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Nothing Without You: Samuel's Birth Story
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A blog about babyloss and endless love. All That Love Can Do: Carrying to term after a fatal diagnosis. The story of Samuel's birth is long. You can read the posts in order here. Also below) - Part Five. On Saturday, April 14th, 2012 at 6:28pm we welcomed Samuel Evan Fredrickson into the world! He weighed 4lbs, 8oz and was 17.5 inches long). He was the most perfect little guy I've ever seen. He took breaths and even cried! Now let me start from the beginning. After they left, suddenly things took a turn ...
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Nothing Without You: March 2013
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A blog about babyloss and endless love. All That Love Can Do: Carrying to term after a fatal diagnosis. Friday, March 29, 2013. No, not the naughty book). There are moments since Samuel died, when I get a small flash of who I once was. Maybe it's a picture that brings back memories, maybe it's having a conversation with a friend who brings out the "old me" for a moment, maybe it's my desire to have back the carefree life I once had. Whatever it is, it's like a flash of color in a very grey world. I've ha...
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Nothing Without You: October 2012
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A blog about babyloss and endless love. All That Love Can Do: Carrying to term after a fatal diagnosis. Monday, October 29, 2012. I love our house. I like being home and being surrounded by Samuel's things and the memories of our time together instead of facing the world of constant reminders of what I don't have. Yes, it's sad that those things are not being used by him. Yes, there are times when I consider putting them away. But what will that accomplish? You may not understand this, but a weird thing ...
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Nothing Without You: The Love We Carry
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A blog about babyloss and endless love. All That Love Can Do: Carrying to term after a fatal diagnosis. Monday, June 17, 2013. The Love We Carry. I've decided to make some big changes around here. It's time for something new. As I'm sure some of you have noticed this blog has a weird URL. When I originally made the blog, it was the only name available and so I took it. It was a very stressful time and, really, that was the LAST thing on my mind. Now, it bothers me. So, I'm changing it! Only comments of l...
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Nothing Without You: April 2013
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A blog about babyloss and endless love. All That Love Can Do: Carrying to term after a fatal diagnosis. Thursday, April 25, 2013. I haven't had much to say lately. I'm worn out. Completely and entirely. So many times, I have wished I could find the "Exit" door to this mess and just walk away forever. But, alas, no such door exists, so here I am. After my big freak out. To them). We need it. We are both tired and need a break (not that we can get away from it, but there is something to be said for...One t...
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Nothing Without You: Too much!
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A blog about babyloss and endless love. All That Love Can Do: Carrying to term after a fatal diagnosis. Sunday, June 2, 2013. Today was rough. R O U G H. It started out ok. Today was my sisters' 21st birthdays. (For those that don't know, I have twin sisters). I thought it would be nice to take them out to dinner, so we made plans to go to the Melting Pot. I was looking forward to a nice night out. (This is not the rough part.). Okay, now to the rough part. When I returned, I was walking to his room when...
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Nothing Without You: A million things
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A blog about babyloss and endless love. All That Love Can Do: Carrying to term after a fatal diagnosis. Monday, May 20, 2013. I've have a million things to say, but can't seem to find a way to get them out. I've come here time and time again the last few weeks to get it out, but the words don't come together. The fuzz-brain of grief combined with the meaninglessness I feel every day has taken it's toll on my ability to find the words. But tonight I've decided to try. This is why:. I'm the one who has to ...
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Nothing Without You: November 2012
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A blog about babyloss and endless love. All That Love Can Do: Carrying to term after a fatal diagnosis. Thursday, November 29, 2012. A little bit of happiness. Today is just going to have to be a two-post day. I had ordered a few photos and I went to pick them up this afternoon. While I was waiting, one of the girls behind the counter said, "This is such a cute picture! What a cute baby! I smiled and said, "Thank you so much! My heart melted a little bit. He is a cute baby 3. 1 Yesterday, the one-year an...
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Nothing Without You: December 2012
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A blog about babyloss and endless love. All That Love Can Do: Carrying to term after a fatal diagnosis. Monday, December 31, 2012. The end of a horrible year. 2012 is about to end forever. Normally, a new year doesn't mean much to me. It's just another day in another month in another year. I've never been one to make meaningless resolutions, or to think life is going to change dramatically just because the date has changed. This new year feels different. Nothing on earth can ever undo what's been done.
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