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SHM? | SHM: A Simple Harmonic Muddle
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SHM: A Simple Harmonic Muddle. Basically, it’s a physics joke. I may explain more properly if anyone asks (there doesn’t seem to be any point otherwise, given I don’t expect to be talking to anyone except myself). On Tuesday 13th May, 2008 at 3:42 am. I think I made the world of physics even more confusing…. I think this graphic says more than 1000 words. On Tuesday 13th May, 2008 at 3:43 am. On Wednesday 14th May, 2008 at 7:37 pm. 😛 ) but in TERROR. Physics has been known to reduce me to tears. Notify ...
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Late Nights Make Me Thoughtful | SHM: A Simple Harmonic Muddle
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SHM: A Simple Harmonic Muddle. Laquo; Respect for Psychiatrist 0. Late Nights Make Me Thoughtful. Sunday 6th February, 2011 by Chouette. First off, a little note – if you’re reading this, then I’m not talking about you. I know that sounds a bit odd, but the people I’m thinking about are people I met through my normal life activities. 8230; do I have to make the first move? 8230; do I have to put in all the effort to have a social life? 8230; did you never get in touch after you moved? I was thinking abou...
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Who Decides? | My Heart
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January 10, 2008. Posted by only4now in alive. What is ‘normal’? Is it as simple as black and white? We all know there are gray areas. But, how much gray is allowed to creep into one’s mind before the individual is labelled as abnormal? Who set the standard in which we are evaluated? How ‘normal’ is/was this. Basing my thesis (of sorts) on the assumption that there is not an actual perfect individual in which we can compare our own levels of inadequacies, from where are the guidelines coming? When I beli...
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I am here… | My Heart
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I am here…. February 19, 2008. Posted by only4now in alive. Sort of… at least I think I am here. I am a bit fuzzy. Week two back on my meds. That is a good thing. I was spiralling out of control and refusing to help myself. The harder I tried to laugh on the outside and joke with people, the more I cried on the inside. Anyway, I am levelling off, I think. Personally, I feel 150mg of Effexor is too strong for me. But, I am giving it another shot. February 19, 2008. On my blog as well. February 19, 2008.
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Emotional Vacations | My Heart
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January 28, 2008. Posted by only4now in Depression. I took a vacation from reality it seems. It was a decision to shut out everything and everyone for fear of falling any deeper. I must apologize to PA (I will stop by your blog and do that there as well) Yes, I was sending out an SOS of sorts to you. But, when you responded, I was too far gone. I no longer had the will to try… I could not read or post. Let me try and describe my actions:. I flipped off my neighbor. I refuse to talk with a cousin. Who wou...
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I Guess He is Alive | My Heart
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I Guess He is Alive. May 21, 2008. Posted by only4now in Depression. I pick up my phone and check the date that he called me last:Febuary 03 at 9:28pm. He seemed to be in a fairly good mood… But he chastised me for not calling him for so long. He told me that I had let him down. It sounded like he was ribbing me. I must have missed the pain he was feeling. Since then, I have tried numerous times to call him and he lets it roll to his voice mail…. Is he still suffering from the nightmares of his past?
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Gone and Back In 2 Months | Unfitting
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Laquo; i feel like pulling my hair out. Gone and Back In 2 Months. November 25, 2008. From the title, you might think I went on some exciting vacation of sort. Not the case. Posting to wordpress hasn’t been on top of my to-do list (well if a to-do list actually existed). I mean it took me a bit to even remember what the site was and what my username was. It’s amazing how absence degrades your memory. Anyway, no more talk of that. It makes my blood pressure go up. Posted in anxiety disorder. You are comme...
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The rollercoaster of life: Updates
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The rollercoaster of life. I'm a rambling mass of inconsistencies, some hidden and some all too apparent. A "messy human", wishing to be visible and yet invisible, cherishing my differences but longing to fit in. Friday, 31 July 2009. I'm still working at my first MA submission. I guess the first is bound to be the hardest. I have a fortnight left to complete it. Gulp. Have done some work in preparation for school. More to be done (of course! The last thing is I could really do with my sleep patterns set...
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The rollercoaster of life: Bleh
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The rollercoaster of life. I'm a rambling mass of inconsistencies, some hidden and some all too apparent. A "messy human", wishing to be visible and yet invisible, cherishing my differences but longing to fit in. Thursday, 12 April 2012. So I have "new strategies" and I am trying to use them to stave off the things my twisted brain seems to want me to think, possibly do. Some work, some don't. At the same time I'm urged not to try so hard all the time. There's an interesting conflict! So new meds, revisi...