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Wednesday, December 27, 2006. These few days have been super busy, and super tiring. I have black eye-bags every day, but I sleep as much as I can. I went to a family friend's place in Maroubra for a BBQ. Shoot some hoops, listen to the adults sing karaoke. Was an okay Christmas (:. Back to the hotel before going home. Called Annie. When I got home until a bit past 2am. Wednesday, 27th December. To one of my little brothers, Jeffrey. Shopped and eat and blah at Westfield. Lots of Lonsdale and whatnot.

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Thursday, May 31, 2007. Thinking of the good things, reminded of the bad, sick of feeling tired, of feeling so sad. My past has destroyed me, emotions always running high, living on fake smiles, the tears I cry. Breathing for nothing. Only to stay alive, dragging myself along, just to survive. All seems pointless, don't know where to go, this perfect happy act, was always for show. And my soul died. I'm tired of breathing, don't wanna remember before. But it's all fading. I can't do it anymore. I am miss...

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Wednesday, October 31, 2007. The day spent in the Emergency Department of Westmead Hospital:. The Triage nurse was a bitch. He ate the gross hospital food. He also slept in my hospital bed. I did not belong there, at all. I was perfectly fine. But I was forced to stay. the Emergency Ward was a pretty sad place, though. All these super sick people everywhere, and I was there, walking around with Jan. Eating and waiting to see doctor after doctor. And getting angry and frustrated. ):. Had run away from me&...

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Tuesday, February 27, 2007. This morning I went to NS foodcourt and didn't do anything. just talked to Jenny Li. For a while, until they had to leave for rollcall and Jan. Stayed at the foodcourt a bit, then went to Chatswood. Basically, I spent the next several hours with him. Should all start attending more classes at school. Sunday, February 25, 2007. A nice picture I found while browsing forums :D. I have so much to do, work for basically all my subjects and tuition! Friday, February 23, 2007. It's n...

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Friday, February 29, 2008. The HSC more accurately measures how hard you work, rather than your level of intelligence.". Saturday, February 16, 2008. All our knowledge merely helps us to die a more painful death than animals that know nothing. Been kind of alright lately. Haven't been doing too much, should study twice as much as I currently do. Feeling stressed. Getting headaches all the time, and haven't been to see doctor yet. Yup, ended up meeting Jan. At 6pm went to City, and ate! Wants a simple life.

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Thursday, November 30, 2006. I cannot change what has happened in the past,. But I can change the future. Is it too late? They say that it is "better late than never",. But, in reality, too late is the same as never. Wednesday, November 29, 2006. I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me. I still feel your touch in my dreams. Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why. Without you it's hard to survive. Monday, November 27, 2006. Saturday, November 25, 2006. I hate it all. Work experience Day 1.

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Friday, August 31, 2007. Friday, August 24, 2007. I'm back here to make a post - taking a rest from writing Chemistry notes. End-of-year exams are approaching; evidence that year 11 is coming to an end, already. Shiibaaal! English Adv, 8:50am. Mathematics 2u, 8:50am. Maths Extension, 1:25pm. SOR 1u, 1:00pm. My 17th birthday is on a Sunday in between the exam timetable. I'll be sure to have a modest celebration on that day, then celebrate again properly once it's all over. I can't wait! I am still alive :D.

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Saturday, June 30, 2007. Yesterday was the last day of 2nd school term! Really couldn't get up in the morning, felt very sick and dizzy. so I just slept until 11:30am, when Hana. Called from school and made me get up! So dad drove me station, and I got to school at the end of lunch, there were 2 periods left of school. Both were class parties ; ; Just ate with Hana. At 88 during 4th, and played during 5th. Went to city with Shelia. Bought matching coin purses from Catalog with her :3. So here I am! I mak...

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Wednesday, November 28, 2007. Haha, thankyou for giving me so much happiness, then turning it all around the next day. And on such a special day for me (probably not for you), as well. I was happy pretty much all morning. even with all 6 assessments coming up in the next week, and lack of sleep. Happy! I was alive. on that can of V and my clearer mind; all the useless excess thoughts that've elimated from my mind the night before. Yeah, until I found out all your words were lies. Then it all turned dark.