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Wake me when it's over: August 2011
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Wake me when it's over. A young widows self-absorbed dark corner. Friday, August 26, 2011. Today is the 1 year anniversary of jims death. I'm staying at home today. Nobody is coming over. I will not call anyone to "talk". Why? I have 2 friends on this earth that would respect my need for solomnness on this day. But I won't call them today. Links to this post. Thursday, August 25, 2011. I repeat, FUCK YOU. Links to this post. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). Ideas not fully understood. Did my brain not get the...
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Wake me when it's over: Strange days
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Wake me when it's over. A young widows self-absorbed dark corner. Friday, July 30, 2010. Dropped Jim off Tuesday at a memory care facility. OFFICIALLY singed the papers. No tears. No sobs. Slumped over signing things. Hearing in the background "it's best for your kids, it's best for your Heath" looking up from my slouch I stare at her, she smiles. I look back down at the contracts and wish she would leave and give me a moment. I signed them, I walk to see him. he was jovial, I was.nothing. All my love,.
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Wake me when it's over: so sorry jim
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Wake me when it's over. A young widows self-absorbed dark corner. Wednesday, July 28, 2010. Ell, i started having problems with speaking today, so weird. I called my Dr. and he said it was stress and told me to take an ativan and to seriously try to place jim, that my stress level is getting too high. So, I called the place where jim goes for respite care and told them that i will be bringing him in the next day. July 30, 2010 at 9:05 PM. Ive read all the posts. I cant say I understand what you are going...
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Wake me when it's over: Thankful
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Wake me when it's over. A young widows self-absorbed dark corner. Monday, November 28, 2011. So this Thanksgiving I was actually thankful for something, unlike last year. How silly this thought is. But I think it automatically when I feel like one of the kids is in danger. Jim's love for his children was strong and I still feel the remnants of it. I hope that they can feel it too. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). Ideas not fully understood. Why am i looking for you again? I came across this ugly  ...
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Wake me when it's over: The Runaway Bunny
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Wake me when it's over. A young widows self-absorbed dark corner. Sunday, January 9, 2011. If you become a sailboat and sail away from me,". Said his mother, "I will become the wind and blow you to where I want you to go.". I read this book tonight to the kids and i seriously had to stop frequently to hold back the tears. Dorian asked if i would follow him forever. Arwen asked if i would take care of her if she got "the dementias" like daddy. January 19, 2011 at 9:15 AM. Not my professional opinion, just...
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Wake me when it's over
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Wake me when it's over. A young widows self-absorbed dark corner. Thursday, December 15, 2011. A month ago my daughter asked me if daddy was "bad". No", i said, "he was sick". and i left it at that. since then i feel that one day i will have to explain myself to them. explain my actions, explain why i chose to care for their father over them, explain why his body acted the way it did. I tried it. i failed. it just isn't my thing. But writing what had really. Happened and how i really. I need to tell you,...
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Wake me when it's over
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Wake me when it's over. A young widows self-absorbed dark corner. Tuesday, November 8, 2011. A Myeloma Widow's Journey. November 17, 2011 at 7:50 PM. Im happy to see you post again, Gayle . and that you have hope once again. Filling that missing part with something good and loving for your kids is a really wonderful goal. One day at a time. Those beautiful kids of yours are worth it . and so are you. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). Ideas not fully understood. Why am i looking for you again? I came ac...
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Wake me when it's over: Grief Shift.
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Wake me when it's over. A young widows self-absorbed dark corner. Thursday, September 8, 2011. This doesn't sound much like a nightmare but it was. It was too close to our reality. Him being lost and confused and I rushing to get to him. To know that he is safe.for him to know that he is not alone, that I am with him.to take that lost feeling away from him, to bring him peace. When I wake up reality hits. He is gone. I want to hold him so bad. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). Ideas not fully understood.
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Wake me when it's over: March 2012
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Wake me when it's over. A young widows self-absorbed dark corner. Wednesday, March 21, 2012. Ideas not fully understood. Why am i looking for you again. Did my brain not get the memo; husband dead, not coming back. I used to believe that all possibilities existed at once. not anymore, time is real to me now, and reality never repeats. Felt the loss that made me believe that time was real. What do i do with this? Am i even thinking straight yet? Links to this post. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). Did my brain...
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