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October | 2016 | Four Stars and a Frame
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Four Stars and a Frame. My search for serenity…. I am tired of myself. I have no idea who I am anymore. I feel like I am living a half-assed life. I am not the best mom. I am not the best wife. I am not the best employee. I am not the best friend. Some day I feel like I am just floating along in the current. October 31, 2016. I think I am finally starting to actually lose it. 4 1/2 months since his kids moved here. I have put on my brave face and tried to make this work. But I am not happy. I am writing ...
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March | 2016 | Four Stars and a Frame
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Four Stars and a Frame. My search for serenity…. And now, time for the diet…. This is my 88th day of Sobriety! The weekend had its struggles, though. My Hubbs drank on Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Sunday was especially hard because we hosted Easter brunch. We made two of the main dishes and other guests brought things to share which included screwdrivers and mimosa. I was craving a mimosa BUT I just drank orange juice and it was great. Champagne gives me a headache anyway. But when it gets real. He didn&...
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I bought myself a present. | Four Stars and a Frame
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Four Stars and a Frame. My search for serenity…. I bought myself a present. I tend to NOT spend money on myself. I buy my clothes mostly at consignment stores because I think they are so overly priced. I have never treated myself to a massage or a manicure. I don’t have to pay to have my hair cut and colored because my sister owns her on hair salon. But yesterday I did a crazy thing. I bought something for MYSELF! I love a good epiphany. December 6, 2016. Happy Stuff. I need more of it. So true…whe...
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August | 2016 | Four Stars and a Frame
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Four Stars and a Frame. My search for serenity…. Day Mutha Eff’ing ONE. I am so tired of feeling like I am just gradually slipping deeper and deeper down this gravelly hill. I need to find some footing. My Hubbs ex-wife was just in town for FIVE days to celebrate her son’s 13th birthday. Three of the five nights, she stayed at our house. Do NOT ask me how that happened. But, let me back up a little bit. August 25, 2016. This is where I am at right now…. August 12, 2016. Just hangin’ on…. My two-step son&...
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Four Stars and a Frame. My search for serenity…. I found his pot pipe in my art room. February 21, 2017. I am so tired of having to take care of my husband an remind him to do shit. He is supposed to be going to an “Intensive” with our counselor to heal childhood trauma. Do you start your counseling thing tomorrow? God….I think so. Did you make plans for Sam to go somewhere after school? He set this Intensive up two-months ago. February 7, 2017. No wonder these kids are like they are. February 6, 2017.
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Happy Stuff. I need more of it | Four Stars and a Frame
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Four Stars and a Frame. My search for serenity…. Happy Stuff. I need more of it. I am a PodCast addict. True Crime is my favorite. (Sword and Scale, Up and Vanished, Unexplained…to name a few) I love a good mystery. When I was younger I always had a book or two going. Stephen King, Clive Barker, James Patterson…I would devour a book in two days. Now, I listen to PodCasts instead. I need more happy in my life. I need more videos of cute kittens and babies laughing. Of dancing and painting and joy. Decembe...
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May | 2016 | Four Stars and a Frame
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Four Stars and a Frame. My search for serenity…. Day Ten – Not Missin’ the Drama. I had a (mostly) lovely weekend filled with (mostly) fantastic things! I took the FourBoys to see Diary of a Wimpy Kid – The Musical at the Children’s Theater. The tickets were a gift from a friend that works there so the seats were not all together, which worked fantastic! Two boys were at one end of the row and two boys were at the other end and I got to sit in the Sound Box so I could keep an eye on them the whole time 🙂.
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November | 2016 | Four Stars and a Frame
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Four Stars and a Frame. My search for serenity…. It’s not drinking alone if your dog is home. The Thanksgiving Holidays is over. There was wine on Thanksgiving Eve. There was wine and lemoncello on Thanksgiving. There were Bloody Mary’s and white wine at the post-Thanksgiving brunch. There was wine and vodka tonics at the post-post-Thanksgiving dinner…and on and on. Today is my Day One. Again. How many of these are we allotted? I hope this is the last one. Raise your cup of tea to Day One! I need to ment...
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December | 2016 | Four Stars and a Frame
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Four Stars and a Frame. My search for serenity…. I can’t live like this any more. I am so sad and tired. I just want to hide all day and sleep. I turned on the fan and left to go bring my son to the store to buy some chips for his choir party. When I came home an hour later it still smelled like smoke and the mess was still there. There is no parenting going on. There is no instruction for these kids and there is no responsibility placed on them to take any action for their messes. December 20, 2016.
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June | 2016 | Four Stars and a Frame
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Four Stars and a Frame. My search for serenity…. 8230;and then he grabbed the gun. Yesterday when I got home from work the Hubbs said that it had been a rough day between our two youngest boys. They were doing some stupid karate thing (which neither of them knows how to do) and one accidentally hit the other and so the other one hit him back on purpose about 3 times. Hubbs went down and straightened it out and made them apologize, but I think there was still some resentment left. June 30, 2016. I drank t...
