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A view into living with PTSD. March 3, 2016. Then for a while I was hot gluing everything! I made wreaths and decorated them for the season or with bird motifs. I made ornaments out of prefab ceramics or like materials that I would paint or do some kind of faux treatment on. Somewhere along the line I started painting other things like wooden decorative boxes and other “crafty” stuff. I started at the end of last year to engage in creative shoots with actual models and a vision I wanted to create. And la...

November | 2016 | peekatmysouldotcom

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A view into living with PTSD. No more letters to him. No more anything but disgust. He is in a sober house and it was his vehicle I saw so I do know where he is. I also know what nastiness he has been engaged in. In less than 2 weeks of engaging in this parody of a relationship, she walked out on her family to be homeless and have sex with him at his sober house with all his roommates listening, (there is only a curtain as a door to his room.). And who does it on Halloween? Where Have I Been.

Thanks but I’m not hungry | peekatmysouldotcom

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A view into living with PTSD. Thanks but I’m not hungry. So I have figured out what triggers the (ugh)disordered eating issues, at least in part. I’m sure this is no shocker to anyone but when there is violence or aggression in my life. I reassert control through the eating or not eating. So 10lbs less of me is here this week but I am still here. Today Ain’t My Day! Where Have I Been. Martyrdom of the Abuser. On Where Have I Been. On Where Have I Been. On Surrender and Release. Where Have I Been.

Surrender and Release | peekatmysouldotcom

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A view into living with PTSD. February 28, 2016. I’ve had a bit of a repetitive dream. I’ve dreamed a certain set of circumstances three times now. I dreamed that I cheated on him, with one of our mutual friends. I didn’t even care about what I was doing so much, just that I didn’t want him to know. In my dream my only concern around it is that I don’t want to hurt his feelings. If you are unfamiliar with the term gas lighting, it is defined as ” a form of mental abuse. The victim. (. Liked by 1 person.

The Talk | peekatmysouldotcom

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A view into living with PTSD. February 13, 2016. We did talk today and there was frustration and a little raised voices and tears and yes, I am raw and unsure. We did also, both, manage to somehow interrupt our pattern and stop and listen and actually hear. So what does that mean? I’m still tired today and I have things I have to get done before tomorrow. All I really want to do is sleep and forget all of this for a little bit. Middot; February 13, 2016. Middot; February 13, 2016. Where Have I Been.