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waking up willa: December 2016
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Because therapy is expensive and blogging is free! Sunday, December 18, 2016. I've been ruminating a lot on this past year. It's important that I take a mental account of everything that I experienced, because it was one of the most important years of my life thus far. Seeing our friend's band play. I can't express how much this man means to me. He's so full of life, spirit, happiness and love. I feel extremely blessed to have met him and felt his amazing support and companionship this year. In April my ...
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waking up willa: November 2013
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Because therapy is expensive and blogging is free! Saturday, November 30, 2013. 8220;The proverb warns that, 'You should not bite the hand that feeds you.' But maybe you should, if it prevents you from feeding yourself.”. 8213; Thomas Stephen Szasz. In follow up to the previous post, I've been doing a bit of thinking about all the ways my natural tendency to please others and fear of saying no has affected my life up to this point. Howard was a child molester. The next day Suzi took a picture of my siste...
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waking up willa: December 2013
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Because therapy is expensive and blogging is free! Friday, December 6, 2013. Consciousness, choice and change. First problem: Identifying my feelings. Uhhhhh.this was surprisingly difficult. I know I'm hurting, but what is the core emotion and why? It helped to write. I was able to connect to the feelings, figure out why I felt that way, and outlined what I wanted to say. As Brene Brown writes in her book Daring Greatly, shame cannot survive empathy. So while I'm sitting there crying my eyes out that...
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waking up willa: 2016
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Because therapy is expensive and blogging is free! Sunday, December 18, 2016. I've been ruminating a lot on this past year. It's important that I take a mental account of everything that I experienced, because it was one of the most important years of my life thus far. Seeing our friend's band play. I can't express how much this man means to me. He's so full of life, spirit, happiness and love. I feel extremely blessed to have met him and felt his amazing support and companionship this year. In April my ...
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waking up willa: September 2012
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Because therapy is expensive and blogging is free! Friday, September 21, 2012. Lately I've been actively trying to depend a little more on myself for my sense of self and less on others. Outside of my husbands reassuring words, my kids late night kisses, my friends adoration. Leaning more on myself to define the edges where I stop and they begin. Creating distance. First step in realizing a lifelong journey of healing and self love I guess. Links to this post. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). Words to shoot by.
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waking up willa: March 2012
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Because therapy is expensive and blogging is free! Tuesday, March 20, 2012. I know things have to change. I've been struggling for a long time with this, but each time I start, I run out of steam. My house is a series of unfinished projects, confused spaces, patchwork organization and a tornado of chaos. My life, really. So I stopped thinking about it. I started by putting together a visual representation of my core values, as they are right now (they change over time). Then when I thought about menu pla...
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waking up willa: January 2015
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Because therapy is expensive and blogging is free! Tuesday, January 6, 2015. I have made a life out of making myself as useful and needed as possible, thus securing my value in the world as someone who supports, heals, rescues, empowers and embodies compassion. I had children as a way to secure those values. Who needs anyone more than a baby needs it's mother? And I think I can trace it all back to my abuse, when another person's deranged desire took precedence over my safety. The one person who was ...
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waking up willa: November 2016
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Because therapy is expensive and blogging is free! Wednesday, November 16, 2016. I had tried to write a blog each day in November, but the election threw me through a loop. Silently and slowly grieving. I don't think I'm going to get back on Facebook for a while. The weight of where I am in life and love finally feels light and manageable. I am resilient and strong. I know what I need to do and what to focus on, and lighting my torch and picking up a pitchfork ain't it. Living strong. Moving on. I know i...
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waking up willa: November 2011
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Because therapy is expensive and blogging is free! Sunday, November 27, 2011. I'm failing at blogging every day. We moved my office and now I hardly ever get on my computer! Links to this post. Thursday, November 24, 2011. Assorted pix from our day today. Andy is here.so it's a thuglife for us. Do I look like a 15 year old boy? Turkey dinner cookin' dance partay! See, we're mostly normal. ;) I'll get better pictures tomorrow. SO the big news is big improvements with both of my girls! We cut off her long ...
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