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whatever will be: October 2009
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Friday, October 23, 2009. So you may be stumbling across my blog via ICLW or perhaps you used to read me but haven't checked in for awhile? Well short history, we've been trying to get knocked up AND stay knocked up for 10 years now. We've had 5 miscarriages, two this year. We've now decided to step off the train and try to live our life without children. Subsequently I've decided to start a new blog. Which can be found here. So please come on over and follow my/our journey there! An insight into me.
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whatever will be: June 2009
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Thursday, June 25, 2009. Project 31 The List. So the list has finally been compiled. It's a mixture of physical things to do in order to get me out of my rut but also things that I feel I need to do in order to get my head and mind in a good space and allow myself to "grow". Wow doesn't that sound very new age-y! I will be updating the Project 31. Blog on a regular basis as I both strive to achieve all my 31 things and as I do each one of them. You can check the list out right here. An insight into me.
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whatever will be: The Ever Wonder Why Post
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Monday, October 19, 2009. The Ever Wonder Why Post. Have lots of followers. And others hardly any? I ponder this when i click on some blogs. And they have few comments. And then others have well into the double figures. Both bloggers write well. And yet one receives more traffic. As you can see i'm procrastinating rather than write what i have to write about]. An insight into me. October 19, 2009 at 6:03 PM. I used to wonder as well. Not so much now. October 19, 2009 at 6:06 PM. I comment.I love givi...
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whatever will be: The Straw That Broke the Camel's Back Post
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Tuesday, October 6, 2009. The Straw That Broke the Camel's Back Post. I always wondered what it would take to break the camels back. I've also always wondered where the "the straw that broke the camels back" phrase came from? I mean straw isn't very heavy so it would have to be bales of hay being dropped onto that camel from a great height for it's back to be broken right? It hasn't been working. I've just suffered my 5th loss and I feel numb. I don't feel angry. I don't fee sad. I'm not asking why me?
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whatever will be: August 2009
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Friday, August 28, 2009. The "Dear." Chronicles Part I. Hi it’s me. I’m writing this letter to you because I want you to know why I’m feeling the way I am and why at this point in time, you’re not my favourite person/thing. When I was growing up, I never wanted children, heck I wasn’t even going to get married but then BikerMan came into my life and all that changed. You started my period around the same time as my friend’s bodies started theirs, it was regular, and there were no issues. BikerMan and I s...
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whatever will be: July 2009
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Tuesday, July 28, 2009. I miss you so very much. It's been just over a year since you passed over and left us with a gaping hole in our lives. The world was robbed of a wonderful man when you left us. You time was far too short and your battle over too quickly (tho thankfully you are now no longer in pain and can breath easy). Most days I'm fine, others I think of you at the strangest times. You are always in my thoughts and constantly in my heart. I love you Dad and miss you so very very much. Last week...
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whatever will be: The Envy Post
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Wednesday, October 14, 2009. Isn’t it strange how we all envy someone who has something we want but that those things we envy are so completely different for each person? Kate over at Maybe Baby? Is wanting to be in her second trimester (completely understandable after what she’s been through, I’d want to be in the second trimester too! You know I'm rootin for ya honey! Thats cheering you on in Aussie slang! Though it does have another meaning too but we won't go into that! To find a reason behind their ...
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whatever will be: The Obsession Post
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Saturday, October 17, 2009. BikerMan and I had a huge fight the other night. This fight was followed by a huge talk. I am obsessed by all things trying to conceive. Now this may come as a surprise to some of you. If it does, please I insist that you take a moment. Place your head downwards between your knees. It of course did not come as a shock to me. I mean come on, it's been 10 years. You don't manage 10 years without dedication. And a bit of hardcore obsession. Do we need to start a TTC Anonymous?
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whatever will be: The Descent Post
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Monday, October 12, 2009. At some point last night, the descent started. Early this morning I could see the bottom. This afternoon I hit the bottom. By early evening I had no fingernails left due to scrapping at the side trying to ascend again. The darkness is blinding. Have you ever just sat and felt your emotions taking over your body? It starts out as a calm, much like before a storm. Silence, stillness, you know it's coming you're just not sure when. Me heart started beating faster first. Thats the w...
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whatever will be: The I Don't Know What To Post So I Will Ramble Post
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Sunday, October 11, 2009. The I Don't Know What To Post So I Will Ramble Post. I am sorry that I haven't posted in a few days. If I knew what to post, I would have posted earlier. However, I did not. I drafted a post many a time in my head, came to the computer and waited for it to transpire through my fingers onto the keyboard. It's been a tough week and a half. It was my Dads 65th birthday on the 7th. He of course isn't here to celebrate it. We went out to dinner and toasted him in his absence. Have a ...
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