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Sometime Insomniac: July 2012
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My name is Whitney. Sometimes I can't sleep. RIP, Dooley Barlow - Best Dog in the Universe. This is a post I feel compelled to write, but I wish I had no way to write it. Because I wish losing Dooley never had to happen. This post is quite LONG. Dooley deserves it. In roughly chronological order:. Charlie, Major, Rocky, Dusty, Kirby, Gabby, Lucy, Little Bit, Boss, Butch, Chip, and Dooley. All in the span of about 15-16 years. Mom's sister had begged her to go look at the puppies and see if there was one ...
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Sometime Insomniac: May 2014
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My name is Whitney. Sometimes I can't sleep. Being a "crazy" person who counsels. It occurs to me that I want to be a counselor to help people as a way of making up for feeling like I wasn't able to help my brother before he died. I read that and I wonder if it sounds wildly unhealthy. It doesn't seem like the worst motivation ever to me, but it also seems like it could be problematic if I'm not careful. It's a valid question. But it also doesn't seem too difficult to answer to me.
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Sometime Insomniac: September 2014
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My name is Whitney. Sometimes I can't sleep. I'm up in the middle of the night. It's dark, and I'm standing outside. It's not that cold, but I hold my arms around myself. I stand in one place and look one way and then another. I'm not sure which way to move, or if I should move at all. Do I need to go somewhere? Do I need to go inside? Can I just stand here for awhile? How often does one go through a bottle of whisky like that? What do I do on this day? The empty space I feel will never fully close is wh...
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Sometime Insomniac: November 2014
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My name is Whitney. Sometimes I can't sleep. How Much Karat Gold. The word karat refers to the amount of gold in a particular item." (from some jewelry website that I don't feel like linking to because this could also be considered general/common knowledge). Gold is a precious metal of the world. You measure the worth of pieces of jewelry based on how much gold is present in the make-up of an item. What characteristics of people make up a "karat gold" kind of list? We love 24K gold! One troublesome part ...
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Sometime Insomniac: January 2013
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My name is Whitney. Sometimes I can't sleep. Twenty Days Can Change A Lot. So on the 20th day after my post on 12/5 - a post which centered on the fact that I did not want to speak to my mother - I talked to my mom for almost two hours. And it was incredibly good. We shared ideas and thoughts on why our family has been so completely destroyed, and we agreed about far more than I ever knew we would. And it made me feel less crazy to hear that she agrees with my assessments of our family's weaknesses t...
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Sometime Insomniac: How Much Karat Gold
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My name is Whitney. Sometimes I can't sleep. How Much Karat Gold. The word karat refers to the amount of gold in a particular item." (from some jewelry website that I don't feel like linking to because this could also be considered general/common knowledge). Gold is a precious metal of the world. You measure the worth of pieces of jewelry based on how much gold is present in the make-up of an item. What characteristics of people make up a "karat gold" kind of list? We love 24K gold! One troublesome part ...
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Sometime Insomniac: April 2012
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My name is Whitney. Sometimes I can't sleep. I woke up at 3am out of a deep sleep one night to the sound of shattering glass. That is a frightening way to wake up for sure. Turns out there wasn't an intruder at all just a picture that had fallen off the wall in the kitchen and then shattered on the floor. I was finishing this up when I suddenly saw flashlight beams sweep across my kitchen windows that face the backyard. "Now there really is an intruder? I thought, panicking. "What is going on? I've been ...
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Sometime Insomniac: May 2013
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My name is Whitney. Sometimes I can't sleep. You don't know how it feels. Tom Petty sings a song that says:. You don't know how it feels. You don't know how it feels to be me. These lyrics describe something about my grief over my brother's suicide. Something that until tonight I don't think I understood. Or didn't have words for. So I'm trying to put words to it now. Bear with me, if you would. But with people who only know how hard it is through description? By proxy or observation? So that's the odd c...
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Sometime Insomniac: December 2012
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My name is Whitney. Sometimes I can't sleep. I don't want to talk to her. To make a long story short, I'm not in close contact with either of my parents these days. It's eggshell-walking most of the time. And I'm finally starting to be able to sort any of it out. And OMG. It has already been such a long, arduous process. That has barely even gotten started, it seems. Awesome. Oh yeah, I had lunch with my mom the other day.". She's crazy. The usual. It was rough but I made it through.". And that's hard fo...
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Sometime Insomniac: November 2012
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My name is Whitney. Sometimes I can't sleep. My emotions are the tangled strands right now. I can hardly trace one along without getting sidetracked by another one overlapping it, underneath it, looping around it. This helped untangle some of the strands. At least now I can see them a little clearer. I'm just gonna post this as it is. I know there aren't any conclusions being drawn here. Just feelings laid out so I can get a better understanding of them. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom).