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Tuesday, August 25, 2009. I’m terribly worried about Cassian. We already have a date set for tomorrow. Since I’m not particularly comfortable in public places, we settled for a small movie marathon in his flat, just the two of us over supper. I really am fond of him. He’s always been like a father to me, and takes care of me when Michael- for whatever reason- cannot. Posted by Inquisitive Nymphet. My love, I truely admire you going out of your way like this to make sure Cassian is alright. You must tell ...
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Secret Longing
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Monday, August 31, 2009. I didn’t want any gifts either, but after thinking it through, I would really like a collar I can wear. I’ve seen Jeffery’s collar and how proudly he wears it, and I can’t help but feel jealous. I love Michael for going along with my whims, and not arguing over my wanting something of the sort (. My darling, how understanding you are, and how I adore you for it! Gave me when he took me in, and so I value it immensely. I think a collaring seems more appropriate, given I. Juliana w...
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Secret Longing: December 2009
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Thursday, December 17, 2009. Last night I had to punish Michael. I know I’ve been wanting him to be more strict with me, but I realize now just how difficult it is to do that. I assigned the punishment, and though reluctant, he followed through, but he just looked so pathetic I just wanted to cave in. I managed to maintain myself firm throughout most of it, but all the while I just wanted to wrap my arms around him, press his face against my chest and tell him how much I loved him. I don’t feel I&#...
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Secret Longing
http://secretlonging.blogspot.com/2009/12/i-feel-rather-guilty-for-abandoning-my.html
Wednesday, December 16, 2009. I feel rather guilty for abandoning my journal. So many things have happened and life has been so chaotic, it’s nice to go back to some order and coherence. Writing is something I find very therapeutic. There have been a few additions to the family since August. Of things have happened since August. It’s a very unusual, though pleasant switch for me, since I’m used to being the one being taken, rather than the one doing the taking. At the end of the summer, Jeffery moved in ...
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Secret Longing
http://secretlonging.blogspot.com/2009/08/juliana-has-me-addicted-to-courage.html
Thursday, August 20, 2009. Juliana has me addicted to. Courage the Cowardly Dog. The show is simply indescribably entertaining. I’ve been looking at the shows online. Juliana says she and Jeffery used to watch it all the time when they were growing up. It’s one of Jeffery’s favorite shows. I can’t stop watching the episode with. The rhyming, the english accent, along with the musicbox/children’s chorus is an excellent combination. I must get Michael to watch these with me. That’s the worst part! There is...
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Secret Longing
http://secretlonging.blogspot.com/2009/08/i-have-yet-to-understand-source-of.html
Sunday, August 30, 2009. I have yet to understand the source of the sheer terror I seem to have always had for thunderstorms. I have no problem dealing with lightning. In fact, I find it indescribably romantic and breathtakingly beautiful to watch lightning storms from out in the garden at night. In retrospect, it was via this terrifying natural occurrence that I began to trust Michael with my life. Michael had a completely blank canvas to work with, and indeed shaped me into whatever it was he wanted me...
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Secret Longing
http://secretlonging.blogspot.com/2009/08/juliana-wanted-to-listen-to-maria.html
Tuesday, August 25, 2009. Juliana wanted to listen to Maria Callas, but I wanted Piano, so we compromised and put on an Eric Satie record in my room. She and Cassian came over unexpectedly today, and Cassian brought. I know Cassian is extremely monogamous, and I know Juliana has been very curious to give monogamy a try, after growing jealous (not in the negative sense of the word, of course- more of a ‘longing’ or ‘yearning’, than anything else) of my relationship with Michael. I think she’s just i...
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Secret Longing
http://secretlonging.blogspot.com/2009/12/last-night-i-had-to-punish-michael.html
Thursday, December 17, 2009. Last night I had to punish Michael. I know I’ve been wanting him to be more strict with me, but I realize now just how difficult it is to do that. I assigned the punishment, and though reluctant, he followed through, but he just looked so pathetic I just wanted to cave in. I managed to maintain myself firm throughout most of it, but all the while I just wanted to wrap my arms around him, press his face against my chest and tell him how much I loved him. I don’t feel I&#...
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Secret Longing: August 2009
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Monday, August 31, 2009. I didn’t want any gifts either, but after thinking it through, I would really like a collar I can wear. I’ve seen Jeffery’s collar and how proudly he wears it, and I can’t help but feel jealous. I love Michael for going along with my whims, and not arguing over my wanting something of the sort (. My darling, how understanding you are, and how I adore you for it! Gave me when he took me in, and so I value it immensely. I think a collaring seems more appropriate, given I. I’v...
