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Reverse Peephole: Making Me Crazy
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Spending some time looking in. Thursday, November 18, 2010. But maybe I'm crazy,. Maybe you're crazy,. Maybe we're crazy,. Probably." - Gnarls Barkley, "Crazy". When I asked as much, it was met with "shock." Or at least what was supposed to be shock. I even got an "Excuse Me? AND a denial of having done anything wrong. And then he was ready to just carry on, per usual. Didn't I say that I grew up in dysfunction on steroids? You think I don't know what crazy making is when I see it? Like to Hear it?
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Reverse Peephole: December 2010
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Spending some time looking in. Wednesday, December 8, 2010. This week has been a bad massage, I need a happy ending." - Kanye West, "Gorgeous". It’s only Wednesday, but this week has been a fight. Easily the hardest week I’ve had all year – and I’ve had some tough weeks, so that’s saying something. AND I sat behind a murderer yesterday. A real one. He killed his wife in front of their daughter. And he laughs in court. Did I mention it’s only Wednesday? Smiles and limps away…my back, remember? Since writi...
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Reverse Peephole: Striking a Balance
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Spending some time looking in. Tuesday, November 23, 2010. But the speech I would get ad nauseam? In my head I hear her rattling off these commandments I'm supposed to abide by, but then I can also see her - years of buying all the Christmas presents, but putting two names on the cards, or packing up whole houses and moving an entire family all by herself - and I’m confused. How do I merge the Independent Woman and “Cater 2 U” girl into one seamless package? I've yet to come up with a sensible answer.
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Reverse Peephole: Not For Nothin'
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Spending some time looking in. Wednesday, December 8, 2010. This week has been a bad massage, I need a happy ending." - Kanye West, "Gorgeous". It’s only Wednesday, but this week has been a fight. Easily the hardest week I’ve had all year – and I’ve had some tough weeks, so that’s saying something. AND I sat behind a murderer yesterday. A real one. He killed his wife in front of their daughter. And he laughs in court. Did I mention it’s only Wednesday? Smiles and limps away…my back, remember? Since writi...
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Reverse Peephole: November 2010
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Spending some time looking in. Tuesday, November 23, 2010. But the speech I would get ad nauseam? In my head I hear her rattling off these commandments I'm supposed to abide by, but then I can also see her - years of buying all the Christmas presents, but putting two names on the cards, or packing up whole houses and moving an entire family all by herself - and I’m confused. How do I merge the Independent Woman and “Cater 2 U” girl into one seamless package? I've yet to come up with a sensible answer.
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Reverse Peephole: Less Head, More Heart
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Spending some time looking in. Thursday, March 10, 2011. Less Head, More Heart. And you know I can't promise you things will turn out fine. But I have to be honest, I want you to be mine." - Corinne Bailey Rae, "Breathlesss". As I've already admitted, I'm an Olympic-level over-thinker. All of my life, I've first rehearsed in my head what I'm about to say out loud. And a lot of what is said to me? I had a "caution to the wind" moment earlier this week. I made a true confession of sorts that I'd been c...
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Reverse Peephole: June 2011
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Spending some time looking in. Thursday, June 9, 2011. I had forgotten that time wasn't fixed like concrete but in fact was fluid as sand, or water. I had forgotten that even misery can end. " - Joyce Carol Oates. My whole life, I've struggled with the idea of finality. Or finality brought on abruptly, I should say. I've never truly been able to conceptualize it. When I graduated college, I was left with an overwhelming feeling of "That's it? And the source of finality plaguing me now? Why do I have such...
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Reverse Peephole: Due Time vs. My Time
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Spending some time looking in. Wednesday, June 1, 2011. Due Time vs. My Time. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." - Matthew 6:34, NIV. When I'm watching a movie, I like to know the ending before it happens. If I'm with someone who's seen it, I beg them to tell me what's going to happen. If I'm alone, I Google it, searching for a site that will give me the specific details, start to finish. Are we there yet? I know that ther...
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Reverse Peephole: Getting There
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Spending some time looking in. Wednesday, November 17, 2010. Searchin for that feeling, tell me where is the magic? Let's stay together 'til we're ghosts. I want to witness love, I never seen it close." - Drake, "Fireworks". Hubby wasn't busy whispering hurtful words in her ear, snapping at her everytime she said something or looking irritated by having to be where he was. There was no resentment, or any that I could see, over her success. He just looked proud, and very into his woman. Like to Hear it?