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Beautiful Things: July 2013
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Wednesday, July 31, 2013. Jude's 2 Year Photos {by Mommy}. I love you, my beautiful boy. Monday, July 8, 2013. As I've mentioned very recently, I have been struggling a lot with my anxiety and have even questioned if I've also been on the verge of depression. It's been an extremely dark and difficult few months, as I had not been able to shake any of these debilitating feelings. Judes 2 Year Photos {by Mommy}. Soundtrack to our life. Beautiful Things by Nicole Feller on Grooveshark. Things I Blog About.
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Beautiful Things: November 2012
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Friday, November 30, 2012. I miss how magical the holidays felt when I was a kid. It seems now, I spend more time in disbelief that the certain date has so quickly rolled around once again than I do really feeling festive! Things may not always be as magical as I imagined they would be when I was a kid, but no matter who or what I have lost, no matter the struggles or triumphs, there is always always so much to be thankful for. There is love and life in my home. And that is more than enough. I climbed in...
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Beautiful Things: April 2013
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Tuesday, April 23, 2013. I believed I was all better. I hadn't felt paranoid or anxious in a few months. Not since Jude's seizure, really. It all began last Friday, when Daniel and I were out celebrating our seventh dating anniversary. It was one stupid thing after another, all strung together to pull down my happy mood. Why would He allow this desire to anchor so deeply since childhood? Oddly enough, just like last April. Wednesday, April 10, 2013. What's it like to hold your own chubby pink baby girl?
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Beautiful Things: December 2012
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Saturday, December 29, 2012. Jude with my amazing cousin, Rachel. Our family. This was the best we could get Jude to cooperate. There were way cooler things going on at the moment than smiling for yet another photo! Beautiful boy in his Santa jammies. My parents got Jude some very wonderful gifts. Of course, he loved playing with the wrapping paper and boxes, like most children do! I'm sure he will tear into them next year! His new truck from my parents! Wednesday, December 26, 2012. People I know. C...
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Beautiful Things: May 2013
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Wednesday, May 29, 2013. I remember feeling so happy and so delighted over Jonah. I was excited that Jude would be getting a brother and that we would get to raise another baby. But then, inevitably, I woke up and Jonah disappeared. There won't be a Jonah. I just wish I could have Jonah. Tuesday, May 28, 2013. Anxiety lives here now. I hate what I have become. I really can't live like this. I am alive. I am well. I am not fighting for my life. I. I don't want to adopt. It doesn't solve any of this...
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Beautiful Things: February 2013
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Friday, February 22, 2013. This time of the year always gets me. The January-to-March time, ever since Avery died. These last weeks when she was still alive three years ago. Three years? How is this my life? Why does this happen? And that's my broken record. On and on, as another year pushes us even further away from her and the time she was here. Sunday, February 17, 2013. Where do you draw the line on over sharing anyway? Is there anyone out there that can hurt us with our own photos? I've had my conce...
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Beautiful Things: Writing therapy
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Monday, July 8, 2013. As I've mentioned very recently, I have been struggling a lot with my anxiety and have even questioned if I've also been on the verge of depression. It's been an extremely dark and difficult few months, as I had not been able to shake any of these debilitating feelings. This makes me so happy for you! July 8, 2013 at 8:54 PM. I know you dream of having another little girl, well maybe someday your writing could include a young girl.and into her you could pour all the hopes and dr...
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Beautiful Things: December 2013
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Tuesday, December 31, 2013. This year was much different. It was probably the most healing year I've experienced since Avery died. Life was relatively normal this year. Of course, it wasn't without conflict, but it wasn't fraught with profoundly earth-shattering circumstances to hurl us off course like previous years. I struggled horribly with my anxiety in the first few months and it wasn't until my writing took off that I felt some relief from that. Daniel left his CNA job at the health and rehab cente...
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Beautiful Things: Jude's 2 Year Photos {by Mommy}
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Wednesday, July 31, 2013. Jude's 2 Year Photos {by Mommy}. I love you, my beautiful boy. You did good with the photoshoot! I wish I could have been there! July 31, 2013 at 11:05 AM. Sweet boy. I cant believe hes two. *tears*. July 31, 2013 at 12:57 PM. Judes 2 Year Photos {by Mommy}. Soundtrack to our life. Beautiful Things by Nicole Feller on Grooveshark. Things I Blog About. Carly Marie's Heartfelt Card Line. Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope. I wish you love. In memory of Jacob. Out of the woods.
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Beautiful Things: Where have I been?
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Thursday, September 26, 2013. Where have I been? I'll tell you where. I've been on the computer lots and lots in my spare time, but not for blogging. I mentioned a couple posts ago that I have been writing, to say the least. I am currently on chapter 17 of my novel. It takes up all my free hours of the night, after Jude goes to bed. Most nights I stay up much too late as the words just flow and the story comes to me. I am loving every bit of this. So, that's where I have been. I don't like that I nev...