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A Cynical Mess with Optimistic Leanings: February 2010
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Tuesday, February 23, 2010. Instead of panicking about your freedom being potentially lost, think about how love ultimately connects all of us in a bewildered mess. Sunday, February 21, 2010. You were just no good for me. But you're sweet like a cupcake. And I wanna eat you up. Saturday, February 20, 2010. I'm ready for this. I am ready for my life to come at me, to grow, to change. Friday, February 19, 2010. Music I Think Doesn’t Suck. Fall on Me – Cry Cry Cry. To Be Alone With You- Sufjan Stevens.
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A Cynical Mess with Optimistic Leanings: all is well
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Sunday, May 16, 2010. Look me in the eyes again. I need to feel your hand upon my face. Life keeps moving forward and i just go with it. I am graduating from college in a matter of days. Since i last updated i have completed an entire run of a show, a professional stage management gig at that. go me. Things are still going well with the boy. And i'm somewhat happy. There are still moments, major times when sadness creeps up on me and starts to close in so tight i can barely breathe. And life is good again.
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A Cynical Mess with Optimistic Leanings: December 2009
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Thursday, December 31, 2009. The quotes of my facebook. M pretty sure college is just a metaphor for some awkward fruit, like guava. -Bernie O'Brien. With him life was routine, without him life was unbearable. - To Kill A Mockingbird. We're all terrified, but let's just live anyway."-Raul Esparza. Even when you like them and want nothing more than to be closer than close to them? And as the awkwardness grew so did the obviousness of what was bound to happen from the start. the night ended with two to...
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A Cynical Mess with Optimistic Leanings: March 2010
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Thursday, March 18, 2010. I laugh because I don't know how else to react. You do that to me. It is definitely not a 'laugh at you'. It is a laugh with you, a laugh out of embarrassment because that's my only line of defense against something so sweet. The most 'romantic' and sweet thing to ever be directed my way was said this afternoon. I just about melted onto my cheap tile floor. Instead I giggled and hid my face, because I did not know what else to do. What I could do. Sunday, March 07, 2010. Here's ...
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A Cynical Mess with Optimistic Leanings: August 2010
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Thursday, August 12, 2010. It's Been A While. Well, here I am. In the past months since I wrote last I have graduated college. I have had not one, but two professional stage management jobs. I am in rehearsals for my third show of the summer. I'm not sure where I am heading with my life, what my direction is. I lived in Massachusetts for the past 6 weeks (mostly). And now I feel like I'm breaking something that is pretty precious to me just because I'm feeling tied down. What am I doing? Its Been A While.
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A Cynical Mess with Optimistic Leanings
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Thursday, March 18, 2010. I laugh because I don't know how else to react. You do that to me. It is definitely not a 'laugh at you'. It is a laugh with you, a laugh out of embarrassment because that's my only line of defense against something so sweet. The most 'romantic' and sweet thing to ever be directed my way was said this afternoon. I just about melted onto my cheap tile floor. Instead I giggled and hid my face, because I did not know what else to do. What I could do. View my complete profile.
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A Cynical Mess with Optimistic Leanings: January 2010
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Friday, January 29, 2010. When you kissed my lips with my mouth so full of questions. It's my worried mind that you quiet. Place your hands on my face. Close my eyes and say. Love is a poor man's food. I could hold you in my arms. I could hold you forever. And I could hold you in my arms. I could hold you forever. Thursday, January 28, 2010. Sunday, January 24, 2010. I was fired from my job today. I was then taken out drinking to comfort me by my sister and cousin. I just felt awkward. I like this boy.
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A Cynical Mess with Optimistic Leanings: May 2009
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Saturday, May 30, 2009. You can be Henry Miller and I will be Anaïs Nin, but this time will be even better. We'll stay together in the end. Tuesday, May 26, 2009. I love you for millions and millions of things, clocks and vampires and dirty nails.". And squiggly paintings and lovely hair and being dizzy and falling dreams.". I want a dylan to my caitlin. Monday, May 25, 2009. Even when you like them and want nothing more than to be closer than close to them? Thursday, May 14, 2009. Beach Haven, NJ 08008.
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