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a divergent girl: Maybe they're right
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Thursday, 17 June 2010. When I started this little journey of mine, I wasn't quite prepared for just how much self-doubt, angst, depression, general unhappiness and all the other things I've been dealing with. I figured that since I was finally doing something, then I'd be happy. How wrong was I? Never underestimate the power other people - complete strangers - have to screw with your self-confidence either. Getting called 'sir' all the time really hurts. Now, admittedly, I still go to work as a ...A tra...
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a divergent girl: I wrote poetry
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Tuesday, 6 July 2010. Everyday is the same day,. The feelings never change. Each day is no different,. This shit has to stop. Why Can't I Be Happy? I feel oh so sad. People don't see me. I don't see myself. There is no escaping,. From your own living hell. The only person who cares is me. I don't know what I'm caring for. I tell myself things will get better. I believe my own deception. My whole life a fantasy of nothing that's right,. Why won't they let me just extinguish the light? I look all around me,.
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a divergent girl: I am not depressed, I am not depressed, I am not ...
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Friday, 11 June 2010. I am not depressed, I am not depressed, I am not . As a kid, my mom always tried to drum into me the idea of "The Power of Positive Thinking". She isn't a religious person, but, if she was, I'm fairly certain that her religion would be self-motivation; and to a degree, I suspect it is. Then it hit me. the depression, revolving around the thoughts "And how, prey, do you intend to go to a bar for gay girls? I'm sure this would be easier if I had a bunch of female friends who were gay ...
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a divergent girl: Charing Cross Gender Identity Clinic
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Thursday, 22 July 2010. Charing Cross Gender Identity Clinic. So, here's what I've learned so far about the 'process' with regard to starting on the path to transitioning. Italic text is my advice, which has been gleaned from getting as far as the first appointment. Bold text is what they want you to keep believing. During your 60 minute initial assessment, you will re-tell your entire life story - the unabridged version -, in great detail. This will take approximately 80% of the appointment. You will th...
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a divergent girl: April 2010
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Tuesday, 27 April 2010. Now it's an anti-psychotic, which is also indicated for bipolar people, and it has an amazing sedative effect - I'm out cold an hour after taking it. I don't know if it's helping though; the past two weeks have been a slow descent into depression; while a bad thing, I guess at least I'm not rapid-cycling from mania to depression and back again at will, but, now all the old feelings of being worthless are coming back. Yeah I wouldn't be unhappy. You are as fat as you imagine. A tra...
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a divergent girl: A perspective on transition
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Monday, 22 November 2010. A perspective on transition. While idling in a trans-related irc channel, a conversation struck up relating to a specific problem that someone was having. Out of this came some advice that I wish I had been given years ago, and, I believe, something that many people deserve to know sooner rather than later:. It's a false choice; you don't "try to transition". You "decide to take HRT", you "decide to dress androgynously", you "decide to get electro/laser", etc. SecondWind, I feel...
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a divergent girl: That downward spiral
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Tuesday, 27 April 2010. Now it's an anti-psychotic, which is also indicated for bipolar people, and it has an amazing sedative effect - I'm out cold an hour after taking it. I don't know if it's helping though; the past two weeks have been a slow descent into depression; while a bad thing, I guess at least I'm not rapid-cycling from mania to depression and back again at will, but, now all the old feelings of being worthless are coming back. Yeah I wouldn't be unhappy. You are as fat as you imagine. A tra...
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a divergent girl: I'll never be one of them, no matter how I try
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Tuesday, 29 June 2010. I'll never be one of them, no matter how I try. I feel like such a horrible person. I look around, see happy people, and wish that they'd all have something horrible happen to them to take away that happiness. Right now, my emotions are operating on a 'if I can't be happy, you can't be happy' wavelength. I think the only way I'll ever attain peace in this life is by dying. and that just makes me even more sad. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). A trans blog, about a girl who's try...
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a divergent girl: November 2010
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Monday, 22 November 2010. A perspective on transition. While idling in a trans-related irc channel, a conversation struck up relating to a specific problem that someone was having. Out of this came some advice that I wish I had been given years ago, and, I believe, something that many people deserve to know sooner rather than later:. It's a false choice; you don't "try to transition". You "decide to take HRT", you "decide to dress androgynously", you "decide to get electro/laser", etc. SecondWind, I feel...
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a divergent girl: July 2010
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Thursday, 22 July 2010. Charing Cross Gender Identity Clinic. So, here's what I've learned so far about the 'process' with regard to starting on the path to transitioning. Italic text is my advice, which has been gleaned from getting as far as the first appointment. Bold text is what they want you to keep believing. During your 60 minute initial assessment, you will re-tell your entire life story - the unabridged version -, in great detail. This will take approximately 80% of the appointment. You will th...