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October | 2016 | Four Stars and a Frame
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Four Stars and a Frame. My search for serenity…. I am tired of myself. I have no idea who I am anymore. I feel like I am living a half-assed life. I am not the best mom. I am not the best wife. I am not the best employee. I am not the best friend. Some day I feel like I am just floating along in the current. October 31, 2016. I think I am finally starting to actually lose it. 4 1/2 months since his kids moved here. I have put on my brave face and tried to make this work. But I am not happy. I am writing ...
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March | 2016 | Four Stars and a Frame
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Four Stars and a Frame. My search for serenity…. And now, time for the diet…. This is my 88th day of Sobriety! The weekend had its struggles, though. My Hubbs drank on Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Sunday was especially hard because we hosted Easter brunch. We made two of the main dishes and other guests brought things to share which included screwdrivers and mimosa. I was craving a mimosa BUT I just drank orange juice and it was great. Champagne gives me a headache anyway. But when it gets real. He didn&...
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I bought myself a present. | Four Stars and a Frame
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Four Stars and a Frame. My search for serenity…. I bought myself a present. I tend to NOT spend money on myself. I buy my clothes mostly at consignment stores because I think they are so overly priced. I have never treated myself to a massage or a manicure. I don’t have to pay to have my hair cut and colored because my sister owns her on hair salon. But yesterday I did a crazy thing. I bought something for MYSELF! I love a good epiphany. December 6, 2016. Happy Stuff. I need more of it. So true…whe...
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Cool Surfer Looking Chick | soberlifesite
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Cool Surfer Looking Chick. How have I gone this far in life and never questioned this pattern? Middot; January 8. That is some serious self awareness. I’m also a yoga pants wearing, allergic to metal, normal girl. One thing I have found that boosts me is having my hair blow dried. My hair is long and frizzy curly. Getting it blow dried makes it look pretty and I feel good. Dry shampoo is my best friend. I go every week. It’s worth every penny. Liked by 2 people. Middot; January 8. Liked by 1 person.
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Cool Surfer Looking Chick. How have I gone this far in life and never questioned this pattern? UPDATE* The only thing verifiably true in this post is that my friend is struggling to lose weight despite working out like a maniac, and we should all try the nacho diet. Thank you. One would think that this information would be more out in the open, right? And it would work because people would also give up booze and be duped into thinking an all nacho diet is amazing! I bet she thinks her shit doesn’t ...
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Taking the pressure off | soberlifesite
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Taking the pressure off. She must have superpowers. Anyway, I’ve been doing surprisingly well with my sobriety this time around. I’m not sure why. The anxiety of “but what will others think” has been gone. The scenario game isn’t playing in my mind. The one where I ask myself “what about holidays? I didn’t drink. I got home and wrote out all my feelings, determined not to let this anxiety feeling settle in. Alcohol is extremely addictive and crafty, isn’t it? Old Letter, Same Message. Middot; December 28.
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Sleeping on it. | soberlifesite
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Drinking, relationship, sobriety. Am I trying to prove that sober me is much more productive, energetic, and organized? Is the side of me that sleeps in, hits the snooze, rolls out of bed haphazardly and shuffles around a snails pace unacceptable? Or only acceptable when I’ve been drinking? I’m a binge drinker. Day 2. A little breath of fresh air. Middot; December 20. Liked by 1 person. Middot; December 20. Liked by 1 person. Middot; December 20. Liked by 1 person. Middot; December 20. Middot; December 21.
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August | 2016 | Four Stars and a Frame
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Four Stars and a Frame. My search for serenity…. Day Mutha Eff’ing ONE. I am so tired of feeling like I am just gradually slipping deeper and deeper down this gravelly hill. I need to find some footing. My Hubbs ex-wife was just in town for FIVE days to celebrate her son’s 13th birthday. Three of the five nights, she stayed at our house. Do NOT ask me how that happened. But, let me back up a little bit. August 25, 2016. This is where I am at right now…. August 12, 2016. Just hangin’ on…. My two-step son&...
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Four Stars and a Frame | My search for serenity… | Page 2
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Four Stars and a Frame. My search for serenity…. I found his pot pipe in my art room. February 21, 2017. I am so tired of having to take care of my husband an remind him to do shit. He is supposed to be going to an “Intensive” with our counselor to heal childhood trauma. Do you start your counseling thing tomorrow? God….I think so. Did you make plans for Sam to go somewhere after school? He set this Intensive up two-months ago. February 7, 2017. No wonder these kids are like they are. February 6, 2017.
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Happy Stuff. I need more of it | Four Stars and a Frame
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Four Stars and a Frame. My search for serenity…. Happy Stuff. I need more of it. I am a PodCast addict. True Crime is my favorite. (Sword and Scale, Up and Vanished, Unexplained…to name a few) I love a good mystery. When I was younger I always had a book or two going. Stephen King, Clive Barker, James Patterson…I would devour a book in two days. Now, I listen to PodCasts instead. I need more happy in my life. I need more videos of cute kittens and babies laughing. Of dancing and painting and joy. Decembe...
