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Proof I Exist: June 2005
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An exercise in keeping my life a secret. Monday, June 27, 2005. Excellent, Smithers. Excellent. So, I decided to post my list of wants in a man on MySpace, the space I'm thinking.okay, I know my ex will visit. Antagonistic? Deep, down, I want to start trouble.I really should stop blowing off my friends and do something at night other than sit in front of the computer! Anyway.this is what I wrote. Another fabulous epiphany I’ve had is that I have the choice not to be with anyone, but I digress, I digress.
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Proof I Exist: November 2005
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An exercise in keeping my life a secret. Monday, November 28, 2005. Thursday night I was at a meeting that #3 and his girlfriend led. That’s right. Girlfriend. They got back together. The high lasted ‘til about 10 that night. Now, I am a little pissed at him but I know my ego is bruised more than my feelings are hurt at this point. I woke up this morning with my head screaming, He picked her over you! Posted by Mychy at 10:41 AM. Monday, November 21, 2005. But I Don't Wanna. I need to be entertained as I...
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Proof I Exist: August 2006
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An exercise in keeping my life a secret. Monday, August 14, 2006. Playing House.by Myself. And before I could mumble a, Izzy (my pretend child) will finally get to sleep with this, I coughed and blew my own cover. Posted by Mychy at 2:51 PM. California, United States. View my complete profile. Playing House.by Myself. Acceptance is the key. But I Dont Wanna. And the red flag has been shoved up my. Im a klutz in social games. Just random thoughts to keep me here. Its been a long, long time.
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Proof I Exist: September 2005
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An exercise in keeping my life a secret. Tuesday, September 20, 2005. Just random thoughts to keep me here. It has really been too long since I've written. It's strange how I go on vacation and I don't have any time to blog but when I'm working and stressed and crazy, I'm blogging everyday. Anyway, I'm really not blogging because I have nothing to blog about.I'm on vacation! Update on the relationship:. Things I've learned about myself during mychytime:. I'm lazy.getting out of bed is hard sometimes.
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Proof I Exist: January 2006
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An exercise in keeping my life a secret. Friday, January 13, 2006. I'm back together with #3. I initiated contact.well, he sent a little message.but it was me who opened the door. I'm very afraid of being hurt and yet have spent every waking minute with him this week. I'm pretending to control the physical aspect of the relationship because I think if I don't sleep with him then I won't get hurt guising it as a demand to take it slow. I just realized this delusion last night and feel guilty.
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Proof I Exist: August 2005
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An exercise in keeping my life a secret. Monday, August 22, 2005. It's been a long, long time. Break-up sex finally happened and it was the most amazing night I might have ever had. Ever. Maybe this is just a clear sign that I have committment and fear of intimacy issues. Maybe I don't even care because it was that good. This is not a sexy look and these are the thoughts that I usually have during the deal. I didn't have to think about what it all meant. It was the way IT'S supposed to be. Is it just me?
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Proof I Exist: July 2005
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An exercise in keeping my life a secret. Wednesday, July 27, 2005. I miss the poetry. The poem that brought me the said inspiration:. My mouth hovers across your breasts. In the short grey winter afternoon. In this bed we are delicate. And touch so hot with joy we amaze ourselves. Tough and delicate we play rings. Around each other our daytime candle burns. With its peculiar light and if the snow. Begins to fall outside filling the branches. And if the night falls without announcement. Anyway, what happe...
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Proof I Exist: December 2005
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An exercise in keeping my life a secret. Friday, December 09, 2005. Acceptance is the key. I finally vacuumed my apartment. I had this spiritual experience that you can read about here: http:/ myspace.com/myparts. But then couldn't take that final step of complete cleansing. That is, until yesterday. Made myself dinner with my handy-dandy Foreman Grill of chicken and zucchini w/saffron rice. Baked some chocolate chip cookies. Read about this writing program at UCLA. Started writing a story. I am who I am.
