocently when not too long ago they pressed into my flesh as you rutted against me in the t.v.-blue light of a rented room. This is kind of weird. Whats gonna happen next?
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Nectar: O, futur!
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Wishing to bloom to be something different. 15 September, 2010. Sometimes it feels like the present isn't happening except as the waiting room for the future. It's a pretty comfortable waiting room; there are magazines telling you about future things and all the time in the world to think. What do I want in the future? What does future-me want in the present? What is going to happen? Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). I'm the right age to start on my own peculiar ways. View my complete profile.
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Nectar: Dog problems.
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Wishing to bloom to be something different. 11 September, 2010. I feel like in the short time I've known you, I've been just watching you change but maybe it's just the better that I get to know you, the more of you I discover? I don't regret any of it. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). I'm the right age to start on my own peculiar ways. View my complete profile. Only real when shared. Smelling Like a Salty Dog, Back From Hell Where You Belong!
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Nectar: A litany of prettiness and pettiness, too.
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Wishing to bloom to be something different. 22 November, 2010. A litany of prettiness and pettiness, too. To me, you are the most amazing and interesting person I've ever met. Or you were? My marveling for and my pining of you have faded somewhat. I can still get that feeling when I reach back into my brain files and remember your eyes in lantern light and the way your hands feel. How our excitement was all the more exciting because we wouldn't let it touch. Or is that stupidity? Oh, you, you, you. That'...
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Nectar: Out of character.
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Wishing to bloom to be something different. 26 September, 2013. I'm not sure if I'm playing the part right -. Not giving the role justice. I just wanted to kiss you. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). I'm the right age to start on my own peculiar ways. View my complete profile. Only real when shared. Smelling Like a Salty Dog, Back From Hell Where You Belong!
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Nectar: Mack's 9th.
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Wishing to bloom to be something different. 01 October, 2013. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). I'm the right age to start on my own peculiar ways. View my complete profile. Only real when shared. Smelling Like a Salty Dog, Back From Hell Where You Belong!
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Nectar: There isn't a word for what I'm going to be when I grow up.
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Wishing to bloom to be something different. 25 October, 2010. There isn't a word for what I'm going to be when I grow up. I make a lot of plans and to-do lists and whathaveyous. I'm trying to do that now and realizing I don't really want to. I am reconciling, recoiling, remarkable. We haven't talked about it but I'm pretty sure my mom took some time off to "find herself." When else could she find time to hitch-hike to Alaska? She's quit school and is working full-time! So, I have a plan? There isnt a wor...
