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Not so black and gay: December 2008
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Wednesday, December 31, 2008. It is very important to be aware of what types of people are in your life. It’s you. I mean if I’m surrounded by drug addicts, alcoholics, queens, thieves and lairs, means I’m guilty by association. I changed. They didn’t. We don’t see each other anymore. What I found interesting were the types of people I started to attract in AA. They were on some bullshit themselves. I mean, they weren’t drinking or anything, but they weren’t good people. Am I a good person? I wouldn̵...
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Not so black and gay: April 2008
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Wednesday, April 30, 2008. Change isn’t easy. I figured I make up my own guide to success and follow it. I didn’t want to hear or read about those who already made and living in their big mansions or whatever. I was still in the struggle. I didn’t want to become a better person, I just wanted to not have to live from check to check. I suddenly had an American dream. Why do we change? Sunday, April 20, 2008. My two cents on blogging. Can you really know a person from their blog? I am not my blog. My b...
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Not so black and gay: February 2008
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Friday, February 08, 2008. If you got your health…. Old folks growing up would always say, if you got your health, you got everything. I never really understood what that meant because I was always a healthy child. I just thought life was a big playground as if the sun shines everyday. It’s hard because living a good life isn’t so easy. I mean I watch Oprah and I read a lot of self-help books, but I still feel trapped by my job, my past, my own issues and addictions. So for those of you who are well, bre...
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Not so black and gay: June 2009
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Wednesday, June 17, 2009. One day at a time. I am beginning to understand the meaning. At first, I was such a bastard. I couldn’t see beyond Friday night. At first I felt it was not a sufficient or substantial argument. I had to question the motive. But you can’t change what you do not acknowledge. I cannot correct that will not be corrected. Will it come back? Will this be a good day? Will it be a time when I don’t think about this? As the adult says to the child, will this be the end of my life?
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Not so black and gay: May 2008
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Tuesday, May 27, 2008. This past weekend was black gay pride and I couldn’t help but ask myself, “Who cares.” I really wasn’t in the mood to mingle this year. I wasn’t promoting a book. I didn’t want to see old faces that probably tell me I gained weight or I’ve gotten older. The entire thing actually felt depressing to me. I wanted to stay as far away as possible. I need to start learning to look at my life different. Tuesday, May 20, 2008. Monday, May 19, 2008. The liquor store finally opened. I fe...
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Life's Like....: April 2009
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An insight into the life of a confused, misunderstood 20 something year old gay youth. Living in one of the most cosmopolitan cities in the world. Yet is still trying to find himself. Men, drink, food, sex, friends, dates, parties, fashion. This is a collection of typical London experiences. I'm going to show you MY version of these events. Wednesday, 1 April 2009. OMG You're sooo short! I'm SICK and TIRED of people saying this to me! OMG, you're so short! Ain't that the truth? Get a grip people! Paula D...
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Life's Like....: OMG You're sooo short!!
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An insight into the life of a confused, misunderstood 20 something year old gay youth. Living in one of the most cosmopolitan cities in the world. Yet is still trying to find himself. Men, drink, food, sex, friends, dates, parties, fashion. This is a collection of typical London experiences. I'm going to show you MY version of these events. Wednesday, 1 April 2009. OMG You're sooo short! I'm SICK and TIRED of people saying this to me! OMG, you're so short! Ain't that the truth? Get a grip people! Yeah ki...
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Not so black and gay: September 2008
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Wednesday, September 24, 2008. The worse I did, i did to myself: A year later in recovery. I thought I wanted to die. I didn’t die. I got sober and it wasn’t the end of the world. I started consistently taking my meds, and I didn’t lose myself. I thought being on antipsychotics and antidepressants would make me a zombie. I thought it would take away my creativity and edge. It didn’t. I didn’t think I could turn it around. I got an apartment. I got a job. I grew up. I’d just miss it or want it more. And t...
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Not so black and gay: August 2008
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Sunday, August 31, 2008. I wonder how I would act. I got so damn nervous. I defiantly didn’t feel sexy. I wasn’t for sure if I was even horny. I wanted sex so I could stop saying I was celibate. He got to the door. He wasn’t bad looking. I decided I wasn’t taking off my tank top cuz I didn’t feel like showing my Krespy Kreme stomach. Mama, wherever you at, it's been 25 years. I know, you know. I'm still standing here. I'm getting better. Wednesday, August 13, 2008. John Edwards, you are the father! I thi...
