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New Way to be Human: A Tale of Four Junes....
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New Way to be Human. Tuesday, June 27, 2006. A Tale of Four Junes. I was fresh out of college, engaged, and getting ready for my wedding. I was living with Mom and Dad. Mom and I picked out flowers together at Garden Gate florist. Mom assured me that 'they'd know how to help us.' She was right. And then the next morning, I went to her house, and hugged her. She loaned us her truck for the honeymoon (it was more dependable than my S-10), and we headed off to start our life together as a married couple.
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New Way to be Human
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New Way to be Human. Monday, July 13, 2009. I never thought I'd write here again. But I feel like this is the place that makes sense tonight. In a week it will have been 4 years since Mom died. And tonight that is hitting me especially hard. Tonight, for the first time in a long, long time I am awake reliving it all, and second guessing myself. My memories are skewed. All I have to go on now are the words I wrote then in my haze of emotion and stress and fatigue. And most of all, always. I hope you were ...
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New Way to be Human: A Year Later--And A New Locale
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New Way to be Human. Wednesday, July 19, 2006. A Year Later- And A New Locale. Ok, so I really legitimately needed to have a breakdown. I'm not sure if I legitimately needed to blog it, but I did, so. I guess it will stay. This is the post I wanted to write from the beginning. Today marks the one year mark of my Mom's death. I miss her. How can it have been a full year already? I have decided, for the record, that I hate the word "acceptance." That is supposed to be the phase of grief that you aspire...
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New Way to be Human: June 2005
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New Way to be Human. Saturday, June 25, 2005. Mom won't eat today. She's really, really, really sick to her stomach all the time. Dad Panics on days like today. It is distressing. Especially when she won't take in fluids (she has done some of that today). Tomorrow will be better. Mostly I think Dad and I feel cagey because we feel helpless. Feeling helpless sucks. Posted by Val @ 6:59 PM. Tuesday, June 21, 2005. Scans, Plans, and Smelly Boats. Well, so we got the CT Scan results back today. Needless to s...
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New Way to be Human: Am I Normal?
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New Way to be Human. Thursday, July 06, 2006. The question I have asked myself the most often in the last 2 years is, "Am I normal? When I was pregnant and dealing with all of those suprising little symptoms I would call my sister-in-law the nurse practitioner, just so I could hear her say those two beautiful words: "It's normal." When Carolyn was born and something concerned me even a little, I would call her even more frequently to hear those same two beautiful words. I'm trying to learn what it looks ...
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New Way to be Human: Sympathy Card Rant
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New Way to be Human. Thursday, May 25, 2006. Ok So Gotta do a little bit on the topic of 'grief' in general here. Well. really more of a card vent. Bear with me, or read another post if you're just not into it. I've had to buy several sympathy cards lately, and of course we got scores of them when Mom died. But, in general, I HATE them. I mean seriously- have you gone to Hallmark and read any? I just don't get it. Why is our society so afraid to talk about the fact that death happens? And, unless a large...
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New Way to be Human: December 2005
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New Way to be Human. Friday, December 30, 2005. Andy's Grandma is ok. She's out of the hospital, and it was a hiatal hernia rather than the scarier options that we thought we were dealing with. She is feeling much better. I am grateful. Posted by Val @ 7:27 PM. If you've read any of the last few blogs, you know that I'm not feeling particularly shiny or happy as of late. Not that I'm down and out. I just feel a little beat up is all, and I'm sure I'll bounce back shortly. My husband really is real! Andy'...
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New Way to be Human: H-word Anniversary--(Do not read if you don't want to hear about Grief, or if end-of-life discussion will hurt or discourage you.)
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New Way to be Human. Wednesday, July 12, 2006. H-word Anniversary- (Do not read if you don't want to hear about Grief, or if end-of-life discussion will hurt or discourage you.). These July days aren't easy when it comes to the grief stuff. Please don't get me wrong I'm fully functioning, out and about, and doing the Mommy bit. (It seems like people read here and think, "Oh Val just sits around crying in her cheerios." I DON'T! I know- forget the what-ifs. When she saw the doctor and he said the "H-word"...
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New Way to be Human: Profiles of Hope: First Edition
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New Way to be Human. Wednesday, May 31, 2006. Profiles of Hope: First Edition. I mentioned that I want to start spotlighting individuals who are walking in life and hope and dealing with cancer in one way or another. This is my first attempt at what I'm calling, "Profiles of Hope" (Hey- if you're going to rip someone off, may as well be a Kennedy, right? She is fighting the beast. She is "evicting" it from taking up residence in her life. And she is winning. Posted by Val @ 9:22 PM. Cancer. it's not ...
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New Way to be Human: March 2005
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New Way to be Human. Friday, March 04, 2005. Mostly though, I think my feeling is- can't something just GO RIGHT? It just doesn't seem fair. At my doctor's appointment today I found out that basically NOTHING is happening. I had 2 contractions during the non-stress test. I haven't had any strong ones at all. I had some ouch twingey ones last night. but very few and even those were pretty pathetic. And the baby is VERY posterior. A pity party day. Hopefully some ice cream, a bubble bath (and if my husband...
