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checking my premises: October 2011
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Thursday, October 27, 2011. 4 years and 2 months ago. It's my little brother's turn! He called and we actually spoke for a good five minutes. And he constructed full sentences, and even asked me questions. After a couple of minutes of shock and wonderment, I finally realized he was probably calling because he was leaving. And he'll be gone for two years. I think I'll be doing a lot of reminiscing. Thursday, October 20, 2011. But I'm starting to break free! Doing better than I think I am? Andit's fun bein...
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checking my premises: June 2012
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Tuesday, June 5, 2012. Just a day in the life. I'm post-dating this to the actual time of the blessed event.). I found a little surprise when I got back from a LOVELY wedding in California! Well, more accurately, I smelled one.(I will say, I find it fascinating that, even without formal training or prior experience, the recognition of the smell of death is somehow innate.). Maybe fleas are the worst, but this was definitely the grossest. Dead mouse. under. the. fridge. What I was not prepared for. Simple...
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checking my premises: The inner struggle
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Sunday, August 26, 2012. I have always loved this story (and various versions of it that I've heard/read). Also, it's on my sister's fridge. Most sources give it the title "Two Wolves."). An old Indian Grandfather said to his grandson who came to him with anger at a friend who had done him an injustice. There is a battle that goes on inside us all. It is as if there are two wolves battling inside each of us. The other wolf is Evil. The littlest thing will set him into a fit of temper. He fights every...
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checking my premises: December 2012
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Thursday, December 6, 2012. On how my brain is on fire. Not in an elegant, poetic way, but more like.I'm exhausted trying to run around inside my head exasperatedly extinguishing fires just as more ignite. Reflected in that analogy is one of my greatest struggles- I am myself, but I also see myself extinguishing fires. I am also the one setting the fires. Why is it so hard to let myself make mistakes? To just be where I am, instead of placing some unknown, abstract set of expectations on myself? Also- he...
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checking my premises: March 2013
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Tuesday, March 5, 2013. But love, even with its burden and its intense vulnerability, never just. Than pain. Because it doesn't just cover up or distract from pain. I feel like love actually transforms the loneliness (or what have you- mine is loneliness) by imbuing it with meaning, so it doesn't even feel like a burden at all. And every time I think I understand it, God shows me how much more there is to learn about love. And now it's happening again. Forever :). Subscribe to: Posts (Atom).
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checking my premises: July 2012
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Tuesday, July 24, 2012. While Hume articulates the is-ought problem. I think mine might actually be the opposite. The ought. I think, might be more real to me than the is. As much as I focus on and talk about process- how becoming. Is the point and part of life to be enjoyed and experienced, more than the final product- I am realizing just how much I stumble on and fight with what is. Because I cannot understand why things aren't as they ought. To be, not realizing that what is. Thursday, July 19, 2012.
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checking my premises: August 2012
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Sunday, August 26, 2012. I have always loved this story (and various versions of it that I've heard/read). Also, it's on my sister's fridge. Most sources give it the title "Two Wolves."). An old Indian Grandfather said to his grandson who came to him with anger at a friend who had done him an injustice. There is a battle that goes on inside us all. It is as if there are two wolves battling inside each of us. The other wolf is Evil. The littlest thing will set him into a fit of temper. He fights every...
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checking my premises: Moving in: Part I
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Wednesday, August 8, 2012. Moving in: Part I. Here are some before pictures. French doors into the kitchen! Door to the bedroom:. Of course nothing else is set up besides my shoes and clothes. :). Please take notice of all the natural light! And the fact that this apartment is more than three times the size of my last one. It's certainly not as convenient in terms of getting to school, but it's not like I have a bike anymore anyway! August 8, 2012 at 11:46 PM. August 10, 2012 at 12:42 AM.
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checking my premises: just a day in the life...
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Tuesday, June 5, 2012. Just a day in the life. I'm post-dating this to the actual time of the blessed event.). I found a little surprise when I got back from a LOVELY wedding in California! Well, more accurately, I smelled one.(I will say, I find it fascinating that, even without formal training or prior experience, the recognition of the smell of death is somehow innate.). Maybe fleas are the worst, but this was definitely the grossest. Dead mouse. under. the. fridge. What I was not prepared for. Just a...
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checking my premises: On how my brain is on fire
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Thursday, December 6, 2012. On how my brain is on fire. Not in an elegant, poetic way, but more like.I'm exhausted trying to run around inside my head exasperatedly extinguishing fires just as more ignite. Reflected in that analogy is one of my greatest struggles- I am myself, but I also see myself extinguishing fires. I am also the one setting the fires. Why is it so hard to let myself make mistakes? To just be where I am, instead of placing some unknown, abstract set of expectations on myself? Also- he...
