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Mai world : April 2012
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Thursday, April 26, 2012. This is completely bullshit! I finally finished my finals so here i am helping around the house. It has only been three days since my last exam and all i've been doing is helping around the house and doing errands for everyone and every freaking day that i pick my sister not a single day that she ever greeted me in the car with appreciation and care. NO! And after that she just shut up and refuse to talk. I'm sick of doing all that, and instead of being appreciated; i get yelled...
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Mai world : December 2012
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Tuesday, December 11, 2012. Ever since i was 12, i already had thoughts of suicide. I would sit to myself and think of ways to end my life by any means possible. I wanted an escape. and escape from this hell hole i call home. years past and i seem to have better control over this suicidal rage. and the self-mutilation stopped for awhile. 2 years later, as problems arise; family feuds became more rampen and i grew weak from solitude.my desire to hurt myself came back. I saw a blade. lying on my desk&#...
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Mai world : December 2009
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Sunday, December 20, 2009. It has been a year 4 months a week and 2 days now since Yang and i have been together, but , as off last Tuesday its all over. The days of being together just for the sake of each others happiness are all gone. i have to admit it that painfully. It was all for the best. Although now all i wish is as if i had never asked for us to brake it off. My parents grew to love him very much, they were expecting a lot. To be the best so that it might be easier for her to accept me. One da...
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Mai world : Rebooting
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Wednesday, March 13, 2013. It has been about a month now since i went to the therapist and was diagnosed with major depression disorder and it seemed like knowing i had that. was making my life worst. Recently, my dad got so upset he blew up and yelled at me for not doing some of my basic chores. little did i know.he was just upset that i was down. He told me that he's sick of seeing me down all the time, especially when he is down himself. He said " Why do you only think for yourself? So just STOP it!
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Mai world : October 2009
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Monday, October 5, 2009. Probably 10 days old. Have to feed with milk every 3-6 hours. CANNOT skip a meal for she might die! Not necessary till she's 6 months plus. after she poops just use wet tissue to clean her. Use wet tissue to wipe her after eating so that the milk. Doesn't stick to her body. Constantly use wet tissue to wipe her eyes. Warmth: She needs the warmth, Either keep her. Close to your body or put a lamp above her. You need to keep her warm! I will give you. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom).
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Mai world : Find normality...
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Thursday, April 25, 2013. With a blink of an eye, it's already May. and it has been a rough 2013. The times of chase will be missed. The times of falling will be left with only a memory. Like shattered glass, we harm each other with every touch. Like shattered glass we scar ourselves with endless pain. Like shattered glass we cut with every care. The hope to be whole is no longer there. I have lived by my new motto in life.and it has done me wonders. What will my future be? Death at a young age. Is there...
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Mai world : January 2012
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Tuesday, January 24, 2012. As the week touches Thursday it will be a week since i have seen my son. The son that i never expected, but had loved him with all my soul. Just last year, his brother; Gringo passed away from a fox attack and now pachinko. They don't seem to see the pain and suffering i'm going through not knowing my son is safe or not. They just think that you are just a cat. but you're not. you're my son. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). Su Ann de Yuponess. View my complete profile.
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Mai world : September 2012
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Monday, September 24, 2012. I wondered. Didn't i JUST do a good deed by burying that other cat? Can't my father see that we are in so much pain? Cant he postpone this to a day where we're all done mourning? He assumes we're sitting around just lazing around the house. I HAVE A JOB DAD! I am a full time PSYCHOLOGY student, PART TIME tutor,FULL TIME DAUGHTER! Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). Su Ann de Yuponess. I'm Mas Marlena, currently 18. Nothing much about me that you should know of :D.
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Mai world : September 2009
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Wednesday, September 2, 2009. Here's to a great kitten. Hey again guys,. Yes i apologize but this is another emo post. Its about my kitten Chewy, he passed away early yesterday morning because of a motorcycle who knocked him off and left him to die a quiet death. . While i'm typing this my heart is aching so much on how much i miss him so dearly, and later last night, i flipped through old photos and videos of him and felt like he didn't die at all. My mother, once a cat hater, but now she couldn't stand...
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Mai world : April 2013
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Saturday, April 27, 2013. I feel like a broken glass. Waiting to shatter at any time. That feeling of ever being whole again. Seems to be further than i imagine. There will never be a truly happy time with me. With fear and worry haunts my every action. Every step i take is a step in a landmine. Note to anyone who might be reading this. Never hurt anyone. because just like a broken glass. They can get back together and try to fix themselves. But it can never truly be whole again. Friday, April 26, 2013.
