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August 2015 – Claire Bear Blues
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Life after losing a beautiful baby girl. August 30, 2015. But, we had a nice weekend. It was relaxing and mellow, and involved a lot of good food and sleep- much needed! That comfort was short-lived. Instead of the letter being addressed to me and my husband, it was addressed to me and her husband. Tomorrow is a new day, one where I will choose to focus on Claire. And not them . We are all missing you, Claire. August 27, 2015. I’m thankful for my husband. He’s been my rock through this al...I’m tha...
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Thought process – Claire Bear Blues
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Life after losing a beautiful baby girl. July 29, 2015. I hope most people don’t have to think the way I do. Whenever I do something now, I’m so scared. I’m scared something will happen to Lily, I’m scared I can’t keep composure talking about Claire, and I’m scared no matter where I go that I will run into her childcare provider or her family again. I keep waiting to wake up and see Claire. I keep waiting to go to sleep and have her visit me in my dreams. Neither one has happened so far. Leave a Reply Ca...
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Help in the smallest ways possible – Claire Bear Blues
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Life after losing a beautiful baby girl. Help in the smallest ways possible. August 9, 2015. August 9, 2015. I have had so many people who have asked for ways to help. So many kind people. Initially, I didn’t know what to say. These are some of the responses I’ve given (or should have given) and continue to give since losing my little girl. Donate to a good cause in her name. Spread awareness of the importance of safe sleeping. Ask about my other child… The one who is also feeling this heavy loss. I try ...
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Claire Bear Blues – Page 2 – life after losing a beautiful baby girl
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Life after losing a beautiful baby girl. September 7, 2016. We had a conference with Lily’s new kindergarten teacher prior to the first day of school. She had a long form to fill out, and the first question was about siblings, how many, and their names and ages. I wrote: Little sister, Claire, was 11 months when she passed away in April 2015. A second baby sister due this December. How is this my life? How do I live in a world where I’m writing down that my daughter died? Mind playing tricks on me. I sti...
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Claire Bear Blues
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Life after losing a beautiful baby girl. August 2, 2015. This seems absurd to most, I am sure, but I still try and brush the side of her face. I pull up an old photo on Instagram and rub my fingers back and forth along her cheek. I do the same thing on the blown up photo I have of her in the hall, the one we used at her funeral. I catch myself doing these things, and I feel so embarrassed. This weekend was a tough one. I know I’ll have many more just the same, and others not as bad. One of those days.
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clairebearblues – Claire Bear Blues
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Life after losing a beautiful baby girl. November 7, 2016. I’ve been avoiding all things baby clothes. Now that I have most of the nursery set up, I’ve been feeling pressure to actually put things in. But on Sunday I figured her sister needed some. However, I can’t include the baby and Lily (I bought her some clothes too) without including Claire. I brought her a new glass rose and butterfly to the cemetery and spent an hour talking to her and telling her how much I love her. October 31, 2016. I have so ...
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Guilt, happiness, and missing my child – Claire Bear Blues
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Life after losing a beautiful baby girl. Guilt, happiness, and missing my child. August 14, 2015. August 14, 2015. It’s nearly 1am and I’m up thinking about Claire. Looking at pictures, remembering her, missing her, loving her…but I can’t bring myself to watch a video of her. I used to spend hours watching videos of her. Videos on my phone, the video I made for her funeral. I would watch them with tears but it would put a smile on my face. This is my sweet baby girl! Sudden unexplained infant death.
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Claire – Claire Bear Blues
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Life after losing a beautiful baby girl. Claire was born on June 3, 2014. She was the happiest baby in the world. Claire was just starting to talk, could say. Claire died, unexpectedly, on April 24th, 2015. On that day, the whole world lost Claire. A beautiful, funny, kind, loving, caring, amazing 10 1/2 month old baby girl. Here’s my Claire, and the video I put together for the service. 7 thoughts on “ Claire. June 14, 2015 at 11:08 pm. June 25, 2015 at 8:44 pm. June 20, 2015 at 6:52 pm. Guilt is everyw...
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July 2015 – Claire Bear Blues
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Life after losing a beautiful baby girl. She would be doing that now…. July 31, 2015. That’s what Justin and I find ourselves thinking quite often now. As I’ve mentioned, we moved recently. We aren’t that far away, but it’s a change. There are tons of parks in walking distance, which is amazing for Lily. I imagine I’ll have these moments for the rest of my life. I know I’ll always grieve the loss of my beautiful girl, and so sad for her and what an amazing life she had ahead of her. July 29, 2015. I hope...
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Everything is bittersweet – Claire Bear Blues
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Life after losing a beautiful baby girl. July 27, 2015. Life is that way now. Nothing is quite as colorful without Claire. Jokes aren’t as quite as funny without Claire. Good news isn’t actually good, because Claire isn’t here. How could it be? Our life was as a mom and dad to Lily and Claire. Two girls. Two beautiful, healthy girls… Neither of I thought anything would ever happen to. Leave a Reply Cancel reply. Enter your comment here. Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:. Guilt is eve...