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Seeing is Believing : Why I'm Here
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My Mormon journey to Him through MDD and BPD. I was baptized into the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints as a young adult. Shortly after, I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder, followed by Borderline Personality Disorder a few years later. I don’t think it matters the title or the events leading up to it. What matters is what I've learned. How I've learned to “see” things I can’t feel. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). A Big Black Dog (Video). Like a Broken Vessel. You Matter to Him.
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Seeing is Believing : An ode...
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My Mormon journey to Him through MDD and BPD. Tuesday, August 12, 2014. Far more than being down,. Far more than mere sadness. A weight that causes much more than a frown. We smile, laugh, hide it so well. It cuts to the core. No one can see our hell. It sneaks up when we least expect it, and won't go away. Draining our energy, stealing our appetite, robbing our joy. Nothing left, not even the energy to pray. Self-destruction, drugs, alcohol. Anything is better than a pain so fierce. Were we happy enough?
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Seeing is Believing : Money Doesn't Buy Happiness
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My Mormon journey to Him through MDD and BPD. Tuesday, March 4, 2014. Money Doesn't Buy Happiness. We should live. Regardless, when we see the word "poverty", our minds go right to a physical state of despair. Is it safe to use the word "poverty" in association with a spiritual deficiency? Why don't we ever associate that word with spiritual needs? What about those that are well put together physically and come to church every week? Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). A Big Black Dog (Video).
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Seeing is Believing : November 2014
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My Mormon journey to Him through MDD and BPD. Wednesday, November 26, 2014. This year will be different. This year, for the first time in 35 years, I won't hear my mother's, father's, or brother's voice. They have decided I am unworthy to be a part of their lives. I haven't heard from my mother in almost 5 months, and I miss her. I have been trying to find a silver lining, but is there one? How can you make losing your family seem better? Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). A Big Black Dog (Video).
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Seeing is Believing : Do Something Hard
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My Mormon journey to Him through MDD and BPD. Wednesday, October 29, 2014. Running long distances seemed impossible and I couldn't understand why anyone would desire to spend their time in such agony. After graduation, I would run a mile a few times a week (that seemed to far! Skip ahead a few more years. When I got this crazy idea to run a half marathon. It's just a 5k with a 10 mile warm up, right? It Was. Awesome. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). A Big Black Dog (Video). Like a Broken Vessel. I'd l...
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Seeing is Believing : Warriors of Loss
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My Mormon journey to Him through MDD and BPD. Wednesday, November 26, 2014. This year will be different. This year, for the first time in 35 years, I won't hear my mother's, father's, or brother's voice. They have decided I am unworthy to be a part of their lives. I haven't heard from my mother in almost 5 months, and I miss her. I have been trying to find a silver lining, but is there one? How can you make losing your family seem better? Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). A Big Black Dog (Video).
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Seeing is Believing : October 2014
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My Mormon journey to Him through MDD and BPD. Wednesday, October 29, 2014. Running long distances seemed impossible and I couldn't understand why anyone would desire to spend their time in such agony. After graduation, I would run a mile a few times a week (that seemed to far! Skip ahead a few more years. When I got this crazy idea to run a half marathon. It's just a 5k with a 10 mile warm up, right? It Was. Awesome. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). A Big Black Dog (Video). Like a Broken Vessel. I'd love to h...
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Seeing is Believing : Father's Day
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My Mormon journey to Him through MDD and BPD. Monday, June 16, 2014. 1) The importance of love -. 2) Money doesn't buy happiness. My family holds money over people's heads, and uses it to conditionally love one another. They think the more money they throw at you, the more you will feel loved. I have been shunned more than once for showing an act of kindness, instead of buying lavish presents. I wish they knew what they're missing. 3) Children have thier own brains -. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom).
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Seeing is Believing : Fighting the Fright
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My Mormon journey to Him through MDD and BPD. Wednesday, April 9, 2014. I wish I could open up my gut like a door, and have someone reach in and quickly turn, twist, and tweak everything to make it feel less empty. They can do it with physical ailments, why not? How nice it would be to have such a quick fix. So often I want to just stomp my feet, and say "Life's not fair! Will they ever get tired like a physical attacker would? If we fight them, can we beat them? Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom).
