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Chapter 10 | Cocaine Widow
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The Other Side Of Addiction. July 21, 2010. There is no getting around the fact that my marriage is forever damaged. We all change, but cocaine can change a person in ways life alone cannot. People will sacrifice things that once meant the world to them in favor of that high. Their priorities change. They will steal and lie and try to act like things are normal. Was it all a lie? Did he think he was smarter than me? When did he stop being the man I married and become a lying coke addict? That doesn’t mak...
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Chapter 01 | Cocaine Widow
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The Other Side Of Addiction. January 12, 2008. He left last night, and I couldn’t get to bed then either. I spent the night pacing, wondering if I had just sent him off to get high, which exactly why we have problems in the first place. When he is gone, I do not sleep. I talked to him today. He sounded like he’d been using. His voice has a false cheerfulness when he’s on coke. I thought he might come by, but then I realized he probably didn’t want to see me, because he wasn’t straight. He doesn’t trust a...
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Chapter 17 | Cocaine Widow
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The Other Side Of Addiction. February 21, 2013. It’s been a long three months since I last posted. The temporary job is over. Long story short, the apartment turned out to be Hell. I made just enough money working to get us out and into a nicer place. I turned 47 and now I’m back to square one. Sigh. Just like my marriage. A nice, big failure. My ex is my friend now, I guess, for lack of a better word What do you call someone with so many verbs in your relationship? I miss him still. It is clear that my ...
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Married to my Ex
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Married to my Ex. I am the mother of awesome kids, lover to an awesome ex husband that is an addict to everything except legal things. We are currently working it out but knowing what I know now (CODEPENDENCY) and what he knows(ADDICTION) we might really have a shot! Sunday, October 7, 2007. At any rate she was giving me the details of how it progressed from dancing in a club to ending up at a drug dealers house where they were given a choice, tits or money. Fun times. Why does this hurt me so bad today?
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Married to my Ex: June 2007
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Married to my Ex. I am the mother of awesome kids, lover to an awesome ex husband that is an addict to everything except legal things. We are currently working it out but knowing what I know now (CODEPENDENCY) and what he knows(ADDICTION) we might really have a shot! Friday, June 29, 2007. I am like everyone else? Brings over her bottle (this happens earlier though I was unaware) and leaves it on the kitchen table. She cannot bear to see her son in pain! And I was hurting and I took like, 6 and that was ...
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Chapter 11 | Cocaine Widow
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The Other Side Of Addiction. November 14, 2010. Everyone likes to tell me it gets darkest before the dawn. Well, something better happen soon, because I can’t see my hand in front of my face. Yet everything has changed. Now he is starting to seem like a ghost. I have not heard his voice or seen his face in two weeks. I have no pictures out and as few reminders as possible. The man I married, for all intents and purposes, is gone. C’mon His father is the adult here. Or I thought he was. How fleeting is th...
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Stupid SHIT!!!! | Mother To An Addict's Weblog
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Mother To An Addict’s Weblog. I am soooo angry……have been since last night! I know this blog says MOTHERTOANADDICT……but I’m also the wife of an ALCOHOLIC! Aren’t I just SOOO lucky……not one….but TWO addicts in my family. And I wonder why I’m about to lose my mind……pfffft! I came home last night……and found my husband drunk….and mouthy which is the way he gets when he’s drunk. Had such a stressful day at work….then come home to THAT! I’m tired of this! My daughter….well last night she showed me he...Feed fo...
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Chapter 03 | Cocaine Widow
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The Other Side Of Addiction. January 23, 2008. Cocaine is a hell of a drug the late Rick James (who died of a cocaine overdose). It isn’t hard to love an addict. But it’s easy to hate the addiction that grips them. It makes people lie, and steal. And sometimes, they seem to become someone else. Or with long term use, a walking zombie, with a lust for coke that blinds them to everything else. But seeing what vast amounts of it pumped into my husband’s brain trying to overcome or escape loneliness, unhappi...
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Chapter 13 | Cocaine Widow
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The Other Side Of Addiction. August 16, 2012. But I had felt it coming. My nerves jumping around under my skin, my inability to sleep. I knew something was up, but WHAT? My new job gone before I was even fully trained. Without warning, I was let go due to problems with my work . in Alabama, you can be fired for NO REASON. But I suspect it has more to do with personal politics than anything. See, the girl who recommended me for the job had taken a new one. And she hated it. August 26, 2012. I told him rig...
