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LIFE UNDERCOVER: February 2005
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True Stories of Undercover Life in The Texas Drug World. Some Of The Names Have Been Changed, To Protect The Innocent - From The Guilty. Monday, February 28, 2005. Where the hell did he get THAT? Asked Chopper. "No. I got it right here." said Jerry, reaching into his crotch area to retrieve a baggie of Meth. "Can I have a bump of that? Hold me off, brother." Jerry looked back this time as he handed me the end of the belt. "Oh yeah. I'm 'Frank' today.". The needle; teasing himself to a climax of sorts.
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LIFE UNDERCOVER: Sweet Tooth
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True Stories of Undercover Life in The Texas Drug World. Some Of The Names Have Been Changed, To Protect The Innocent - From The Guilty. Friday, March 25, 2005. He asked nervously. "We'll decide that when they get here," JR answered. JR knew Cam would try to work an angle on him if he gave him the slightest opening. Cam shot out the door; he was "jonesing" for the bonus pay he'd get for the introduction, if he could convince Donte and Lavon to sell to us. Cam and Shari were in mourning - deflated - feeli...
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LIFE UNDERCOVER: March 2005
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True Stories of Undercover Life in The Texas Drug World. Some Of The Names Have Been Changed, To Protect The Innocent - From The Guilty. Friday, March 25, 2005. He asked nervously. "We'll decide that when they get here," JR answered. JR knew Cam would try to work an angle on him if he gave him the slightest opening. Cam shot out the door; he was "jonesing" for the bonus pay he'd get for the introduction, if he could convince Donte and Lavon to sell to us. Cam and Shari were in mourning - deflated - feeli...
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LIFE UNDERCOVER: Goin' Gets Tough - Tough Gets Growing
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True Stories of Undercover Life in The Texas Drug World. Some Of The Names Have Been Changed, To Protect The Innocent - From The Guilty. Thursday, March 10, 2005. Goin' Gets Tough - Tough Gets Growing. Poison and I made it about halfway across the room when she suddenly stopped. "Oh! This is one of my favorite songs! Poison set her stuff down on an empty table in a dimly lit corner and turned a chair facing outward. "Sit down - I gotta dance for you to this song." " I Wanna Sex You Up. Poison stopped and...
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from where I'm sitting...: focus, focus, focus
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From where I'm sitting. Thursday, April 20, 2006. Focus, focus, focus. I certainly had some interesting comments, and I appreciate you sharing your thoughts with me. I do think I should continue to write. Even if I get upset sometimes about things regarding my blog, I think it's important for me to keep writing it. Thanks for encouraging me! It doesn't exactly help me because at the end of the day I'm exhausted from hiding it. Again, thanks for the comments. I appreciate getting them! This blog is about ...
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from where I'm sitting...: 2004-12-26
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From where I'm sitting. Saturday, January 01, 2005. A really great day. While she was here, she related the story of the man who was pinned under the rock and had to cut off his arm. Now, at first this sounds morbid, but stay with me. She was telling us that apparently he had this very vivid dream one night while pinned of this three-year-old child running up to him and saying "Daddy, I'm glad you're home! I'll never give up again. So, I guess what I'm saying is that sometimes the most off-hand story, a ...
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from where I'm sitting...: yep, I'm still here
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From where I'm sitting. Thursday, May 11, 2006. Yep, I'm still here. I hadn't written here for a bit due to having so much going on.and a personal thing I needed to let pass so I wouldn't write about it. That and I just end up so tired at the end of the day, it's hard to feel up to writing. We were totally slammed, and for quite awhile there was just three of us working. But I did it! Is directly related to my illness. Hell, I don't know that I even. Posted by cat @ 3:21 PM. Yeah, we need to try and writ...
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from where I'm sitting...: 2005-02-06
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From where I'm sitting. Saturday, February 12, 2005. Probably the hardest part. I think it is particularly difficult because I know that I won't tell anyone during the day what the night really feels like for me. The main reason is because I don't have anything to compare it to.I don't have the words to describe it. It feels what I think despair must feel like. This is the time of night when all the fears come to the fore. I wonder if I'll. How do I help those around me cope? Posted by cat @ 3:03 AM.
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from where I'm sitting...: 2004-12-12
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From where I'm sitting. Saturday, December 18, 2004. Uncomfortably numb Part II. I think I became numb after talking to him and that was comfortable to me. It's what I've become accustomed to. I think it's because I very badly wanted or needed something from somebody and didn't get it, so therefore I quickly slipped into. Not feeling anything at all. Posted by cat @ 5:14 PM. What will I do when I do something silly like this and you're not here? Who will tell me everything will be okay? You're all I have.
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from where I'm sitting...: 2004-12-19
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From where I'm sitting. Friday, December 24, 2004. But how dare they? Even for an hour! Isn't it amazing how egotistical a person can be? I know I'm not alone in that as that is human nature, but it's still overwhelming to the degree I feel that sometimes. What I am trying to do despite the anxiety and feelings of loss, however, is try to really enjoy the moment right now. Try and be just here. That's what is really important. I'll be thinking of all of you tonight and tomorrow. Posted by cat @ 10:37 PM.