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Ramblings from the Back Row: Good and True

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Ramblings from the Back Row. Musings and rantings on all that matters and all that doesn't. Sunday, July 5, 2015. Too much time has slipped away. For me to lose one more day. Waiting around for you to see. The path back to me. Not getting any younger. Not getting any stronger. And maybe a little slower. Gotten used to being alone. That doesn't mean my seed's been sown. Still have something left to give. If you'll just let me live. Brown hair turning to grey. Every morning's two pills a day.

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Ramblings from the Back Row: March 2014

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Ramblings from the Back Row. Musings and rantings on all that matters and all that doesn't. Saturday, March 22, 2014. Don't know where it went. 25 turned to 50 and nothing to show. Just slower and older. Tuesday, March 11, 2014. If anyone is still out there. I'm still in here. If anyone can find this. If anyone is looking. I can't be seen. Those are my screams. On that dark road. Wind rustling through the trees. Feel my ghost in your soul. My blood falling from the leaves. Used to walk here.

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Ramblings from the Back Row: February 2014

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Ramblings from the Back Row. Musings and rantings on all that matters and all that doesn't. Friday, February 14, 2014. Left for good a year ago. Held your hand as you took that last breath. Wish I'd said then what I still can't say now. I know you hurt. And your hurt became my hurt. Now you're free of that pain. And I have to find joy in that. As much as I wish you were still here. I was wrapped to tight to say. That I loved you. I hope you know. Supposed to feel something. That's what the doctor says.

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Ramblings from the Back Row: November 2014

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Ramblings from the Back Row. Musings and rantings on all that matters and all that doesn't. Thursday, November 20, 2014. Work is good these days. I'm back at the place I was chased out of eight years ago. It's good to be there again and to not only prove I did belong but also do better job than I did the first time around. On the personal front there isn't much new. I'm in love with a woman who is not available . yet. I'm holding out hope and she says she wants to be with me. We'll see. View my complete ...

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Ramblings from the Back Row: January 2014

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Ramblings from the Back Row. Musings and rantings on all that matters and all that doesn't. Wednesday, January 29, 2014. Demand to be seen. Sometimes I think I've lost the ability or desire to connect. Then I remember those I've reached so far away. And I realize I'm not a psychopath. I've just lost my way. Need to relearn how to feel. Numbed myself for so long. No idea anymore what is real. No wonder I feel so gone. Sometimes need to cut myself. Just to make sure I still bleed. And demand to be seen.

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Ramblings from the Back Row: May 2014

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Ramblings from the Back Row. Musings and rantings on all that matters and all that doesn't. Friday, May 23, 2014. Don't need exhibits or words on walls. Don't need gift shops or crowded halls. Just show me those two bright beautiful lights burning in the sky every night. I'm listening to New York City Serenade and thinking how cool it would be to be the only person in Riverside Park looking across the water. Perhaps with a cigarette in my hand. I walk along alone in the dark. Tuesday, May 20, 2014. But o...

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Ramblings from the Back Row: Well this is pathetic

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Ramblings from the Back Row. Musings and rantings on all that matters and all that doesn't. Sunday, June 14, 2015. Well this is pathetic. Jeez, six months with nothing new? Six months since I regurgitated an old post on Christmas. Six months and Rambler has nothing to say. No new stories? None of the above. I just haven't been motivated enough to sit here and cut a vein and let some blood spill out. I'll try now. Fluff is good. On heart meds but doing really well. Still miss Skinny. Well this is pathetic.

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Ramblings from the Back Row: June 2015

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Ramblings from the Back Row. Musings and rantings on all that matters and all that doesn't. Sunday, June 14, 2015. Well this is pathetic. Jeez, six months with nothing new? Six months since I regurgitated an old post on Christmas. Six months and Rambler has nothing to say. No new stories? None of the above. I just haven't been motivated enough to sit here and cut a vein and let some blood spill out. I'll try now. Fluff is good. On heart meds but doing really well. Still miss Skinny. Well this is pathetic.

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Ramblings from the Back Row: September 2014

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Ramblings from the Back Row. Musings and rantings on all that matters and all that doesn't. Saturday, September 6, 2014. Treated her like shit for 20 years. And I'm the bad guy. Ignored her and thought only of yourself. And I'm the bad guy. Did whatever you wanted and left her behind. And I'm the bad guy. Deprived her of love and companionship. And I'm the bad guy. She put up with it without a peep. And I'm the bad guy. Let you make the rules and fix the game. And I'm the bad guy. And I'm the bad guy.

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Ramblings from the Back Row: December 2014

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Ramblings from the Back Row. Musings and rantings on all that matters and all that doesn't. Thursday, December 25, 2014. Those old days are gone. You and me and a dark bar. And this was the way it was supposed to be. Stay there until they threw us out. Grab more beer on the way home. Between that and the snow. Could make it to the end of the night. And sleep through the day. Two lost souls stuck together. Out of desperation and darkness. Just one more smoke, one more beer. And maybe we won't wake up here.