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umm...: August 2008
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Tuesday, August 26, 2008. Haha, im so annoyed at myself. My blog is so boring. all i ever do is quote song lyrics. i need to stop. . Sometimes, the songs just make so much sense. they say exactly what i want to say. but just cant. . That one time when you are awake. and the person next to you was asleep. you just want to reach out and touch them. but you are afraid. you dont want to wake that person. and if they do wake up, what will they think.can anyone else relate? Lying next to you. On top of yours.
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umm...: it's happening again
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Saturday, December 24, 2011. It used to be that when i was little, i couldn't sleep the night before Christmas Eve. so, Christmas Eve eve :) i remember tossing and turning; having very strange, vivid dreams. i could not wait until our small and rather strange family traditions began on Christmas Eve. It's 2011, im 29 years old, and it happened again tonight. only this time it's not anticipation that keeps me awake. instead, it's worry. and sadness. and racing thoughts. Im so ready for a new year to come.
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umm...: January 2009
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Saturday, January 03, 2009. 1657, from Gk. oxymoron, noun use of neut. of oxymoros (adj.) "pointedly foolish," from oxys "sharp" moros "stupid." Rhetorical figure by which contradictory terms are conjoined so as to give point to the statement or expression; the word itself is an illustration of the thing. Now often used loosely to mean "contradiction in terms.". It's going well. but what can i say? Like i say on the blog: my story. her story. living through my words. Factual fiction / fictional facts.
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umm...: July 2008
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Friday, July 25, 2008. The song says.I’m just sittin down here watching airplanes.take off and fly. Tryin to figure out which one you might be on.and why you don’t love me anymore. . The sun is gone. All that is left is a building in the distance with broken clouds around it. Specks of sunshine, glowing neon orange between the purple-blue sky. . Thursday, July 24, 2008. I plan on writing more in depth about each of these, but for now I just need to make a note to myself so I remember what they all are!
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umm...: December 2011
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Saturday, December 24, 2011. It used to be that when i was little, i couldn't sleep the night before Christmas Eve. so, Christmas Eve eve :) i remember tossing and turning; having very strange, vivid dreams. i could not wait until our small and rather strange family traditions began on Christmas Eve. It's 2011, im 29 years old, and it happened again tonight. only this time it's not anticipation that keeps me awake. instead, it's worry. and sadness. and racing thoughts. Im so ready for a new year to come.
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umm...: Song #1
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Monday, July 13, 2009. I’m done. . I gotta be. . For the short time it lasted. You aren’t lying, . But you’re sure not telling me the truth. . You left out some details. It’s my time. Raisin my white sail . Even though i don’t want to. I do not need to be sitting here . Wine glass in my hand. Wondering if and when you’ll call. I’m better than that . You tell me all I want to hear. And it’s so sweet. I think you mean it. But you need to get . Your own shit together first. Figure out what you want. Alison ...
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umm...: January 2012
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Thursday, January 19, 2012. Im just letting it go tonight. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). Our Lady, Star of the Sea. To mend that shelf with too many books. Watch out World.A new Mayer Arrives! I'm just me. umm = me my story within = factual fiction. View my complete profile. Please pray that my parents sell their townhouse they have been trying to sell for 5 years now. All my friends and family. All my students and co-workers. My friend David Bertagnoli for a full recovery from his stroke.
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umm...: May 2009
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Thursday, May 21, 2009. Again, its been a while. And i just finished a 6-pack. . I sense myself getting back into the old habit of drinking away, or into, my problems and depressions. . Its summer. . Im here in michigan. . I feel alone. . Although i have people in my life. . I think. . Sometimes i just get too caught up in the fact that everyone seems to have their own lives. . Their own/other friends. . Me not so much. . Im just a floater. . And i really, usually, enjoy it. . Most of the time. . I'm jus...
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umm...: July 2007
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Thursday, July 19, 2007. I have not felt this way in a long time. I am not even sure what i call this feeling that i have. I am not sure what others call it. Wednesday, July 18, 2007. It's almost been another whole year since i wrote on this. that basically sums up the past two years of my life.being trapped, thinking i was in love, engaged, then cheated on. i could not write for two years of my life. i felt as though someone was always looking over my shoulder. What makes you happy? All my friends who h...