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NCB: NICOLE'S BEADBACKING GIVEAWAY!!!!
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Friday, July 13, 2012. This giveaway is now close. Winners are announced above. For the next week I am giving away sample packs of Nicole's BeadBacking. Hey I love giving things away and this is a double up. Sarah, from Saturday Sequins. Told me she was having a giveaway on NBB too. You must read her blog and enter there for extra chances to win. Click here to read Sarah's review. She is so nice. 1 This giveaway is open to all in any country. Don't feel left out! So what will you win? Friday, July 13, 20...
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Words Paint: Exploring My Need to Win
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Saturday, July 20, 2013. Exploring My Need to Win. In graduate school, I recall playing bridge and later duplicate bridge with the same drive to win, the same steady focus of my attention on the cards and reading subtle nuances of my opponents' facial expression. It was all about winning. I needed to win, and win I mostly did. We played that first time, and I won. Yay! Fun, I thought, this is quite fun. The next time, my luck was down and I didn't do so well. I heard myself. I should ask them. Why am I s...
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Words Paint: New Home on the Mainland
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Monday, February 11, 2013. New Home on the Mainland. Beach - place of harmony and calm where I live now, on the island - I found a heart rock, placed it on a beautiful log, and left it there when I departed - possibly foreshadowing what will follow. Then the phone rang. The mainland agent called to say she had phone confirmation that the seller accepted my offer. In an instant my future path shifted a one-plus-hour ferry ride to the east. Twenty minutes later, I was signing papers to terminat...Confused ...
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Words Paint: Dark Emotions - Am I a Stranger to Myself?
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Friday, October 18, 2013. Dark Emotions - Am I a Stranger to Myself? I'm reading Healing Through the Dark Emotions. By Miriam Greenspan, for me a fiercely compelling book, because it's so evident that my troubles with addiction find their roots in not allowing the dark emotions of grief, fear, and despair into my life since early childhood. The author, a psychotherapist, believes that these three emotions (grief, fear, and despair) are the mother emotions. Would I be abandoned again? I was afraid. An...
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Words Paint: Dealing with "The Voice'
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Monday, April 14, 2014. Dealing with "The Voice'. While writing morning pages last Friday, I may have discovered a way to deal with the voice. The one that incessantly says I need to eat more, to eat my trigger foods because I deserve them, just this once, just eat today and be abstinent tomorrow. I'm pretty sure anybody who deals with overeating and overweight, is quite familiar with the voice. Gets pretty quiet. But once I start getting off track, it comes right back, bossier and louder than ever.
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Words Paint: Nothing is Constant... Except Change
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Tuesday, March 19, 2013. Nothing is Constant. Except Change. My previous post was all about moving to the mainland. all set. offer received and accepted. done deal. So the deal was off. What to do next? Keep looking both on the island and the mainland? Sometimes, it takes making a decision to realize what I really want. Ever had that happen? Funny how the see-saw of making an offer here and then one on the mainland finally showed me where my heart wants to be. I took another look at the house and decided...
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Words Paint: Walking Dead
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Saturday, December 20, 2014. I just returned from my OA meeting, which I've previously described as a lifeline to sanity, or at least partial sanity. At the meeting I spoke about Terry. I stopped reading about her, the book her dad wrote as he struggled to understand her alcoholism and resulting death. But I can't stop thinking about her. The grip of compulsive thought and actions dragging the person (me) into walking purgatory. Drama Is this merely high drama of the season? December 20, 2014 at 3:46 PM.
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Words Paint: Downward Spiral
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Tuesday, March 25, 2014. Help me, please. I am on a downward spiral of eating too much, especially too much bread, jam, honey, and restaurant foods. This past Saturday and Sunday, both days, I found an excuse to be alone, drove to a bakery, bought a large cookie, and ate it sneakily in the car before returning to my quilting buddies (on a retreat). I am so afraid of getting into my old binging ways, where shame and fear rule me, where my weight skyrockets and I hate myself. Do I work the steps? Usually, ...
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