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Misery Dies-Once More
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Thursday, February 11. Its those moments . Where suddenly ur being brought back to the past. Or just remember someone u dearly miss. Yeah i miss ace. I was writing some lyrics then just was swept away when all the flashbacks came back to me. Atleast im not as pathetic as i used to be. When this happens , usually i'll find someone's shoulder n cry . Now i cry alone. lol. Hafiz slapped me , twice today. for fun. -.- so hard i almost dislocated my jaw. Im used to this abuse, but i still hurts. lol .
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Misery Dies-Once More
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Wednesday, August 26. Kill me shoot me. Its really painful this time . Theres only more hurt . No more happiness in my life . Only tears ,. So far no blood yet . Its fasting month , im trying my hardest not to cut myself . But it seems sooooo hard . I guess ace noes why ,. Why im crying my eyes out . God , pls , i really need help this time . I dn think i care if u take my life . Currently , i think im the mouse to ace , little cat chase . Since, ace is the cat ,. He could either kill me and eat me ,.
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Misery Dies-Once More
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Saturday, September 5. Theres nothing more i can say. I think he blocked my from his life. I went through hell on thursday,. Shit happens every un-expecting moment. Stop asking me what i was doing sitting on the 13th floor. I noe i was crying. I was just a place for me to think . I wasnt abt to kill myself. Updating my story blog. Http:/ illusionary-life.blogspot.com/. Theres a chatbox , u guys can comment and stuff. Yeah , i noe i suck at writing ,. But it turn into a hobby . I didnt need to cut myself ,.
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Misery Dies-Once More
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Wednesday, October 7. The perfect guy found his perfect girl. And they live happily ever after. Im happy for u. I always wish for u to be happy. Guessed i got what i wished for. Why should i be? He fucking deserves someone better than me. Just find it so hard to let go. But im sure he has no problem in doing that. Im trying to dissapear . Just for his sake. I wished u all the best. May u 2 last long. Living another day of my miserable life. When will it ever end? The heartaches, the pain , the tears,.
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Misery Dies-Once More
http://notlikeu-lilah.blogspot.com/2009/11/ace.html
Friday, November 20. Im just freaking confused. As nightmares pleases me. And flashbacks haunting me. I just dunno what to do. I heard his voice. His so dreamy voice. Still couldnt believe its him. The moment i heard his voice, the moment he replied,. My pain, heartaches, worries,. All faded away. all melted away . I would kill for another moment like this. He doesnt noe hw much happiness he brought for me. As i said,. Hes everything to me,. Though i mean nothing, NOTHING. As he did for me,.